PAST PLUS PRESENT

yippie!

2008-12-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

HOOTS! *happy happy happy today! :D*

Haha wondering why i have such a good mood? lols i just bought 命中注定我爱你正版 dvd! HAHAS and all thanks to wenhui, she helped me bought ILJIMAE DVD too! HAHAHAS both with just $30! LOLS i thought if i bought both i'll spend up to sixty, but thanks too clearance sales and offers, i saved a fortune! HAAS hope i can have both shows' OSTs soon too! YAY!

I am too glad to say anything else. this two days i spent all of my time at my mum's shop. It was quite boring actually la but nevermind, since i had such a wonderful reward! :D My sis's birthday present was one that she would smile whole day after getting it - 罗志祥's new album! haha we shared the cost la. LOLS quite ex though, it was nearly $30! haha then we bought a silver bracelet for my mum's birthday (it burned a hole in all our pockets because it was damn expensive. cant help it, she love gold zzz). My sis, mum and i went off early to Jurong Point at around 5pm while my dad continued to tend the shop. The 'new' JP was super super big and crowded.. but its messy.. almost got lost. There were so many cd shops that it actually took up 1 to 2 hours of our time just to shop for cds. HAHAH :D then we were in search for new year clothes for my mum. my sis and mine were already settled, now left with my mum's clothes not bought yet. HEE it is so fun shopping, but its very very tiring! after shopping, my legs were numb and tired. We went to eat at a hawker centre beside sheng siong. Jiayu told me it was near yixie's house! but too bad, yixie still at china! after eating we went to buy more new year goodies at sheng siong. HAHA we bought quite a lot! but the biggest reward of today was the two dvds! HAHAHA i cant help but be happy! xD

haha school is reopening soon! i just cant wait to get back to study! being home alone is boring man. i'd never want such a holiday again! (: hahas i've yet to get back to the study mood, and i still have to adjust myself to the 5am wake up call after school reopens. WAILS! so early.. then maybe at that time, i'll miss the holidays? HAHAH okay seeya in school!

JEANICE! :D

H B T Y T Y J (:

2008-12-24T18:43:00.004+08:00

HOHOHO! *SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN!*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUJIAN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

I realised I had skipped lots of fun things that i'm supposed to post.. AH forgive me. I admit - i'm just lazy. HAHA so did you guys have fun during this holidays? I bet I gained at least 5 kilograms during this holiday. All I did everyday was to watch dramas through the computer, eat eat and eat, and minimum amount of exercise. GAHS i am going to go back to school a little shorter and a bit fatter. Stupid someone keep using maths textbook hit my head.. zzz sure become more stupid and shorter. BLEAHS FORGET IT D: Okay this is it. I just want to narrate what happened today.

I overslept. OH MY I am really a pig. *hyehhyeh pig is the cleverest animal. I'm clever enough to chose the cleverest animal* VOMIT EVERYONE. did i just self-praise? HAA okay then I went to JRL to meet WJie and WJia. I'm supposed to read a tweeny little bit of maths. I can tell you for the so many hours there, I only did a few questions. THATS IT. i'm going to die next year. I tried to ask so many people about the chapters tested for amaths test, but only one replied. geesh! We left at around 2 for lunch. Strolling to IMM, we guys were like chatting about anything we could possible chat. HAHA nothing we can't chat. Everything is interesting. Ate longjohns. OMG i am not going to be able to sing for one whole week because the stupid crumbs made my throat so sore. talking about singing, i just feel like crying. PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH AT ME IF I APPEAR AT CSS. Haix whenever i think about it i'll just cry. i wish that i can find a hole and just disappear into the 'BLACK HOLE' and escape to the space. what face do i have left next year!? DO NOT LAUGH AT ME. i know i very lousy la dont have to tell me right in the face. gorsh i just embarrassed myself on national tv. GODNESS GRACIOUS. ARH back to topic. we sat there after eating for another hour or so to chat about 'who-knows-what' stuff. Then we went to shop for HuiJie's present. haha cant figure out what to buy for her so we'll buy next time? HAHA

Choir nowadays are much more fun. NO HOLLYWOOD, NO JOHOR BARU. only FOX, BONGXIN, CHOUSHIREN, ZEEHUI :D fun to the power of infinity! hahaha i love White Horses.. Its so nice! haha hope we can get gold new year for syf! haha gold with honors better la! LOLS haha i realised if i dont care about EGYPT and HOLLYWOOD, i will be so much happier (: hahahas doubt you guys know who i'm talking about. LOL

Oh by the way, tomorrow's christmas! feeling a bit down because of the css thing. no mood to celebrate. no friends, no fun, no mood.. aiyah maybe need to go one christmas party... ZZZZ so sian. NO MOOD LA!!! WHY DID I FAIL TO SING WELL AT CSS! fish man. aiyah whatever la. hope you guys can eat nice nice turkey, sing nice nice songs, drink nice nice wine, hear nice nice jokes, have lotsa lotsa fun! ENJOY!

BYE TO ALL!
JEANICEEEEE THE PIG. hoho

H B T Y H Y!

2008-12-23T20:48:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY IDOL GOH HUI YING!

HAHAHA too bad you'll have to wait for school reopen to receive my present for you! x) but its alright! okay here are my wishes for you ...

Have lots and lots of presents!
Always be happy!
Pink in health!
Pretty forever!
Yearn learn and earn!
Be carefree!
Interesting things to come your way!
Receive lots of love from who you love!
Truely enjoy life!
Have a group of true friends!
Do well in your future endeavors!
Acheive your aims!
Yeomanly live your life!

Thanks, my dear, for being such a wonderful friend of mine (: I appreciate your times with me and I hope you do too! Best wishes to you and hope all of your tiny wishes will all come true. AH my birthday post to you like very 老套. Hahaha! Once again, happy birthday and early merry christmas!

P.S this post is dedicated to you.
CHEERS!
JEAN :D

day out with wendy wonka

2008-12-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

HAHAS! *feel so good after a fun day with WENDY WONKA!*

You know about WILLY WONKA? WENDY WONKA's his sister. WeiJia just cut her hair and she kept saying that she looks like WENDY WONKA -.- lameness.. I told her she look nice but she insisted, so i had to call her wendy wonka..

We met at JRL as early as 10.15. She was slightly late because of a traffic jam. At first I thought I was late, but i was punctual. The library was practically empty so i was like the only soul in the library.. I wanted to read a little of physics and do a bit of maths but practically i failed to do so.. I practicised some miscellanous questions and realised i forgot alot of them HAHA. WeiJia did Bio TYS.. I have no motivation to study so I just sort of did bio with her. I was super hungry so i bought two small bags of chips in the library to eat. WeiJia ate one too LOLS.. We went for lunch at IMM around 1pm? haha i forgot le.

We walked to IMM and ate long john silver. wah we ate for a long long time and chatted for quite a while. Then we went to window shop for presents. I wanted to buy a cup for someone la but i had no money. had to buy it next time lo, no choice. We went to daiso to walk and its like so so fun! HAHA daiso is fun lah LOL. after that we went off to find a shop that sells cute stuff suitable for presents, but it sort of vanished, or should i say that our sense of direction is too bad. so we left for home by taking 188! YAY hahahs i was lost when i alighted because i didnt know which way to walk to get to my mum's shop. HAHAH but in the end i survived the unfamiliar surroundings. so lame luh me.

I spent the rest of my day in my mum's shop sleeping and yawning all the time. ZZZ i wonder why i was there at the first place. haix what a tiring day... YAWNNNS.

goodnight!
JEAN

oh my..

2008-11-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

SHIT!! *I can’t believe I am having a sore throat in the midst of the campus superstar fire. I AM IN DEAD MEAT!*

In the afternoon I received a message from Felicia that she got into 306! Haha 真不愧是我的junior! ((x must 好好加油! From next year on we are 406 already, sounds old but much more mature. LOL lameness. After that, I got a call from mediacorp just now and I got the shock of my life. They told me that I have to choose a slow and a fast song. I was so damn anxious because that means I have to quickly find another FAST song! Damn it man. It was like 12 hours to the audition and I have not enough time to prepare! >.< after a long time choosing, I chose 街角的祝福 by Penny and 幸福的氧气 by Genie for the second audition. I have this very strong feeling I will be out for this round, because right now, I can’t sing it well! The words get stuck in my throat, and it’s like so painful lahhh!! Hope it will recover by tonight, so that I will have some time to practise.

&-JEAN
*i want to get through the next round! :/

HAIX

2008-10-28T22:51:00.001+08:00

WAHH *finally.. after a tiring and fast paced day*

Waking up at 7.30am, I forgot what i did that took so long, and I left house at around 8.45am. At woodlands mrt station, i met YiXin (: what a coincidence. then we waited for JiaYu at clementi mrt station. She lied to us that she took mrt, 害我信以为真. luckily i thought over it again and realised it was almost impossible for her to come by mrt (: HAHA don't you dare trick me! LOLS we strolled to school then met MuiTeng on the way HEE. After we went in the school, we went to take the lift and behind us, andre crept up and scared us. LOLS andre can walk up the stairs very fast man, because we took the lift yet we reached the fourth floor at almost the same time as him. ZZZ FREAKY LONG LEGS. Then we met sinyi, eunice and layching on the way! HAHA. There was nobody on the fourth floor because its used for GCE olevel, and we met sylvia on the way to 306. :D after that we went to AVA rooms to check but in vain. Then someone told us its at the sixth floor, so we took the lift up again. WE ARE LAZY BUMS. zzz

After entering the classroom, benny gave us some stupid questions to do. SIAN i dont feel like doing composition lor. after doing the brainstorming with us, he gave us two hours to finish the two essays. I totally forgot about the format of formal letter lah, so its sure die one. LOL i exceeded the time because halfway through the second essay, i thought we can bring home and do if we want, so i went to finish up the 2008 eoy formal letter instead, so that i can hand it up to him. aiyoh my compo is damn lousy (i meant the story). really bullshit type of story. by the way i chose the question where we saved a friend but ended up in trouble.

After 'clearing the school' at around 12.50, a group of seven of us left for central for our lunch! :D (seven includes me, jiayu, sylvia, rachel, xiuwen, muiteng, yixin) throughout the journey, 204 gang was behind us! HAHA after discussing, most of them chose hawker! HEE that means i can eat cheap and yummy food! LOLS there were a few very desperate-for-money drinks stall aunties that kept on asking us to follow her so that she can lead us to a seat, and that we will buy drinks from her. We kept on ignoring her, but she was quite stubborn. After kicking her away, another auntie spotted us. I bet they are in a 抢顾客疯狂大作战! they are really quite desperate you see, so we followed her and got a table! :D hahah we went around to choose our food, and we met 204 gang again. YIPPIE! in the end muiteng, jiayu, sylvia and i bought curry chicken rice meal from the emeal stall. the rice was no good, chicken not nice smelling enough, vege quite sweet (: and there was this DISGUSTING THING INSIDE, jiayu said its what onion or vege's skin. EWWW. but in the end i ate almost most of them :D dont waste food! HAHAH we ordered drinks from the auntie who offered us seats. jiayu, sylvia, muiteng and i bought soya milk and xiuwen bought sugar cane drink. While eating, daniel weijie jiejun and hadley stood near us in a line, then when i looked up from my food and saw them, i almost choked. they like male models standing there for people to look at. ZZZZZZZ damn lame. after that we left for jrl and before leaving, we met 204 gang again. HAHA make me feel that we are so near each other but far from each other (cos we are not together that time).

We took mrt there and realised that the ground floor of jec is actually still open. LOLS should have eaten there :D then we went up to the fourth floor of the library, to the third, then the second. The library was simply packed, no place to sit. so we went to the second floor, chose a empty space, and sat down. we discussed about the 报章报道 topic first. we thought of a few reasons, consequences and suggestions, but there was not enough suggestions. while thinking, maybe we did talk too loudly, the librarian came and chased us away. "If you want to discuss, please go to the fourth floor. you should see that this level is not for discussions, but for quiet reading. leave now." we were rather pissed off because she could at least say PLEASE LEAVE NOW. but okay, its more important to reflect. we left for the fourth floor, and luckily, we found a girl with four benches. we asked her if she needed all, and she gave up two of her benches. with two benches, four can sit on each side :D very useful nia. haha we continued with our discussion, but decided later that we might have spent too much time discussing that topic. so we switched to the next topics. we discussed about the other compo and 私函, then switched back to our 报章报道.

At around 5, we left the library for popular. on the way we bought some food from the pasar malam. we brought our food into popular, then searched for cards. we initially chose a small (AND EXPENSIVE) card for blim, but then jiayu and i went to explore, and we found a super big and beautiful card! its only a bit more expensive but much more worth it, cos we could write a lot more things! Rachel and I secretly ate up our food (she bought nuggets i bought taiwanese sausage) then suggested for another round of food! after buying the card, we fought for long who to bring home the card. poor jiayu and me were chosen, cos well.. i dont know why. quite unfair right? HAHA SO WE PLAYED OYABEHYASOM. zzz jiayu and xiuwen left in the end, and then they played scissors paper stone. jiayu won so xiuwen had to bring it home. we went back to the pasar malam to buy food, and this time jiayu and sylvia bought candyfloss home. i went in to look at the bags, and found the bag that i like. then we went to windowshop at the clothes stall. ZZZ there was nothing to do so just shop around. after departing with jiayu, we went to the mrt station and stopped at this fashion for quite a while. haha we shopped and shopped, then left the shop. rachel's and xiuwen's train came first, then ours came a minute or two later. haix really damn packed man. cannot sit = tiring. never mind la. not too long later also reached home liao mah.

GEESH really very tired today, but still have to do four compos later leh. SIAN LAH... furthermore i got sore throat liao. super painful, cannot sing. RAWRRRR! i hate it when i cant do what i like. So for the rest of the time i watched and rewatched and rewatched hunterxhunter. HEEEEE :DDD

BYEBYE SEEYA SOON!
# jeaNice !

HAPPY 271TH POST

2008-10-27T16:30:00.003+08:00

OH NOOO *this is getting from bad to worse - my addiction to manga*

LOLS though its not bad to read manga, but its not the correct time now. Chinese O-levels are coming up. I should be studying but it seems like there is little for me to do.. I have no idea what to study or do for the chinese olevel preparation. Instead, i spend crazy hours on my sister's laptop. ZZZ up to ten hours a day? i dont know what i am doing seriously.

Forget it.. Sadly, i dont really have a free holiday like others do. Other than remedials that almost all classes have got, we have choir practices not only for cultral potpourri but also for SYF and choir day camps. Those in the performing arts group are slightly more busy than the others right? HAHA nevermind, i look forward to choir though its sometimes quite boring. If i succeed in changing my attitude, i might turn to love choir... (sounds very hard but maybe its possible).

You might have sensed it but this blog post is like crap lah. but it is to celebrate my 271th post! :DD I am SOOO HAPPY! (: not comparable to the other consistent bloggers but i am still proud of myself (although my blogging style SUCKS haha). So thats all for today! :]

JEAN
*waiting for the moment to test the bond.

EXAMS ARE OVER!

2008-10-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

Here I am giving a quick review on how I think I fared for the examinations (: I hope everyone had scored well in the EOYs.

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Emaths Paper 1:
For this paper, I purposely went to sleep early the night before. But I still do not think I did well. Not that it was hard, but I was quite careless, and it seems like I did not really do my best for the paper. I have lost quite a fair bit of marks already, and it disappoints me because the pressure for the second paper is far much more. To do well for emaths, it all depends on my second paper already. I was damn worried that I will do badly for paper 2. Sighs..
Chemistry:
I do not think I did well again. I started from the structured questions (section B) first, then proceeding to section C, then A. I did not want to start with section A first because most of the time, my confidence level always drop at the start of the exams. I skipped quite a lot of questions, and I was like panicking because there was left very little time for me to finish the incomplete questions. Furthermore, I could not memorise the formulas at the tip of my fingers, therefore I wasted a lot of time trying to figure them out. But all thanks to Mr. Liu’s encouragement, I could cheer up after the exams. That lightened my burden a little, at least maybe not a low C or what, therefore it does not contribute to my pressure.

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Emaths Paper 2:
I was more cautious about the significant figures and all those because I lost marks in paper 1. However I think I did not manage my time well enough, that’s why I could not finish the paper. I’ll have to train harder next time. Again, I got few questions wrong, but although Blim said not to rely on sympathetic marks, we have no choice but to depend on method marks.
Social Studies:
I FLUNKED IT. Now, all I can depend on is my Geography, and I feel more stressed than ever. I did the SEQ first, because I think that the SBQ is too hard, and I am glad I did that first, as I could not do any of the SBQs. I didn’t even know what the hell the sources are talking about, so I skipped them. In the end I only did the comparison question and the usefulness question. WORST – my comparison was WRONGGGGG! Sabar 不杀我,我也会自杀! Forget it man, its over already (so this is my standard for social studies.. tsk tsk tsk).

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English Paper2:
AH a total failure. I think passage A is harder than passage B, but most of the people think the opposite. But what others think does not matter anyway. My summary was gibberish, and I did not paraphrase properly most of the points because I was not only lack of time, I think the words are too hard to paraphrase. That’s it, this is how badly I fared for the paper. I was very stressed for this paper because I think I failed the English composition. I sound quite pessimistic but I think it is true la. All I hope is that my inference for each paper is wrong.
Physics:
I think I did equally lousy as the other papers. Such a worrying thing but I still seem very okay about it. Again, I started with the section B. I skipped a few questions, then I advanced to section C’s first question. But I was stumped so I went back to section A. I was very worried for my section A now because I skipped some questions but I did not have enough time to go back and shade on the OTAS the answers for those I skipped.

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Chinese Paper 2:
Firstly, I didn’t put in all my effort in attempting the questions. Secondly, I actually thought the passage was too difficult when everyone else thinks it’s easy. This proves my standard of Chinese is way below the others. What should I do to actually improve my standards?
Geography:
Maybe it was because I am really too pressurized to do well in this paper, I actually panicked and forgot to write some important details in the LORMS question. Furthermore, I lost 9 marks already. I’ve got 2 questions that I barely attempted, and I just feel like crying man. That’s it for my combined humanities.

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Biology:
It is the only science subject that I have expectations with, and my expectation is just a pure distinction, unlike pro people who want a 80 and above. I do not know if I can secure it, but I can only hope that I can scrape it.

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Amaths:
LOUSY to the power of INFINITY. Just take it as if I am a noob, koay?

Simply saying, for all of the papers except biology, I could not finish them. My time management is very poor as you can see. Need to train man..
JEANICE

BYE BYE EOY

2008-10-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

YOOHOO! *today mark the end of a string of examinations, though the real exams have not yet started*

After the additional maths exam, we all pasted smiles on our faces! :D it feels so joyful and relaxing to be with your favourite people celebrating together of the same purpose, hanging out at our usual places. On that day, 204 gang includes JieJun ChinChye YiXie YeeLing SinYi WeiQi Eunice WeiJia JiaYu me! We strolled to KFC for our lunch. (: Again, most of us ate Zinger meal! HAHA okay I was thinking some day we could all buy the same and name it Zinger Day, and it’s feasible! ^^

We were chatting while eating, and our seating was like three tables, and two tables beside. Sitting at the corner, were ME and WeiJia, then ‘中间的’ were WeiQi and SinYi, and the next two were JiaYu and Eunice. Then at the other two tables beside, there were YiXie and YeeLing, whereas the corner sat ChinChye and JieJun. YeeLing was the only girl sitting with four boys, and the ‘two-tables’ side made the most noise (meaning YeeLing is chatting happily with the other three guys HAHAH). Our ‘three-tables’ side is the more quiet one HAHA. The ‘中间的’ kept shooting YeeLing, but actually is mostly SinYi (WeiQi was busily eating). So YeeLing kept shooting SinYi back, saying ‘中间的’ very noisy. Damn funny, too bad you won’t understand. I was the first to finish, because lonely people have lesser people to talk to. You should understand what I mean J. Whenever I eat out with them, I’ll be the first few to finish. LOLS

After chatting we thought for about 45minutes where to go and what to play. We thought of Volleyball, but we do not have a volleyball and we have no open grounds to play in (the school is out of bounds to free play). WeiJia JieJun SinYi and I went to the Big Book Shop and other places to find a place that sells volleyballs, but in vain. Then we thought of basketball, bowling, and many other stuffs but no one actually thought it was feasible. Eunice suggested we go to Escape, but it was ridiculous to go that time, so we changed it to next Tuesday. From the start I was very keen on bowling already, and in the end we really decided on bowling. YAY there we go! We finally came out of KFC at around 1pm? Then we stood outside KFC, and stoned for a long time again. We all could not stand the lame JieJun; he kept crapping about going back to Nan Hua despite our tough and firm efforts to tell him WE ARE NOT GOING TO GO BACK TO NANHUA. Until YeeLing shoot him then he kept quiet about it. I forgot what the exact reason was, but we all formed a circle to surround Eunice in the centre for her to perform, but she escaped. Then because Eunice kept mumbling about escape, we all formed a circle shoulder to shoulder, forming a human barrier to prevent Eunice from entering our circle, saying we are of different channels/frequency. Then after that we kicked JieJun out as his channel was also different from us. He was super bent on going back to Nan Hua for volleyball. We then walked to the exit and stopped outside again. We again spent quite some time to decide on whether we want to go Chevrons or West Bowl. It was because West Bowl was rather expensive, thus we did not want to play there. There we go to Chevrons! :D

At last we made some progress towards the bus stop. ChinChye bought a small plane from that one-dollar-dong-dong thingy. Then at the bus stop he showed me the eerie part of the song 我不会唱歌. Freaky but I still believe it is made by a music instrument. We took a bus there and left Clementi, finally! On the bus I saw a woman wear very low cut, then its not my fault I want to see, and they call me CIKOPEH. EH!! I feel sad to be of a same level as JieJun okay!? JUST KIDDING. Does she want the world to see that’s why she wears so low? AIYOHH… tsk tsk tsk. Then we reached Chevrons, and I think it was really high-class yet we were making a lot of noise there (it was very embarrassing). We took the lift up and ChinChye acted as 见鬼’s ghost at the corner. TOO BADDDDDDDD! D: Chevrons is booked for the students to train. If we were to really play there, we have to, by hook or by crook, finish the game within 15 minutes. It was too rushed. So we left for CDANS! :DD ChinChye told us about the laser quest and suddenly, everyone had a lot of interest in it. We all wanted to go for the laser quest, and ChinChye regretted telling us. It could be a long time ago so maybe it closed down already. HAHA we walked back to the bus stop opposite Chevrons and ChinChye told us about the echoic place which roof is shaped like a hemisphere. WeiQi SinYi and I stood in the middle and tried clapping, talking, and shouting and it was sort of fun to be in there. If only we could have a stopwatch to time how long it takes for the echo to reach us. Then we can find the longest distance (: and it sounds fun. HAAS then we went back to 204 gang and ChinChye talked about Synergy thingy. Haha we thought Synergy was a place that produces electrical or any other form of energy. Then the bus finally came and off we go towards CDANS!

Frankly speaking, I didn’t know how CDANS was spelt until I saw the name on the list of the bus route. We alighted a bus stop too early and we had to walk to the gate. Until then, I did not know that Swiss Cottage is in Bukit Gombak. HAHA so noob. When we entered the building, I thought it was sort of spooky. We were led to the Star Bowl at the third floor. This time, I acted the ghost in the lift. SinYi entered after me and suddenly the door closed. SinYi screamed and I thought the REAL ghost appeared, so I screamed too. ZZZ damn stupid but it was so frightening. Don’t really know the reason why SinYi screamed, and it scared me like SHIT. BLAH forget it. We went up and SinYi WeiJia ChinChye WeiQi and I played a game each, whereas JiaYu and JieJun went off to find laser quest. After they came back, YeeLing and Eunice went off to adventure with JiaYu and JieJun. Soon, we finished our game and I broke my pathetic record of 98 to 100. WeiQi and ChinChye played another round while WeiJia SinYi and I followed JiaYu to adventure. Haha sounds as if JiaYu and JieJun are the guides. LOLS it was quite fun to adventure, especially finding the Gui Ling Restaurant and we saw a advertising paper as a place to hold wedding dinners. Then we went to the swimming pool and -.- I was called a CIKOPEH again. There was a mushroom shower there then I think it’s cute, so I wanted to take a picture of it. And WEIJIA said I was taking pictures of an uncIe (which was out of view) that was stripping to swim. AHHHH I didn’t even see him lor (framed). Then we saw a archery range that was super lousy. The board even fell off *LAUGHS*! We then saw a children playground which SinYi attempted to break in despite the fact that there was a person looking at us nearby. We went up again and into a shop that sells swimming suits, golf balls, soccer balls, fake volleyballs and other sport things. We came out after a while and saw a squash court. It seems fun but troublesome because the proper squash attire and shoes is needed before playing. After receiving a call from the others saying that YeeLing and Eunice have to go, we rushed up to Star Bowl. It was really disappointing because it was only 3pm or so, and we had to leave. HAIZ we thought of going to other places after that but most of them are leaving already. SIAN LAH!! >.<

I took 187 home and upon reaching woodlands, I messaged MinQi and asked if we could walk home together. She was already at Marsiling station when my bus only reached Marsiling checkpoint, ZZZ a fair bit slower than her. I rushed and walked damn fast to catch up with her, but in vain because she was at least 500m in front of me. A few minutes after she reached her home, I reached hers and she thinks I was fast too! LOLS so lame. I borrowed all the rest of HunterXHunter boxes from her and skipped home. I spammed watching HunterXHunter and finished all the boxes and YIPPIE! I am so happy!! FINALLY, I REWATCHED HUNTERXHUNTER!! YOOOHOOOO! Shall continue the rest of the story by reading the comics! :DD

-JEANICE-
*loving every minute I spend with you! (:
**204 gang is LOVE!
***where’s your love when I am lone?

WHEE! (x

2008-09-26T17:43:00.002+08:00

HEYYYY!! *since such a longgggg time.*

I'm sort of crazy to be here at such a critical time but it's hard to resist the temptation of the blogger. Monday marks the start of the EOY papers! I'm in a indescribable worried and anxious kind of mood, but I could not sit still and read a book. So here am I, trying to be focused at acelearning. It's regretful that Blim is unable to teach us sets before the final exam, but then I realise the finality of the lesson - last lesson before EOY. OH its wasted. *if only blim is not a discipline mistress* Okay now I'm feeling slightly tipsy, though I've not drank anything. SLEEPY bah. See how, I shall end here. I would be probably posting during the EOY period (: its not of a big problem. SEEYA!

-JEAN
*till then we meet, i'll be indifferent like nobody's business.

SORRY

2008-09-26T17:17:00.001+08:00

Here's an apology post to Cheyenne and WenHui.
Its like we have all misunderstood each other about the sentosa trip,
so lets just forget it :D
so sorry for not being able to understand the situation you are in.
and hope you have already forgotten about the anger you had gulped down last time.

Cheers to friendship! (x
``JEAN

ANGEL'S DAY OUT 230808

2008-08-23T21:15:00.009+08:00

*the more I want to forget about you, the more I will end up missing you. Why is it that you have to make it known to me?*
The more your popularity grew, the more I don’t know you.

I woke up with a startle this morning, realizing that my sleepiness got the better of me. Ah I am going to be terribly late, and I was indeed guilty to HuiYing JenIng and YuFang for waiting for me at Jurong East MRT interchange for such a long time. It was raining, so the four of us decided to take 183 on the other side to school. We met four other 306xies at Clementi MRT station namely YinKar, JiaEn, YiXin and Sylvia. That makes 306’08 (three of six 的 eight of us). That’s very lame, so ignore my randomness (though I really do make some sense). Oh let me just elaborate on when we reached school.

I bought hello panda just as I reached school, which was swarmed with other people who are going for the Charity Fiesta from classes 302, 305, 306 and 307. Then I found JiaYu and 204 gang people :D We were then asked to go to our classes to get our T-shirt with a motto “are you someone’s ANGEL”. The overall design was quite nice (: but I simply regretted choosing such a big size (M) because it doesn’t really suit me. JiaYu Sylvia YiXin and I walked to the ‘near 104’06’ toilet, to see that it was packed. So we were willing to be the hardworking ones who would climb to the second floor’s girls’ toilet near the library. Just too bad, we are just not worth to be the diligent ones, the stairway was locked. So we proceeded to the toilet at the basketball court, which was the one I first wanted to go to. HUH I should have made a firm decision from the start (lesson learnt). After that I tied my ponytail and went back to the canteen. I continued reading Dan Brown’s ‘Angels and Demons’ (which I was intensively focusing on for the past few days (correction – it’s only a day). Then I started gaming competition with JiaYu (who became my mama1) and I won! Okay we were playing Bejeweled, which apparently became my favourite after just the first try. After that our facilitators gave us a briefing of what we were going to do at the Kallang Old Folks Home. I was intimidated because I could never understand what the hell my paternal grandmother says. I just lack the flair in deciphering dialects, which was a complete alien language to me. Thinking of myself incapable of understanding the old folks just scares me, because I thought of them to be a generation way too behind us. That was not all; such a careless and clumsy person like me is totally unable to take care of a fragile elderly! These were enough to convince me that the following hours to come would be of no fun at all. The classes were gone one by one and we were the only class left to go. We were ferried in a Comfort Delgro Bus, which impressed me (lame huh?), on the way to Kallang where unseen fun awaits us. Along the journey I ate seaweed which YinKar generously gave us, the packet of hello panda, ribena sweets mama1 gave me, YinKar’s fancy biscuits (my favourite :D). Such a delicious journey was accompanied by another round of gaming competition. I won again, which made it pointless to play again (HAHA I am just joking, it’s not that I’ll win again). So I read my book and soon, we reached the home (I realised that this paragraph is just crap)!

I stood under the sheltered walkway, marvelling at the small, yet neat Old Folks Home. There, right on that spot, I never knew that from then on my thinking would drastically change. When I entered the main office, I shivered slightly due to the unceasing rain. “It’s cold”, I muttered softly to mama1. The woman in-charge, Alice, explained to us that the old folk’s home only takes in ladies. The youngest here is 61 years old, and the oldest is 97 this year. Shocking, isn’t it? Furthermore, she was the loudest, strongest and more hospitable of all. That was the good impression she left on me, until… Soon, we all went out in the chilly air to welcome the ladies from their dormitory over to the main office. They were very cute, all smiles upon seeing us waving and greeting them in English. “They are all keen in learning and love to communicate with you with their broken Chinese and broken English,” I remembered Alice saying. Some were active and all well, whereas some had difficulty in walking, thus we helped them along their way to the main office, just a ten-foot-steps distance away. The ladies were soft and elated to see us children (sorry, no choice but to phrase ‘us’ as ‘children’ as to aged people like the ladies, we are indeed 小妹妹.) and we all felt that we are welcoming the ministers or some guest of honour, even babes of the beauty contest, as one by one, slowly and confidently, they walked between two rows of waving ‘fans’, craving for a handshake from them. They let out chuckles which was all too pleasurable to forget. As soon as we re-entered the much warmer main office, we started the ice breaking session. My dear buddy 林淑贤, whom I called 淑贤婆婆 was a 90 years old cute lady (she thought she was 80 something, but Alice told her and myself that she was actually 90 already), full of tears and had the most filial children (two sons, one daughter) among the 12 ladies. Her children would visit her every Saturday (which was today) at late afternoon to fetch her home for dinner and bring her back by night. However, present ‘family’ members are driving her crazy. The stupid old 97 years old in the Home always scolded her useless and worthless, and ShuXianPoPo told me she always ignored her constant hurls of abuse. Deep down in my heart, I felt sad for her, but if I showed that I sympathized with her, she might not like it that I pity her. Alice told us that they had strong character and might not like things that we are alright with. I avoided the subject of her husband, but instead asked her about her previous job. She opened a shop with her friend and managed business that was probably sustainable, but not for long. I never managed to know her birthday, but I knew the reason why she refused to divulge. Not because age was the utmost secretive subject for ladies, but because of her inflicting pain of her past. She vaguely said that it was useless for us to know her birthday, that I guessed from the look on her face that that was a forbidden topic. Without further ado, first game begun – Pass the Parcel. Some oldie music was played and the parcel was replaced with a packet of crackers which was obviously showing the lack of thoughtfulness of the facilitators. It’s not really healthy, is it? For the elderly, it’s all health that matters. YinKar, YuFang, JiaYu, JiaEn and some others I think got chosen. The facilitators asked questions like “when’s her birthday”, “what’s her age”, “what’s her favourite food”, “what’s her name” etc. JiaYu’s buddy was the cutest of all. When the music stopped, she snatched the packet of crackers from ShuXianPoPo and said, “给我啦”! AIN’T SHE CUTE? JiaYu and I laughed and laughed about that :D. What a child-like soul she has. After the first games, we proceeded to the second game which has three stations. The 12 ladies were grouped into three groups, the star, orange and yellow. ShuXianPoPo was in the star group, whose group members had buddies like TingHuan, YiXin, YinKar and I. I was to take charge of the gaming process. The first station we went to was the memory game, where a piece of bit mah-jong paper was divided into nine boxes and numbered. The aim of the game was to memorize the colour pieces attached to the numbers and put them back together after removing the pieces from the mah-jong paper. I could still remember the colours from one to nine – 红 (red) 黄 (yellow) 青 (light green) 紫 (purple) 粉 (pink) 蓝 (blue) 灰 (grey) 青 (dark green) 橙 (orange) *am I right?* As soon as three minutes was up for them to memorize, the coloured pieces were taken away and returned to the ladies for them to put it back. There was snatching of coloured pieces, collision of hands, clashing of two coloured pieces in one box and chaos among the ladies. But around after thirty seconds, the coloured pieces were back into their positions! Clever ladies, I must admit. There, our group collated nine marks already! Then we moved on to the second station, where another piece of mah-jong paper divided into nine boxes was numbered and pasted on the floor. There was a green bean bag, where the ladies had to sit on an allocated chair behind a marking and throw the bean bag to the piece of mah-jong paper. The bigger the number your bean bag land on, the higher the marks. Most of the ladies in my group didn’t manage to get any marks because their throwing was too weak, or their bean bags landed on the lines. That’s a waste though, because they did had the potential to do well. YiXin’s buddy was the best in the star group for that station because she managed to get every bag in! Then we proceeded to the next station situated just outside the main office. The game was about a squared area at one end of a long table, and the ladies had to stand at the other end of the long table and push a red bean bag into the squared area with its perimeter marked by masking tape. I think only some managed to push it in and there are only two chances per person. After everyone finished, they went to the dormitory to have their lunch. We were all given lunch boxes which contained a chicken wing, veggies, fishcake and rice. Tastes real good! We were given quite a long time to enjoy our meal and a cup of tea (which I didn’t touch at all, tea is not my type), and after the lunch, we sat there and sang some songs like 遇见, Nan Hua School song, and other songs like 忘不了 and the 97 years old lady came up to sing church songs. They were like clapping and swaying while TeohYi, Noel, JiaYu, YinKar, JiaEn and I were busy eating a whole bowl of don’t know what fruit. Then we took group photos! We had some free time and some helped in taking out the national flag decorations, some helped in hanging up the lanterns in preparation for the moon cake festival. Then we went to chat with our ladies and I especially love to talk to JiaYu’s buddy. TeohYi, TingHuan, Noel and the two of us talked to JiaYu’s buddy and had fun taking photos together. Then all the ladies went for a nap. We returned to the main office and did some arts and crafts. We were given coloured pieces and to cut shapes out from it to form a magnet later together with our buddies. I drew a girl out of coloured paper, cut a cloud (blue) and a wand (yellow) to make an angel stand on the clouds and holding a wand (an angel for her – the theme for this charity fiesta). However it doesn’t look nice at all. Then after littering the place with bits and scraps of colour paper and colour pieces, we tried very hard to understand the manual of UNO dominoes. It was such a failure and we switched to Congat soon after. It’s not that we were lazy but we didn’t really understand the manual for this game either. So we invented games to make the best out of the apparatus provided - Seeds and holes. We played shooting of seeds into the holes, and also another lame game YinKar invented – a few of us putting the seeds out and some have to try and put them all back. It was chaos. But we had a fun time though. Then I invented yet another game, something like throwing the seeds on the floor and then making it bounce on the floor before entering the holes. That was cute, but lamer than YinKar’s game. Until WenHui and TingHuan came then we actually knew how to play. (: thanks! We were asked to stop and go for out tea break. We were allowed to pour a cup of Milo, cereal or coffee and sit with the ladies and eat some snacks like moon cakes, muffins and binbin and wangwang biscuits. We sat beside our buddies and JiaYu sat beside me. After that TingHuan and her buddy (the 97 years old one) started to do some exercise, and then played the box-bang-cloth-wipe game, hunter-chase-rabbit game. ShuXianPoPo whispered to me, “爱出风头”. Noel introduced the walking game and then JiaYu’s buddy tried linking the thumb with the pinkie, then to the fourth finger, then to the middle finger, and one by one to the thumb at the same time with both hands. Then I got a new game invented based on it. It’s like linking your thumb to your pinkie for one hand and the other hand with the thumb and index finger linked. Try moving the thumbs to the next finger one by one. Noel, JiaYu and I thought it was quite hard, but TeohYi the pro thinks it is easy. Thanks JiaYu’s buddy for giving me the inspiration! Then we proceeded to our last activity – Arts and Crafts. I was quite disappointed because ShuXianPoPo wasn’t very enthusiastic and was not involved at all. She was surprised when I showed her that my ‘angel’ can hold on to a scissors. That was the only time she got alive. Soon, we had to go. I gave ShuXianPoPo the angel and told her the places she could paste it on. I told her that when I come back to visit her, she could show me the angel again. She looked very touched, and I was comforted. The moment I stepped out of the Old Folks home, I felt that the world was so much warmer, (: with love. Then my bad luck began. The sunflower I spotted and named started to attract bees at stung me. I WAS HURT. I just felt very sad (and only JiaYu understood). On the bus journey, I was playing games and reading my book. JiaYu told me that her buddy also said a lot of bad things the 97 years old lady did to her, and when my buddy said “爱出风头”, hers said “hao lian”. LOLS seems like some ladies living there dislike her.

We reached esplanade and walked in the drizzle to a ‘goodie-bag-collection” tent. It had lots of discounts papers and vouchers, two magazines, a water bottle, a packet of crackers, a keychain and café nova sachets. We then went to the MRT station underground for shelter, where we did a survey form. I didn’t really know the exact reason why, but without control, my vision blurred, smacked with tears. I didn’t know I was upset to such extent until I started sobbing, then I knew I was really sad. So you can just expect me sulking and unhappy over minor matters. I was like complaining to JiaYu about almost everything. Sorry, in my eyes the world is no longer perfect. Then we moved on to under the Singapore Bridge, which was such a spectacular (to me and JiaYu). The misty clouds vaguely covered the roofs of the skyscrapers which are standing high and proud. Balloons were given out and I wanted so much to have one, but in the end I didn’t - it would become a problem in bringing it home. We stood there for at least an hour until our legs were sore and tired. But worse, what I saw made my heart feel sore too. If only they weren’t there to kick me out of the masquerade. Until about 5.30, we were released after getting our second goodie bag which contains another packet of crackers, a packet of lemon biscuits, another recycling bag, a towel and a fan. We went to find WeiJia to find out that they went for the walk and had not come back yet. So we decided to wait for her, and also for YeeLing and WeiJie. For about 20 minutes, then she came back, without answering 3 of JiaYu’s calls, 2 of YeeLing’s calls. HAHA and JiaYu was like saying just now WeiJia called her 2 times she never listen, now JiaYu called her 3 times she also never listen. LOLS so lame. We left as soon as 305 had their photo taking session. We strolled to the MRT station and met ChinChye at the Concourse. I should have listened to my heart and went off with ChinChye to take 960 instead of foolishly thinking that JiaYu and WeiJie would be nice souls and take MRT. I was stupid, right? In the end, angrily, I was left with WeiJia, YeeLing and SiHui. I was damn pissed off plus famished. I wanted to eat KFC with WeiJia at Raffles Shopping Centre but too bad, such a ‘high-class’ place doesn’t have it (as if). Too bad can’t eat, too good can save money: D. Then we left for HOME!!

&-sunflower.discoverer
*淑贤婆婆，祝您身心健康，不要再为了那个97岁的老巫婆流泪！
**If I could let time rewind, I would have tried my very best to let her smile once in every few minutes. Her sadness was mine, her unrevealed troubles was my unspoken worries. I’ll visit again, I promise.
***To those buzzing whispers I press down hard on my ears, trying not to ~~hear~~.
To those snapshot flashes I close my eyes, trying not to ~~see~~.
To those probing questions I ignore, trying not to ~~care~~.
But deep down in my heart, I am crying so much that I can’t say I couldn’t hear my ~~sobs~~, couldn’t see my ~~tears~~, couldn’t care about the ~~pain~~.

R-CUBE @ SENTOSA 100808

2008-08-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

10.08.08
- the more you hate me, the more I love you. Why is it that you have to kill me before the sentence is given?

Early in the morning, I woke up to realise that I was late. So I rushed to pack my things and left home. Sorry WenHui and Cheyenne for being late! ): so I met JenIng, HuiYing and YuFang at Jurong MRT at around 9 something. Then off we go to VIVO! :DD

We reached there at an early 10am. The only shop open was Daiso so we went in for a peep (but it turned out into a long stay in there). We searched for things that were suitable for cosplay. Well, I wasn’t shopping with cosplay in mind. I actually wanted to buy some nice things there. As the saying goes, time flies when you’re having fun. Soon, it was 1030 and we had to meet the others at Candy Empire. So we wrapped up our shopping mood and met WenHui, Cheyenne and LiLin at Subway. I was kind of in a hungry state, and so were the others. So, instead of salivating upon the sight of Cheyenne’s and LiLin’s long sandwich, we all went for a bite too. YuFang and I shared one Italian B.M.T, with tomatoes, capsicums (on my side) and pickles (on her side) while JenIng and HuiYing shared one. We finished the delicious (however too salty) breakfast and went off to buy a cake for Dennis. A nice chocolate cake (: yummy (though I didn’t eat it but it’s obvious that cakes at that kind of price, has to be nice). We waited for Joey at Super-dog, a rather interesting fast-food restaurant that I would want to try out one day. Then she arrived and bought her breakfast while the four of us (JenIng, HuiYing, YuFang and I) helped to take the cake (this was the start of the big mistake) and go off first slowly to the bus interchange so they could catch up with us. However, the bus came just as we reached, and then we decided we would meet them at Sentosa later on and celebrate together when everyone arrived.

At around 1100, on the bus, we realised it was going to rain despite the weather forecast promising me a good dry and sunny day at Sentosa. The rain caused an unpredictable twist (or should I say undesirable twist) in the original plan. I was sitting, squeezed with JenIng and HuiYing in a two-seater seat. I can tell you, it felt terrible to sit like that (when you are at the sides). At around 1200, it poured when we reached the beach station. HuiYing called them and heard that WenHui and others reached even earlier than us. “Taxi stand at Palawan Beach” this was where we were directed to (so obviously they took a taxi there. That solves the mystery of why they reached before the four of us). Unfortunately, only YuFang had an umbrella and that of course, were used to ferry and protect the precious little cake. ‘Ah what a bad day’, I thought. Firstly, we wanted to go to Sentosa at 8 something, but since we were asked to meet at 9 something, we wasted precious time. Secondly, it rained. Thirdly, we only had one umbrella. Fourthly, we were all wet. *If I ranted on and on, it could reach up to a hundred*. The rain wasn’t helping, and neither were they. They were calling us to hurry up, and we couldn’t rush as we like. If we ran, the cake would go down to waste. If we rushed, the cake would get wet. Okay I don’t care if we got wet, but I care that Dennis is leaving for vivo already *that is fifth*. AH poor us, the tram were wet. Imagine many people squeezing in a bench which supposedly was only for four people. That’s not it, it was wet and we had a hard time standing (there wasn’t even enough space to keep your legs straight, so you have to bend it. TIRING) *and oh that’s sixth*. What’s this compared to waiting? Pure hell. When we reached somewhere in Palawan Beach, we really couldn’t really figure out where they were (it’s not that we could memorise the map of Sentosa) so we called to ask them again. When they repeat the same thing again and again, its really getting on your nerves when you don’t understand what they are saying, cold, wet, hurried at and even scolded at *all these were seventh*. Just because we had to hurry up that my phone became wet and spoiled *that’s eighth*, plus to be blamed at, I don’t think all these was worth it. But for the birthday boy we could all forsake it. I couldn’t really believe it that WenHui actually scolded me “fucking bloody asshole” when we were not at fault (you know I just hate to be accused and misunderstood, not to say by people I simple love so much. Put yourselves in my shoes, it’s the same as you are being backstabbed by your best friend, that’s how hurting it is) *that’s ninth*. Nevertheless, we still brought the cake to them and apologised. Now I think back and I am glad I did.

Unaffected by the numerous hiccups along the way, we still built up our gaming spirit and the four of us insisted on staying in Sentosa. The initial goal of going to Sentosa was not for the R-CUBE activities, but for charity and fun. We were determined not to let the rain spoil our fun, so we waited for the rain to stop. It was such a waste that they left first, as they moment they left, the rain simply stopped and the sun was happily shining down on us. Elated, we rushed to the end of Palawan Beach. We gave up on the thought of buying volleyball at Sentosa as the balls sold there were all rubber (not the genuine one). We played with water and drew our names on the sandy beach. We sent our regards to Dennis through photos (initially we wanted to send him, but I simply forgot). Then there was this group of teenagers who were willing to lend us their volleyball, so we played still. HuiYing couldn’t play because her mother forbids her to. Same goes to YuFang (I forgot)? So JenIng and I had fun playing at the lower course of the beach (because the sand there was smoother) while the other two soaked their legs in the seawater. After that, we returned the ball back and decided to build a DINOSAUR! Somehow or rather, the dinosaur looked like a turtle (to me of course, turtles are the cutest). While we were forming the ‘dinosaur’, an uncle half naked (I EMPHASISE ON THE POINT OF BEING HALF NAKED) came and looked as we build the dinosaur. He said it looked like a turtle. HAHAH see I told you so. In the end, because the shape of the dinosaur was too small, we changed it into a turtle. Okay the reason why I emphasized on the point was because while he was STARING AT US (while smiling to himself) making the sand-dino, I said he looked like a flasher. HAHAHAH so we all thought he was a flasher. But after he left we thought that he might be just an uncle interested in our sand-dino making process, not intending to flash. HAHA we apologise man. As time goes by, the tidal waves were rising inches by inches up the shore, and that worried us. Then, the ‘ingenious’ me embarked on the ‘save the turtle’ campaign. I started to build a dam which really helped save the turtle from gushing waters. However, we realised the need to build an even larger and thicker dam as the waves were getting stronger. Then HuiYing and YuFang joined me in my campaign, leaving the task of completing the turtle with JenIng. We did our part in building our version of Great Singapore Wall. HAHAH the great wall we built was simply magnificent. The photos are below! Scroll down to take a look :D! Then we realised that we must also build a steeper slope at the bottom of the dam so that its harder for the waves reach and hit the walls. The gentler the gradient, the more energy thus it increases the rate of erosion. After improving on the measures on protecting the great wall, we improved on the great wall itself. We thickened the base and topped up more wet sand to secure the shape of the dam. Then, we embarked on our second campaign, “save the Great Singapore Wall”. We built a second baby dam to minimise the effect of erosion on our great wall and also a channel between the small dam and the big dam to channel out water trapped between the valley-like area. All these worked. :D I just love the way we work hard to make things work. Its team spirit, and naturally fun. I kept blabbering nonsense like, “as the president of the country, I won’t let the Great Wall fall! I will save all of my fellow citizens”, while working hard on the dam. LOLS they laughed. HAHA(: I took photos and videos of the erosion taking place, and JenIng, who joined later in helping in the dam making, can’t bear to see it collapse so she kept saving it. I consider myself lucky to have such a fond memory, truly. Then we reluctantly left to bathe. I was the only one who bathed from top to toe. The rest just changed or bathe without wetting their hair. OMG the water was so cold you could shiver so much that you wouldn’t want to shiver again in your lifetime.

We went for dinner and I suggested having instant noodles at 7-11. It was always such a lovely experience to eat instant noodles in Sentosa looking at good (but limited) sea view (except for this time we had trees for a change of scenery instead). YuFang was the only one who didn’t eat instant noodles. I bought spicy seafood and a packet of HL banana milk (all these a bit redundant -.-). After that I bought ice cream! :D I chose an ice cream that was melted before and spoilt so I asked for a change which led to certain unhappy events *that’s tenth*. And from this incident I discovered how lousy 7-11 works. Oh forget about that. I am just glad to have reached my goal- SUNTAN, though not much but still a bit. After eating, we went to VIVO’s Daiso again and JenIng bought magnet earrings. After seeing JenIng buy, HuiYing and I went to buy too. But sadly, within two minutes, my two dollars went down the drain *that’s eleventh*. It dropped on the escalator. I saw it, tried to take it out, but it went too deep inside the gaps, and bye! BOUGHT A LESSON, DON’T EVER BUY SUCH THINGS ANYMORE. It might not work. Went home and gahs I am so tired! Bye for now! :D

``JEANICE-DONGSAENG
*Fucking Bloody Asshole, I will remember everything but just not that. The pain, it would erase off soon, wouldn’t it?
**JEANICE AW WISHES DENNIS AW HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY! :DD
(Hahah I found out that our names are similar and our surname is the same. Luckily not too same in Chinese)
***When I walked past that shop, I felt my heart breaking intensively, vividly and painfully. Why is it that every visit to VIVO hurts me so much? I hate being such a stranger to you. Tell me why!

ME YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE

2008-07-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

OOH LA LA *tomorrow is going to be such a good day! :DD*

except for seeing you and your stupid face..

RACIAL HARMONY CONCERT & BBALL AFTER SCHOOL
with LayChing, KaiJie and other sec4 people! :D
going to play like SIAOOO. hahah hurray! (x
looking forward to a new thursday!
can skip lessons from 9.30 to 1.30 nia!
the only disadvantage is that i'll miss maths.
OH I'LL MISS BLIM. )): nevermind.

this is a rather random post if you've noticed it.
HAHAH so damn short. HAHAH its alright.
the news that choir in suzhou clinched gold
for the competition was rather shocking,
but afterall not really jaw-dropping lah.
you know it might not be really they improved.
*I REALISE I LIKE TO POUR WET BLANKET ON CHOIR.
sorry i cant help it but to suan them*
okay really, I think choir really improved lah.
JIAYOU WOR! :DD
(hope words of encouragement can help!)
you guys did really well! :D brought honor!
WELL DONE!! =))
okay thats it for this post.
still have to do english homework.
BYE

JEANICE AWWWW.. ):
*oh finally, i forgot the 'you' in me

momentarily lost

2008-07-18T23:31:00.003+08:00

U-HUH? *momentarily lost in somewhere somehow*

170708, Thursday
Three free periods! :DD no English!
But there was homework.
English speech and speech worksheet.
OH MY OH MY. I hate speeches.
then was maths. OH STRESS.
emaths trigonometry so many questions.
Biology SPA! :d drawing cells and answering questions.
BORING... luckily JiaYu Sylvia and Karina
was sitting with me or else.. it would be worse off.
Assembly was about what? Oh no I forgot.
erm a talk by Mr. Foo? hahaha
and oh a talk about our cleanliness state.
photos of dirty classes and clean classes.
Ours is half dirty half clean bahs.
Chem SPA no Mr. Liu! )):
Sian la got the Miss Wang.
GRR and she almost forgot my name.
We did the experiment of time taken
for magnesium ribbon to react completely with the hcl.
swirling, timing, washing, listening to the effervescence.
wah the smell was horrible lah.
zzz quite dumb lah me go smell for what.

LOL then after school got stupid FPSP examination!
OH GAHS. but it was quite fun!
my group got Sylvia Hiok YiXie and Jay!
lols all 204 peeps.
then we found all eight problems
and wrote them down within one hour.
TERRIBLE we sure know how to waste time man.
I was the writer and they are the thinkers
and together we are the talkers.
we selected the problem of ‘long, drawn out and ferocious conflict’
and our top five solutions were
1. Government converting all schools into integrated schools
2. Social workers persuading people to live in harmony
3. Government holding campaigns to let the people know the advantages of living in peace and harmony
4. Government signing peace treaties with IRA and British Army.
5. Organizers holding events for interaction
our final selection was the signing peace treaties one.
we finished the whole thing just in time.
hahaha so HAPPY and satisfied.
after that we went home and I took mrt to with 204 gang.
WeiJia and I alighted at Bukit Gombak
because I wanted to go to my mum’s shop.
my new shoe was hurting me so I wanted to expand its size.
we went to the pasar malam to shop and WeiJia bought chipsmore.
HAHAH then we parted at my mum’s shop :D
then I went home with Rachel and I met LiXin and Bukit Gombak.
she was going for her tuition. Haha what a coincidence.
then when I was at the mrt station, I met KhengYee.
LOLS I am only lack of meeting Vincent and KaiJie
or else all the people I know that stays there I would have met them!
LAME O.o
reached home and I did loads of things.
the first time I was so ‘guai’ =.=
I did my emaths, amaths, read chem, filed my chem file.
zzz though nothing much but its quite alot to me.
HAHA yes a lazy pig like me.

180708, Today
PE!! WHOOTS! :DD VOLLEYBALL.
seriously, I told my family to give it a thought
“BUY ME A VOLLEYBALL FOR MY BIRHTDAY PRESENT”
and their reply was “I gave you a basketball last year
and this year you want a volleyball?”
HAHAHA I must be crazy.
I played with YuFang and LiXin in my group
versus HuiYing and JenIng. HAHAHA
it was more fun playing the real volleyball! :DD
OH MY I miss volleyball man.
its damn fun playing with them and so will be the next time! :D
the bell rang and we girls still do not want to stop.
until we saw blim looking down at us from the second floor,
then we stopped. because the next lesson was hers.
ZZZ we sort of rushed up HAHA
maths was amaths trigonometry.
OOO there was this question 8 I don’t know how to do.
and blim asked me to present leh!
so I borrowed JenIng’s book.
LOLS she praised ‘me’ for drawing the axis.
HAHA so she was indirectly praising JenIng.
I told JiaYu secretly that this was not my book and she laughed.
HAHA SCARED ME TILL I ALMOST PEED. hahah
this is the stress she gives me man.
I think blim knows that that wasn’t my work.
my handwriting is a hundred times worse off that JenIng’s.
just that she doesn’t want to waste time scolding me?
haha phew man :DD
BIO FREE PERIOD! x)
During recess, JiaYu and I sat with LiXin noel KuanLian and LiLing.
after that we played at the racial harmony corner.
we played hopscotch (don’t know how to spell) and yoyo.
LOLS damn fun.
Joey super pro lah she can jump so far.
we promised to go down during lunch to play again.
physics! I was finishing up the phy worksheet,
copying notes, and doing 听写.
ChangSheng helped AnQi TeohYi and I read out the words and we write.
this is to get prepared for the Chinese test.
after physics was Chinese! -____-
I got two words wrong liao. ZZZ whatever I don’t care.
after that they all went to play
while I struggled to finish my phy worksheet.
then I ran down with YuFang to play! :D hahaha
Joey Cheyenne JenIng HuiYing YuFang LiXin and me.
we all played hopscotch :DD
then Jennings got the house number three
and all of us had to jump from starting point all the way to six!
OMG LAHS. one to five were occupied
so we had no choice but to jump to six.
LOLS no one managed to jump through except SiYing.
got twice I stepped on six but couldn’t balance myself
so I fell forward. HAHAHA
then we all changed to play with a thing
to use the leg to kick one and got feathers one.
sorry I got no childhood so don’t know what’s it called.
heehee just joking. then we all sat and played with joysticks.
HAHA Joey the pro-est. I only managed to get a stick.
we didn’t care about the bell and continued to play.
until one of us reminded all that we had chem test,
then we left reluctantly. never mind, we have Monday!!
When Mr. Liu came in, he told us not-so-good news.
Miss Shamama is coming back to school! OMG
Joey wasn’t there when he said that.
When she came back, WenHui told her the news
and her facial expression was super duper funny.
hahahaha lame like crap.
chem test was quite okay but I got one wrong already.
I was confused whether the addition of 100cm3 hcl
will speed up the reaction,
so I don’t care just say SOR will increase.
until the end of the test
then I realised that magnesium was the limiting reagent
so adding hcl won’t speed up SOR!!
GRRR WHATEVER. I am so going to fail it.

after school got what English test.
KuanLian LiLing YuJian and I but James was sick so never come.
I don’t know what about SuEng wor..
aiyah I cannot concentrate so I didn’t want to read passage A.
its noisy hot and freaking boring to sit alone.
WAHLAO I no choice so conjure up crappy answers.
heck care lah. its not exam anyway.
then I got pissed off by someone
then I rushed up to 304
to find everyone were either in cca or at canteen.
so I went down with WeiQi and YeeLing.
met up with WeiJia and JiaYu and XianZheng.
the two of them siao le drink two packets of drink. pro right?
LOLS I no money so borrowed fifty cents from yapyap.
HAHA I realised I like to call JiaYu - yapyap, WeiJia - jiajia.
we sat for quite a while until WeiQi and YeeLing came down.
four packets of ice peach tea contributed by JiaYu and WeiJia,
one from me, two from WeiQi and YeeLing.
six packets! :DD hahaha
then I must be too bored or what
keep playing with the packet drinks.
taking photos and stuff. zzz
haix finally they wanted to go home and so
we went up to 304 and slacked for a LONG time
till Eunice was dismissed and we left for canteen to wait for SinYi.
then I discovered that I left my ss and geog textbook in 304!!
OMG DIE LIAO.
I run towards the GO on my ohh-so-bruised feet. zzz
I swear not to run with that pair of stupid shoes again!! -.-
but too bad, the stupid clerk doesn’t let me open the door. ZZZ
thanks Daniel for lending me your social studies book! :D
We decided to leave without SinYi
because she said she still had to stay back for a long time.
We sort of walked damn slowly to the bus stop.
It feels weird without SinYi. HAHAH
I went down to Causeway to check the price of volleyball.
Then my sister said, “no you are not getting it”
So I gave her a choice – either volleyball or Addidas bag
she said she would rather buy a bag for me. HAHA
That’s it. I’ve tricked her into buying me a bag! WHOOTS
hahaha then I went home here I am! :DD

JEANICE
*if I could, I would apologise and let everything start all over again.
**without your interference, I would be so much happier.
***I can’t wait for the next new beginning.
For all I know, it’s hard to forget someone you loved so deeply.
****是你不知道我爱你有多深.

CERTAIN MOMENTS AGO

2008-07-16T23:21:00.005+08:00

GEESH *omgomgomgomgomg you've got to be kidding!*

140708, Monday
I TOTALLY CAN'T BELIEVE THAT LAME WENHUI
DREAMT OF SOMETHING SOO DISGUSTING!
=______________________________=
This is the biggest shock of my life. ZZZ
Okay never mind. Just feel violated to be dreamt of.
JUST JOKING. Haha but she must have got such a shock
to wake up so abruptly from the dream. LOLS
On behalf of the 'me' in the dream, sorry to have scared you.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
THANK LAYCHING FOR HELPING ME PUMP MY BBALL!
Hahaha I had to carry that damn bball all the way to school
and I was soo soo soooo late! GRRR
wet weather really pleased me as I can rest in class.
I practically rushed straight to school. OH TIRED.
Joy koh is not here so we sort of had free period! :D
National geog is super interesting! HEE
got alot of photos -.-
Chinese is spelling! HAHAHA
Super cool la the spelling words we never learn ma,
so Benny very understanding,
he will give us clues on how to write the words,
like the sides and what the word looks like.
HAHA NO PE. Very happy because don’t have to wear pe shorts.
O.o Geog! He damn damn damn cute.
When he came in into the class, the first thing he did was -
write + draw on the board to tell us
that he had sore throat
due to crying from after the summer camp.
OH POOR MR YEO ))):

Ahh some weird things happened. HAHAH
You know, with funny people, fun things happen.
WenHui LayChing TingHuan YiAn and I forgot who stayed back.
(forgive my brain that had a screw loose)
I forgot what I did but it must be nothing much.
OH I remember. MATHS!! HEE
and AnQi and FunChung were with us too.
It was five already and the library was about to close.
But we slacked at the second floor of the library.
Until we heard the door downstairs was closed,
then we started to rush down.
It was all a mistake. Uncle was closing the back door -.-
After we left the library, one by one left for home.
All left was WenHui LayChing and I.
I introduced my game – ‘guess the year the coin is made.
LayChing had a one dollar coin
and she sort of got addicted to it,
so she wanted to change the one dollar to ten ten cent coins.
ZZZ FUNNY LAH SHE. After we finished the ten coins,
we renewed the coins by changing it with the drink stall aunty
for another new set of ten cent coins.
-_____- quite lame but fun in those boring moments.
After that we left for HOME.
When we reached the SAC,
LayChing discovered something moving
in the end of the corridor at the SAC room.
She stopped dead in her tracks
and observed the white figure crouched on the floor.
I walked back to take a look as I was in front of her.
We both waited for a while
then WenHui walked back to take a look.
Just as WenHui peeped into the corridor,
the white figure stood up!!
OMG the silhouette of the white figure was nearly
a hundred percent same as the shape of a ghost.
HAHAHA standard ghost figure,
so you can imagine how spooky the white figure looks like.
Then as it stood up,
WenHui was so freaked out that she screamed
and ran away so that the white figure was out of view.
LayChing started to shout and chant OMGOMGOMG
and then even I got spooked.
The atmosphere was raving mad,
and then I got so disgusted of my timidity.
‘What’s the problem lah!
Just a white figure what zzz.’ I calmed myself down.
So I walked back and observed.
THEN, THE WHITE FIGURE MOVED AGAIN!!
It crouched down, a praying-like gesture
in the northeast direction if you treat the sac as north.
Then few minutes later,
LayChing and I were like shouting and hollering at her.
Okay, mostly me.
Because I thought the ‘white figure’ was someone
who entered our school without permission.
Then I said “why are you in our school compound?
Eh I am talking to you, YOU! (she wasn’t responding)
The white white person in the corridor! OI!
If you don’t reply now I’ll call the police!”
HAHAHA I can’t believe I actually said that! =.=
LOLS I just wanted to get to the bottom of the matter,
so much so I actually called for Mr. Foo when he walked past.
AIYOH I AM SO REGRETTING MY ACTIONS. paiseh man.
Juniors were so baffled by why LayChing WenHui and I
were standing there and making such a din.
Then LayChing called john and found out who the figure was.
IT WAS THE SECURITY GUARD!! ahhhh
HAHAHA ALL THREE OF US AGREED THAT
THE SECURITY GUARD SCARED US LIKE >.<
zzz what made me think was most freaky was
why was someone not belonging to NanHua,
hiding at the end of the corridor
and praying in front of a door!?
I feel so damn cheated man.
GRRR shit lah. What crap man.
Reached home and was dead beat.

150708, Tuesday
CHEM! WAHAHAHA
early in the morning can see Mr. Liu = YAY.
Then next up - Social Studies.
OH boring like crap.
Bio was two free periods!
During recess, as I was about to return the bowls,
I heard the stupid dedication.
It was playing the song I liked 我爱的人.
Oh I was so damn pissed off.
But I after that I was thinking 我若生气中他计.
huh whatever lah.
I’ve said for many times, 别人的事情不是一种玩笑.
If you want interfere with other people’s business,
you will get interfered with too.
CEP next up. I forgot what happened.
Should be cyber wellness bah.
I also forgot what happened in Chinese lesson le.
Maths was trigonometry too if I am not wrong.

After school was GCE O-level Listening Comprehension Examination.
OMGOMG so scary but I was not scared at all.
Before the test we rested for a long while.
Then the examination started.
When the first passage ended, I was like so shocked.
How come so short!? I haven’t even understood the passage wor.
At the end of the examination, we compared answers.
I got two wrong according to KuanLian WenHui and Cheyenne.
I was like so damn sad and emotionally unstable.
Thanks to WeiJia WeiJie and JiaYu for comforting me.
)): then I stayed back at the NPCC hangout corner.
I sat at one bench with TingHuan and LayChing
whilst ChinChye YanRu and HiokAnn sat at the other.
TingHuan did her stuff, I read ‘Ugly’ and LayChing listened to songs.
Time passed really slowly and until it was around 5.30,
we left for home :DD

160708, Today
Two free periods early in the morning! Yay man.
But something puzzles me. Is joy koh sick or on course?
Two periods of ss. all about copying answers! ZZZ
BUT FINALLY. Don’t have to see Miss Wong after this week.
Actually she is not that bad la, but worse off than miss tan.
Haha Mrs. sabar is going to take over us! HURRAY
There is hope for ss! :D
Physics is so damn boring man.
I was reading ‘ugly’ most of the time,
and copying notes zzz
Sian lah I sure fail physics all the way man.
Can’t be anymore sure for that!
Geog! We had been told about the group project.
My group consisted of JiaEn Andre YewYeong FunChung.
Hmms hope that we can do a good job out of it! :D
Maths is just plain boring.
Trigonometry kills me you know. ZZZ
I can understand the concepts
but thinking that there are five chapters for trigo,
stress just piles up. GEESH >.<
We got this 3D trigonometry pre-test.
I got one careless mistake and one wrong. zzz

After school JiaYu Dixie and I stayed in 304
and did the chemistry project.
Sylvia was absent and Hiok was at odac.
The rest of 204 gang was playing hangman through the visualiser
and one of it I would never forget till now.
---- --- ---AN (geog)
we thought of everything to do with sec2 geog
until when the word became like this
-OON -I- -H-AN
then Daniel shouted POON YIP KHUAN!
hahahahaha what’s the damn link man.
Just that she taught us geog!? HAHAH
I was just about to link the alphabets to the –OON.
SOON? MOON? HOON? DOON? no such words.
zzz so we all laughed and laughed and laughed!! :D
Then we all left for HOME.

JEANICE
*found a way to love someone.

again and again, my life tipped you out

2008-07-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

SIGH *when can i realise that all these are happening because of me?*

i can never step back and hide anymore. this is it. settle it.

I shan't elaborate on this horrible week. I felt bruised all over and tired of all that is happening in this world. I got tangled up with such political stuffs with gradings and wars and i am so damn fed-up of such complication. Honestly, i feel like just shutting everyone up but i cant because everything they say makes sense. So tell me what to do to not escape this reality and settle what is infront of me.

Oh I discovered that using computer had been a chore for me lately. The same routine, MSN, blog, gaming, playing music. HOW BORING. have you got any quizes for me to do? and my eyes hurt after staring at the computer for hours. GEESH need a change of entertainment. nevermind, I'll be able to play bball soon (all thanks to layching for offering me help in pumping the bball) :DD HAHAHA! so much excitement that i cant contain them with a simple jug! LOLS.

I am currently hooked to english songs and especially THE CLICK FIVE! omfg they rock like hell! and I am anticipating for the next episode of Fated To Love You. I am soo going to sakae sushi! LOLS my family is going to sakae sushi to celebrate my father's birthday. HEE i am gonna eat like a fat pig. HAHA okay I hope to go to school soon. Alone at home is BORING =.= *may the weekends fly past!* I shall do some work now xD

&-a.new.beginning
*LOVE, is nothing I hold :D
**in this window of hope i step through, my brand new life is without you (:

zzz cut short -.-

2008-07-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

DAYS WERE FUN but saddening.

i am glad. i am sad. i am mad. i am bad.

today was FUNN.
but i dont really enjoy it because i feel TERRIBLE.
there was no need to say that i was sick?
its written on my face.
except for people who don't even care,
they would ask, you sick meh?
you know yourself.
zzz no need to say about that.
the rain stopped when we reached clementi
and left me gloating over the fact that there's no morning assembly.
seriously, i think that nan hua is really clever in the sense
that they know how to make use of time.
before school even starts, they wanted us in the hall.
and we took a pretty long time to settle down.
when we are settled, i thought it was near the end of open space.
but it was only 7.52am. cool man.
they sure know how to make use of rainy days.
after openspace was another boring english period.
i realise i really can't stand joy koh. ZZZ

GAHS the rest of the day is PRETTY BORING haha

so i shant elaborate! heee

stayed back in school with wenhui and people.

sian okay i shall keep this post SHORT

because my sister is SHOUTING ME LIKE OMG.

byebye ): D: O: P:

JEANICE AWWW

I'm okay.

2008-07-07T17:59:00.008+08:00

Oh *I couldn't understand why I felt disappoinment*

But I finally understood why you had to leave, was because of me?

050708, Saturday
That morning I wasn’t late,
just to break the spell of being late. LOLS
I met YuFang on the way to school and we went there together.
Initially I was grouping with TingHuan and Karine,
but I wanted to go with 204gang people.
HAHA :D and it was definitely a correct choice.
JenIng and I shared a tin but she took the tin instead.

Our very large group consisted of
XiuHuan SinYi JieJun YanRu Daniel Hadley
WeiJie WeiJia HuiJie and me.
We didn’t know where to go so we took second train that came,
which was the one to Pasir Ris.
Orchard, Harbourfront, Outram, Redhill, CityHall, Bugis....
In the end, we went to Bugis. HAHA

When we reached there, we spilt into three groups,
SinYi XiuHuan me, WeiJia WeiJie HuiJie,
YanRu JieJun Daniel Hadley.
We didn’t really went around to ask for donations.
The people there were really soooo ‘BUSY’
that they totally ignored you. RUDE EH?
Disappointed, we cheered ourselves up with ice cream.
I bought raspberry ripple,
XiuHuan bought chocolate chip and SinYi bought chocolate.
HAHA and something encouraging happened
as the icecream stall uncle took the initiative
to donate some coins in our tin.
Elated, we foolishly believed that the stall holders are ‘NICE’.
Its not true you see, when we approached a uncle selling bags,
he scolded us. ZZZ
say what we can’t even feed themselves how to donate.
Fine la, if you don’t want to donate, just say so.
I’m so not interested in your life.
We met WJie WJia HJie later on and we decided to leave Bugis
for another much more suitable location.
Then, three of us left for RedHill.

REDHILL!! DAMN NICE LAH.
Haha sadly I ran out of luck in getting donations from Cabs.
HMMS... So we went to the market place and met nice people.
I am sure both of them agree with me
that people in the neighborhood are so much nicer
than people in the ‘busy’ districts.
hahaha for lunch, I went to TingHuan’s grandfather’s stall again.
haha I wanted to eat the same thing as last time
but I didn’t know what was it.
So that was how I ordered my lunch...

me-不好意思，你认识TingHuan 吗?

her aunt-哦认识啊!

me-那你记得上个星期六她带了一群朋友来,你还请他们吃饭吗?

her aunt-记得啊..

me-那当时你请他们吃的是什么？

her aunt-记得..

me-那我要吃那个.
* she laughs *

her aunt-哦所以当时你有在啊?
* I nods *

That must be the lamest conversation I had with a stranger!
LOLS Then after that, another relative of TingHuan came to me,
to give me back the money I paid for the food and she said,
“you don’t have to pay. We treat you.”
I was like UHUH and quickly gave her back the money.
She came back again and said
“don’t need lah, you are doing something good here.”
She was referring to helping for charity but I said,
“but you all earn a living!”
I managed to pay by putting back the note on the counter.
LOLS she was really nice man.
TingHuan messaged me that night asking me
if I went there because her grandmother told her about it.
HAHA funny man.

We left for Clementi at around 12.45
because I was eating MrBean’s icecream. Its quite nice.
HAHA when we reached there,
WeiJia’s group were already there waiting for us.
So we walked to school and waited for JieJun’s group.
Poor SinYi had tummyache and I suspect its food poisoning
because its the same symptoms as me. HAHA sad man.
reminds me of the terrible experience in the camp.
We left for Sumo-House once they arrived,
and they ate while I played with SinYi’s phone.
I was so full that I simply had no appetite for food.
Soon after, we left for home.

060708, Sunday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIA EN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
*hope you can stay pretty, healthy, cheerful and sweet!*

That night I went to ChinaTown with my family
to survey bags in that vicinity.
People said that bags sold there were cheap
so my mum and dad went to check the market.
The shops there sold bags that were either cheap but bad quality,
or cheap with quantity, meaning the more you buy,
the cheaper they will sell them to you.
I must say ChinaTown possess a lot of speciality.
The reason why I said that
was because it distinctively showed the essence of china.
That was when my mum asked,
“how come all the things sold here are so chinese?”.
Seems like the name of the street she was on
failed to remind her that it was CHINAtown.
HAHAH my sis and I laughed like mad.
We ate at a hawkercentre above People’s Park food centre.
It was oily, dirty, but not smelly. Aromatic, I must say.
However the noisy environment I was in disturbed me
so I wasn’t in any mood to eat.
I ate and drank half-heartedly
because all in my mind was the 10.30 show – The Yang Warriors.
My mum almost slayed me because I kept bugging her to hurry home.
There was this concert for the earthquake that affected SiChuan
and my mum was like so attracted to see who would be performing.
I was like, “mum, there is nothing to watch.
This kind of non-popular charity performances are for aunties and uncles.
You don’t wish to be a part of them, do you?”
That managed to work and she left hurriedly
to survey the shops there before the closing hour.

I reached home at 10.44 and when I switched on the teevee,
it was about to enter the ‘toliet-break’ part. ZZZ
so pissed off. The remaining show did not even show QiLang.
))): I WANT QILANG! HAIX.
So sad lah the WuLang keep on objecting SiLang’s views.
Purposely pick on him. GRR.
okay I shan’t continue to crap about the show.
At around 1 something, my sis, mum and I
was playing the typing speed test. LOLS
I know its lame but we were competing like nobody's business.
HAHA my highest record that night was 57wpm
and my sis's was 39wpm. My mum's was 37wpm.
so I was the fastest typer. HAHA damn fun lah.
Till around 1.30 then we went to sleep =.=

070708, TODAY
I just watched Fated To Love You episode 16 and 17.
DAMN DAMN DAMN NICE!!
unexpected that SinYi will fall in love with ChunXi again!!
Stupid Anson sent the wrong present,
make SinYi feel dejected because she got to know
about his engagement with Anna. SADDD.
Still can’t believe that SinYi still loves ChunXi sooo much.
AH how touching. HAHAH lols
oh man. I am sooo addicted to FTLY man. HAHAH
Sian have to wait till next week for episode 18.
-_______-

JEAN ):
*if my tears ever fall, its not your fault.
I am too foolish to try and reach for the sky.
I pay for whatever I break, I compensate for whatever I hurt.
*i’ll pay for my heart, i’ll compensate myself*

**I just love to love you.
Even if your heart is too big for my little pocket,
I’m willing to be there for you.
I’ll broaden my horizons for you,
and take you to where I can reach to.
For you I could.
*for you i could*

送汤 & 深思熟律

2008-07-05T20:08:00.007+08:00

送汤 - 欧睿君

又是日落，一年像飞一般地度过。我坐在微湿的草原上，呼吸

着令人感到心精安定的空气，弥漫着世界的感动和波动，就像

父亲的心跳一样跳动；那浪漫又温暖的气氛就像他的那碗汤一

样的温馨，体贴。

“宝贝，今天我为你熬。。。” 父亲的那一段话，我会永远，

永远的记住。

伴随着我未来的一生不仅仅是对您的思念，还有像影子般，形

影不离的遗憾。我从来也没有真心地关心过父亲的喜好 – 像

是对烹饪深感的兴趣之类的事我都得从林姨，附近的诊所护

士，来告诉我 - 也不管他是否开心当药材店的伙计，身体是否

健康。如果我早一点问候父亲，也许这些事情就不会发生了。

**************************************

我仰望着那外壳因岁月的流逝而渐渐老化的那保温瓶，心中仿

佛打开了记忆的闸门。所有的回忆都涌上了我那情绪复杂的脑

子里。

父亲紧握着我的手，我感觉到父亲的手温暖不已，无形中转达

了无比的力量，一种对自己不够疼爱父亲的激怒。为什么我没

有早一点向林姨问候父亲？为什么我要等到父亲出了事我才知

情？一切都太晚了，我实在太不应该了。竟然把患上老人痴呆

症的父亲丢弃给林姨照顾，我行我素地离家与阿裉同居。我捏

紧父亲逐渐失去温暖的掌心，心中更是怨恨自己自私的行为。

看着他眼角的鱼尾纹，而我万万没想到那是最后一次抚摸他的

白发、躺在他的宽胸上，聆听他的呼声。就这样在温情的月光

底下，一睡觉就再也没醒来了。

还记得我跑到山顶上大声地向要躲进山谷里的太阳哭诉，责骂

自己。是我。是我使曾经充满了无限的父爱、包容、期待的那

保温瓶变得空空荡荡、沉沉静静、冷冷漠漠。我那双颤抖的手

把瓶子微微捧起，圈进怀里，悄悄的，情不自禁地让眼泪模糊

我的视线。“父亲，我是多么的想念你、多么的爱着你、多么

的惦记你。你为何要在我尽子女恩情之前离开我？”

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父亲每天风雨不改地亲自熬送汤给我喝，而我对他的行为感到

困扰。这七年来，他不管多累，多烦，多辛苦，他都会坚持把

汤送到我的办公室，要我补一补疲惫的身子。每天傍晚灌下那

再普通不过却充满了爱意的汤已是我惯常表达谢意的方法，而

看我喝得津津有味是父亲执著的原因。每一次父亲唠叨我一定

要喝到滴水不剩，我都会目无尊长地不给与一丁点尊敬和孝

心，嫌他啰嗦。

“已经好几天了，怎么汤都没送来呢？”当时，我就应该察觉到

有问题了，但总是给工作耽误。那是临晨两点钟的电话。我整

晚无法入眠，心里七上八下，感到忐忑不安，开始担心起父

亲。

“喂？找谁呀？”不出我所料，是林姨接的电话。

“是我，林姨。父亲还好吗？”我急促地问。

“他。。。他。有一件事情我犹豫了很久，不知道应不应该违

背你的父亲，把它告诉你。可是我认为事到如今，你绝对有权

知道这事。”她吞吞吐吐的说道。“你父亲，他。。”

这豁然大悟使我一时之间无法调试过来。我紧绷的脸孔像拉到

极限的橡皮筋一样，随时崩溃断裂。他不规律地送汤的原因是

因为他常常迷了路，忘了到我办公室的路途。我的心重重的，

晃晃的，危险的垂着。上一次他隔了五天才送汤来，我对他大

呼小叫，毫无礼貌。

疑视着在神座上的照片，我反复地回想，我是否做到了做女儿

的责任。。。那愤怒，那喊叫声，那责骂，不知不觉地在我内

心深处形成了无法解脱的罪恶感。

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但近日不同往日，天天所收到的保温瓶也不再填满这还灼热的

汤水。“父亲，我想对你说的话是多到数不清，对你的恩情是

一辈子都偿还不了。谢谢你。。”我看着日落，希望微风能把

我心中的话转达到你的耳朵。

____ -暗示方法

xxxxxx-排比手法

xxxxxx-比喻手法

xxxxxx-拟人手法

深思熟律 - 欧睿君

再普通的一个场面，也能有幻想浪漫的空间。再平凡的恋情，

也会有轰轰烈烈的回忆。再简单的祝福，也能转达刻苦鸣心的

爱情。

深

你深情地看着我，像是有穿透力一样的看穿我的心意。只不过

是三十秒，但却足以能让我手心冒汗，心跳加速。当你渐渐靠

过来，我不知不觉地关上双眼，紧握着我的丝绸裙子，紧张的

嘟起了嘴唇，不停地深呼吸。我能听到你的呼吸声越来越靠

近，你的手突然抓住我的手，要我放开裙角，放轻松。就是那

样子，我深爱的你抢走了我的初吻。

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思

风吹过我的细发间，时间像水一样从我和你握着的手中流失

掉，但是我与你的恋情却与日俱曾。可惜的是，美好的时光不

能永久拥有，始终会有悲伤的时候。还记得当天，下着倾盆大

雨，我和你本约在公园一起共同享用野餐，但天不作美，一场

雨就把我们的野餐给搞砸了。我们手牵着手抱到小亭子里避

雨，但湿透的我们俩正冷得直发抖。我们拥抱着彼此，希望能

转递各自的温暖给对方。我们轻声细语，空气中弥漫着浪漫的

气息。我不知该感谢，还是讨厌这场不伤兴致的雨，带给我们

最后的拥抱的机会。“小君，有一件事我想告诉你，但你要有

心里准备。我。。。我。。。”原本抱着你的我顿时愣住了，

缓缓地望着你。“你说，你要出国留学？小明，难道我们的爱

情就不能是你留下来的理由吗？”我含着泪，哽咽着。“我必

须离开，但若我们的爱够坚定，漫长的岁月一定像飞一般的度

过。很快的，你就能见到我了，不是吗？” 当时我的思想是

- 如果你爱我，就不会离开我。我对你的思念，仿佛永不兑现。

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熟

对不起，那天我离开了你。当时我完全无法理解你的意思，也

不能体谅你的处境。可是，谢谢你毫无怨言，忍受我的野蛮。

我习惯有你在我身边，熟悉你的身影，你的脚步，你的声音。

跟你相处的这四年来，没有你的任何一天就像见不到阳光一样

的痛苦，难受。你要离我而去，我怎能从容接受这个安排？

也许是命中注定让我爱上你，让像鱼儿的我陷入爱之海；让我

们分离，海水把我冲上岸；再重逢，让下一阵浪把我重回海

里。是曾经拥有，还是永入爱河，一切听天由命。

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律

一刹那的爱情，下一刻，一切都可能不会再存在。曾经拥有，

也得放下；灿烂时刻，也只能收做回忆；璀璨的烟火，也只能

是曾经，不会永远存在。你无论如何都得去留学，我那还能管

舍不舍得。只要我们清楚记得彼此还相爱着对方，无论是在世

界的那一端，我们的心只有你我。爱的主旋律有我们刻苦鸣心

的爱情故事做歌词，世界的律动由爱情带动。

你的归来，是我人生的另一个开始。在起跑点上，不仅仅有

我，也有你。终点是你我的未来，但我们并不是参赛者，而是

并肩作战的搭档，再灰蒙蒙的日子里照亮彼此的天空，鼓励对

方，互相照顾。只要想起两年没有你的日子，我就庆幸自己能

熬过来，和你再次相见。我是多么的爱着你，多么的关心你，

多么的在乎你。有你，一切的一切都会很完美。爱情是那么美

好的感觉，像是连眼前的事物都变得很有活力。

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你渐渐地靠过来，你不知不觉地关上双眼，抚摸着我的双肩。

我能听到你的呼吸声越来越靠近，我情不自禁地向前涌过去。

我的嘴唇与你的触碰了，有种湿湿的奇妙感觉。就是这样子，

我不必深思熟虑，就能让你抢走我的爱吻。

t.h.a.t.s.i.t

2008-07-04T23:01:00.007+08:00

LALALA *the melody reminds me of certain memories..*

about you, me and us.

030708, Thursday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIQI!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
*my dear ah leong! FIFTEEN LE! haha :D
must jiayou and all the best in your fifteen year!*

This morning I woke up late. Very very late.
I’m supposed to wake up at 5 but I woke up at 5.52.
Terrible, huh? I was wondering if I should take cab,
but luckily I didn’t. I was out of the house by 6.03.
so it means I took only 11mins to do what I usually do in 1 hour.
HAHAHA can try again next time
because in this way I can sleep more =.=

ENGLISH 3 periods! HAIX. DI again and again.
making me tired or changing places. ):
The lessons were quite funny on the overall
because there was these two blur blur presenters -
Li Lin and Li Xin, whom Ms. Joy Koh call them as
‘not-on-task / not-attentive presenters’. LOLS

Maths was boring! >.<>
When Blim asked people to go up and write answers on board,
I’ve this damn strong feeling that she will ask me up.
Then, she walked over to Yu Fang’s table and passed a marker to her.
Till I secretly heaved a sigh of relief,
she passed another marker to me.
-__________-
LOLS seems like my premonition came true.

BIO SPA! super rushed lah!
I didn’t even get to finish two of the questions behind.
SAD. haix but the experiment was considered quite fun lah.
Purely drawing of leaves, labeling, magnification, heating,
timing, observing, answering, washing.
I like to draw the leaves!! Damn fun =.=
and I really hate Ms. Loy to the core so PLEASE,
stop saying that we look alike.
I don’t even know if that is a praise or a criticism
whenever I’m linked to her. ZZZ

ASSEMBLY was quite fun
because we could see NHRIANS get up on stage to dance.
There were two boys, Yanger, SiYing,
Sharline (don’t know how to spell) and another girl.
the whole thing was just FUNNY NIA! :D

During lunch, I was sitting at the teacher’s table
in front of MuiTeng and JiaYu while meddling with the projector.
Then JiaYu told us a joke that was not that funny but at that time,
I guess it did sounded funny.
ABABABABABABAABBABBBABB... (in no particular order)
guess 4 words. :DDDD
*HINT: what will you say when you meet someone after some time?*
ANS: LONG TIME NO SEE. (long time no ‘C’)
ZZZ lame huh? then let them play with MuiMui.
JiaYu was LAUGHING like mad because as I hold MuiMui,
she thinks its MuiTeng. HAHAHAHA lame.
In order to stop her from laughing,
I changed the name to TingTing.
and she thought it was MuiTeng again.
MuiMui, TingTing. LOLS
they cant catch the joke that MuiMui was a *AHEM*.
O.o so we kept laughing and saying that MuiTeng was MuiMui.
=_____=

CHEM SPA! We were late for 15 minutes
and Mdm. Tan was FURIOUS like nobody’s business.
LOLS loads of people went for chinese oral exam
so less than half the class was present for the chemistry spa.
Its only coiling, weighing, heating, observing, cooling, answering.
My crucible actually cracked and Dennis broke his. ZZZ
Luckily we don’t have to pay HEE.
We finished the whole thing at around 2.55pm. late huh?

After school, I went home? I’M OLD MAN. cannot remember.

040708, Friday
I WAS LATE AGAIN. I woke up at 5.48 this time
and I stepped out of house at 6.02. HAHAHA
I simply got some problems in waking up. ZZZ
it rained! WHOOTS MAN. no morning assembly :D
however, it brought inevitable disappointment.
NO P.E! So we stayed in class and did nothing.

Maths was so called free period because Blim fell sick. ):
but we had to do miscellaneous exercise 8.
That’s what she means by ‘my lessons are never free periods’

Biology was again about copying answers for SPA 3.
I start to hate Bio a little man.
Furthermore the topics on what plant nutrition and others are BORING.
Grrr I am worried that I’ll start to slack man >.<

OH MAN issit physics is boring or that I am tired?
I am sleeping three quarters of the lesson!
The most interesting and funny part was
when YiJie pasted the Youth Appeal stickers on Mr. Ling.
HAHAH and FunChung took it down.
LOLS the whole day we were playing with the stickers
and pasting it on YewYeong’s Parry’s and James’s back.
LOLS. JenIng YuFang and I were trying to paste it on HuiYing.
I managed to paste it on Joey
but I took it down soon after in case she would be angry.
HAHA Next was HCL
but many people slacked at the dental clinic
so they can skip the test.
LOL funny man. Benny was reading us a story.

It was rather similar to ‘橘子’ but chimer than it.
Till the ending of the chinese lesson, then they came back.
HAHA PRO MAN.

Chem was SUPER DUPER FUN.
School should make Mr. Nic Liu as our permanent chem teacher!
We had three periods with one eating outside school hours.
He made very interesting and funny demonstrations
to help us remember certain concepts. :D
and I love the way he teaches man
because it doesn’t require us to copy keywords.
All we need to do was just to highlight. (x
not that we are lazier,
but it is more useful as we can jot down notes.
three periods flew and several people could stand it already.
so Mr. Liu was like saying “HANG ON. just a little longer!”
I don’t understand why some of them can’t hang on
because his lessons were totally superb.
If I miss a word he says, I’m gonna slap myself awake.
WenHui and I was like still super energetic in his lesson.
haha then I told her that we can save energy for after school LOL.

After school Joey WenHui KuanLian Cheyenne and I
stayed back in the library to do work.
Then LayChing, JenIng and YuFang came and joined us.
KuanLian left to talk to LayChing,
then Cheyenne walked around to browse through books,
WenHui left to find KuanLian and Joey was cold so she went out.
HYEH alone man.
LOLS we read a fortune telling book and it was rather interesting.
hahaha and I actually told them something
I would not have told anyone else. zzz
after that we left the library.
Cheyenne and Joey left and we sat at fourth floor to watch soccer.
It was a nice experience watching soccer
and I think soccer is quite fun to watch afterall. :D
WeiSong had muscle cramp LOL
and initially we thought he was faking by lying on the ground.
But it was quite a long time and he was still lying there.
HAHA soon after, we left for home.
Sorry WenHui, actually you want to take bus
then in the end have to take mrt. ):
Reached home and I was exhausted.
I knew there was much more to do but something was lacking.
My energy level was exceptionally low now.
nevermind about that. GOODNIGHT. :D

JEAN JEAN JEAN JEAN! :D
*if you remembered, i still love you.

DAYS PASSED

2008-07-02T22:51:00.008+08:00

300608, Monday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THREESIX!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!
*HEYHEY MAY 306 BE UNITED,
HAPPY, BLISSFUL, CLOSE AND FUN!*

ENG was Differentiated Instructions (DI) AGAIN.
I am sick of DI liao.
sian lah I am in Group C for Use Own Words (UOW) qns.
I’m not going to elaborate much because its darn lame.

HCL is I don’t know what happened. HAHAHA

PE was pure ‘fun’? MINI TENNIS AGAIN! :D hahah
We went behind the blocks at a big wall to play ‘squash’
and I always hit too hard till it goes up to the third floor.
zzz I lousy mah. I prefer BBALL & BADM to minitennis.
Its easier to control AND MUCH MORE FUN. heehee.
WAHLAO talking about basketball,
my stupid dad don’t want to help me buy a new pump.
At most I pay for it after I work lah! KNS.
I still depend on it to grow taller one okay!? =.=
whatever. we played for about 10 minutes then recess liao.
SIANED. nevermind we could play more next time! :D

EGEOG is okay for today. lesser stories, more learning.
Mostly we had copying. WHY NOT PRINT IT OUT FOR US!?
He is weird man.. *OPPS later get killed by wenhui*.

PHY... i forgot what happened
but its still about the chapter on pressure.
nothing much happened lah. hahaha

Maths is on chapter 8 or 5? LOLS see?
I have SupremeSuperSevereSeriousShort Term Memory!
(SSSSSTML)
COPYRIGHTED one hor! Don’t anyhow use.
My maths test results is like KNS.
zzz almost failed it but still didn't.
I NEED IMPROVEMENT!!

I don’t remember myself staying back after school.
So yeah, nothing much to say.

010708, Tuesday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHEYENNE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
*CHEY! happy fifteen and stay HAPPY!!!
hahaha may your life be as interesting as you want it to be!*

the first period was chemistry
and we did what percentage of purity and yield.
Frankly speaking, Mr. Nic Liu is covering things
in 2 periods where Shamama takes 2 lessons (4 periods).
Shouldn’t we be glad that Mr. Nic Liu is taking over us?
hahahah there’s hope for Chem, there’s chance for chem.

SS! i missed it because i had to visit the dentist
which was like YAY. the dentist is DAMN NICE.
but something weird happened.
someone’s medical report got mixed up with mine and a boy,
so 'I' had problems in stopping blood flow.
and the dentist actually called my mum without telling me
that I (so called) had problems stopping blood flow.
After about twenty minutes, she went to wash the tools
which was like another 5 minutes.
I checked my particulars and so on, so it then took another 5 minutes.
AND I CANT BELIEVE SHE TRIED TO DRAW ALL OF US =.=
this is really redundant. I meant like- what for!?
when she started to work on my teeth,
it was already time for last year 203 Benjamin to come in.
Not long after he did, Cheyenne came in.
And I’m done! I stayed there till 9.45 when i actually started at 8.35.
LOLS I wanted to wait for Cheyenne
but it would be weird for both of us to enter the class together.

Bio was just copying answers and answers.
Hmms and Mrs. Tan told us moving to 307 classroom.
OHH NOOO. I’LL MISS MY CLASSROOM (and i am missing it now)!
What has it got to do with us if others were the ones creating havoc?
Geesh I hate it man. 306 is INNOCENT. Forget it.

CEP! CHANGING CLASSROOM TIME! :D & D:
I even brought my table over to 306 but now, Yi Jie is using it. LOL
GEESH now quite sad because the door is at the other side.
Some more the projector is at the left side of the whiteboard.
I’m at a disadvantage because James would be blocking me
-________-
Luckily, when 302 moves nearer, we move further :D
Or else I’ll see that PIG. (Only Jiayu knows what I mean)
LOLS 308 is beside us!! OMG SO NICE!
SinYi Eunice XiuHuan LayChing HuiMin Kelly and so on...
HURRAY!! (x

HCL and MATHS are just boring lessons.
Was hcl a free period? I couldn’t remember.
Maths was about Chapter 5 – Modulus Function if I’m not wrong.
Thats it, once we wrap up a chapter, another misc exercise comes.
HAHAH nevermind. Practice makes the foundation for Perfection.

After school TingHuan Karine KuanLian WenHui LayChing and me
went to the library which was like COLD COLD COLD COLD COLD.
there was a summer camp briefing? was it on that day i don’t know.
hmms I was struggling to finish my english work if i’m not wrong.
hahaha MY MEMORY IS FAILING ME! What should I do man.
It was so cold that we had to share jackets (Karine TingHuan and I).
LOLS we must have looked funny.

Tina was writing her 花盐巧雨 vs. 爱不释手.

I decided to write 深思熟律 that time but still did not know how to write.

OH NO I realised that I once promised to post my 送汤 compo here.

I’ll post it with 深思熟律 soon okay?? :D
oh I was giving choir a miss because I HAD to practice chinese oral.
OMG i almost forgot that the next day was MY BIG DAY.

020708, Wednesday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIANZHENG!

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU!
*HAHA thanks for everything and may you,
stay as lively as you are now! dont be too sad sometimes!*

OMG ORAL EXAMINATION.
i am so nervous but i tried not to show it out. well thats it.
i will elaborate later on.

Open Space is a boring worksheet that I’ve done before.
hahaha but i chose the pregnant woman,
the 34year old man and his inseparable wife,
and also the 40 year old former prime minister.
I AM LAZY so I don’t want to do. HEE
Everyone don’t do!! HAHA

ENG super boring luh...
I’m in the A group for the inferential questions
which was like pathetically little and unfun.
I’m in the C group for the Use Your Own Words questions
and I had zero marks for those questions in midyear.
HAHAHA funny sia.

SS is just copying slides
which is a TOTALLY WRONG approach by Ms. Wong.
These days, our notes should not have blanks.
We should be highlighting important points
while jotting down useful notes,
not wasting time copying slides which she could have printed for us.
They have the wrong concept that we learn from our own handwriting.
NOT TRUE DEAR, NOT TRUE.
Some people get put off by their own handwriting (like me).
Not that it is untidy, but it is uninteresting.
HMMS please work on it.
I can’t live Social Studies lessons copying slides.

PHY is again, TOTAL BORE ; PERPETUAL CHORE.
zzz drifting off to sleep le lah.
BRR.. but I didn’t sleep because Mr. Ling had improved,
A TWEENY LITTLE BIT :D

EGEOG is FUNN like real. I am sort of dozing liao.
This chapter is quite dead with LOADS to memorise.
HAIX what transportation and communication blah blah
make my head turn crazy.
I HATE THIS CHAPTER (development)!

MATH is chapter 5 or 3? hahaha see? SSSSSTML AGAIN.
I apologise because though this post is dated back on 020708,
I typed this on 050708. I CANT REMEMBER!!
I realised we have 3 consecutive days having maths as the last period.
That would be a disadvantage.. no energy to listen to BLIM liao.

ORAL EXAM! 样样都涨价,你对此现象有什么看法?
DEAD-.- I can think of loads and loads of things
but I just can’t phrase them properly.
Congratulations to those who think they did well / did well
/ sure they did well / celebrating because they were exellent.
And BOOS TO MYSELF.
Cheer Up to those who did as badly as me. ):
don’t commit suicide because I didn’t.
Jiayou to those who think they did badly / did badly
/ sure they did badly / crying because they flunked.
aiyah I’m just in dead meat. I’m gonna fail this oral exam. D:

&-HER

*I succeeded in concentrating on my work, forgetting all about you.
But when I am blank and all alone, I think of you.
Must I keep myself preoccupied just to forgo you?

**There she was, sitting alone in that dark alley,
hoping for rain to cover up her tears.
her years had been worn down by fears
and she wished for patient ears.

(x GOODBYE, SO LONG

2008-06-29T11:01:00.001+08:00

AHH *so tired and my muscles ached like siaoo*

this morning i woke up at 7.37am and i was like DAMN SHOCKED. i was like omg what should i do now? take cab or meet them at their destination? but i was fortunate to know that wenhui is as late as me. my father drove me to school *thanks dad* and i quickly went to take my donation tin. wenhui and i then quickly took the bus to central to meet karine lilin kuanlian tinghuan. we were going to redhill and i collected my first donation outside the mrt station. we knocked onto cabs and all of them were willing to donate! SO GOOD MAN. :D hahaha we walked to a so called market place and some of us were hungry so we went to the coffee shop. that was then i met tinghuan’s grandfather and her relatives who were very nice to us. they not only donated LOADS of coins, they treated us to beehoon and popiah. i had never eaten popiah before but because wenhui said it was nice, so i tried. HAHA you could guess what i will say next. it tastes heavenly. lols and i mean it. just that with the beehoon and all, i could not stuff any more popiah in my mouth. then we went around asking for donations and we met very gl people but on the overall, singaporeans are better than what the critics say. most of the people who donated were those who were not working or older people. those with purses on their hands and coming out from the market place (they have loads of coins) are easier to target on. but i just dislike going into the marketplace. its like blocking the way and disrupting the people’s business. going into the hawker is also not a very good thing to do as we are disturbing the people when they are eating. so we decided to still tackle walking people or people choosing things outside shops. hahaha and wenhui and i had same preference so we stood in the walkway between the shops and the黄格. which means the things that are placed outside the shops. after a long while, we decided to change location, defensive to tinghuan’s objections. we left for harbourfront and met several nanhuarians there. we went to the washroom whereas karine bought icecream. some of them were guilty as they didnt want the other people to think that we are using cip hours to shop. so we went back to clementi as we were horribly late. we reached at around 12.45pm and i left for home with zoe daniel yanru and hiokann.

after that i went online :D but sadly no one was online. so i just blogged and blogged. haha till now i haven post about sec3 intergrated camp man! PRO RIGHT? lazy mah.. zzz i am now lazier than missielazy!! HAHA even weiqi posted le. LOLS nevermind lah. i slept while playing music through my computer and when my dad came back, he scolded me for wasting electricity. super apologetic! live earth committee member wasting electricity when i actually pledged to save earth. OH NO.. okay wont do it again. rachel and i went to swim in the evening, which was a disappointment because my aim was to improve in diving, and tan myself. what is there to tan when the sun was already resting behind hills and mountains? lols so we purely swam and that was like 3282987340 years i have not swam =.= i will bball next time so please daddy, buy me a pump!! ): i am so tired when i reached home that i feel like sleeping now. yawns.. bye!

&-JEAN
*whats on your mind when i loomed past you?]
**goodbye for now.

definition ; contradiction

2008-06-25T23:21:00.005+08:00

FINALLY ; HAPPILY ; SADLY ; CRAZILY *all these that happened in these two days had been hard down on me*

and i have to agree that love is not the life for me.

so what now... OH. talking about yesterday and today, which was okay freaking emo for me.

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- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGYI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
*its another new beginning and may everything restarts!*

a beautiful date ; a disastrous fate. oh i almost forgot about the ss lesson which was ‘musical chairs’ version 2 by passing a ball and when music is stopped, the person holding the ball have to answer a question. if he or she cant answer, the person would have to dance in front of the class. decheng and parry tio lah. HAA and omg parry made a fool of himself. miss wong let them off so decheng didnt dance at all. zzz nevermind. another year to come i bet there would be another chance. LOLS chem was by nic liu cos shamama was not here. SOO! bad mr liu said “so we shall see how ms shamima make the next lesson interesting” which means shamama is like damn boring. and he also said this “the main point i am here is to improve the efficiency of the teaching” HAAA this shoots directly to shamama man! he sure knows how to play with words man. LAUGH OUT LOUD. chinese was FREE PERIOD cos benny ng is not here! WHOOTS. hmms the day was quite stressful because i did not do my english work but nevermind, its Differentiated Instructions. aiyah i am not the only one who did not finish the holiday homework so i will try to pia by this week :D maths was about 8.2 and okay, quite easy. and we have to do four graphs. (and jen-ing finished it within a SHORT TIME! GEESH i damn stressed man!!) HAA i see mr ling’s effort in trying to make the lesson more interesting! BE TOUCHED MAN. neither did he give up or be angry, he only tried his best to liven the atmostphere by finding more videos so that we can be perked up. recognize his effort and try harder in phy, koay!? after the bell rang, mr ling dragged his lesson on. then wenhui and joey was taking photos behind huiying’s back but unfortunately, pauline saw. zzz and he confiscated wenhui’s phone. SAD MAN. so SUAY =.= he still wana pass the phone to mrs tan lah. worried her like siao. hahah :DD after school wenhui and i went to get back her phone but pauline was nowhere to be found. it was jingyi’s birthday and they actually wanted to celebrate with her. but the councillors had to go for a workshop.. okay so wenhui and i went to the canteen to eat. we both ate spaghetti and hello panda. we met joey here and chatted with her. THEN!! MR AUDELIOUS YEO SAT INFRONT OF US!! haa i bet wenhui was super happy that mr yeo is teaching us geog for the rest of the year and BYE TO DARREN TAY FOREVER! we met james at the staff room while trying to locate mr ling. he decided to pass the phone to wenhui without passing it to mrs tan! SO GOOD RIGHT? wenhui had to think of a way to please him, so she ended up writing a 悔过书. lols then, we went up to the library and sneaked up hello pandas to the second floor of the library. haha i actually wanted to do maths, but HELLO. i am not in the mood after the DUMB confession. ZZZ i didnt even want to confess. HAIX dont want to talk about it. wenhui and i just talked and talked and relaxed man. LOLS at around 5, we went to 306 classroom to sit and chat. then we saw funchung walking in and out to see anqi. LOLS funny man. we waited till karine, layching kuanlian jingyi siewkiang and dont know who to go and eat dinner. but okay i have NO APPETITE. so i didnt eat and went straight home. on the mrt, i was really tired and worn out. maybe its because of the confession, draining out my energy. so i stood against the glass panel and held on the the pole. then, i drifted off to sleep. OKAY i repeat. i was STANDING and FALLING ASLEEP. yes i did and i almost fell. everyone was like looking at me and thinking “omg how can she sleep while standing!?” it was the first time in my life but i am really too tired to bother about it. so i sort of slept and woke for about five repeated times. lols!! till now, i still cant believe it. nevermind. its not the matter of the day. instead of sleeping or doing my work, playing com, bathing once i reach home, i was sitting on the cold hard floor of my dark unlit room. music player was playing – 我的快乐. I dont know if i had mentioned this before but i’ve once changed the lyrics of the chorous.

我的快乐不会回来了,
曾经适合有那么的不适合,
不知该做些什么.

我的快乐不会回来了,
曾经拥有就是我们的缘分..

and shit man i weeped like a baby. i dont really see the reason why i cried but well i just did. hmms and i cried and fell asleep till it was time to bathe. and i stayed awake for the whole night, hearing the time tick by, hours and hours, and i didnt even manage to catch a wince of sleep. oh nevermind. that leads to a horrifying day.

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- CONGRATULATIONS ; CONSOLIDATION. that calls for a celebration after a terrible confession. biology was okay lah. just that its abit too dry. next was physics and okay i am understanding the topic which is like sooo rare. chem was FREE PERIOD and ms wong came to relief us! LOLS then i thought it was social studies during chem lesson. LOLS jen-ing yufang huiying and i crapped alot and after that i chatted with kuanlian lilin and tinghuan. i was really sleepy but i didnt catch any sleep during lessons. was in no mood to sleep with all the noise. hmms after that was GEOG!! omgomgomg mr yeo is damn damn damn funny. talking about stories all the time. came in jiu talk about sec3leadership camp. DEVELOPMENT – sec3camp.. any link?? lols okay and he talked about South africa, black skin, white teeth, pretty landscape, and others.. so practically we had NO lesson. haha he said he had a bad news to share and that is darren tay wont be teaching us anymore. then joey tinghuan they all clap. and wenhui actually said “very sad meh??” LOLS and mr yeo was looking at her like HAA. maths was quite fun cos its relaxing man. only went through the four graphs that i chionged during free period and did question 5 of exercise 8.2. haix after school tina wenhui and karine decided to go to jurong library to study. i was so damn tired and sleepy. of course sad. then i wanted to go home but they asked me to go and there also can sleep. we ate at the jec food court. wenhui ate yongtaufoo, karine ate tomyam, tinghuan ate dont know what noodles, i ate ramen noodles. so it was so called the noodles day for us. LOLS lame luh. (i learnt from kuanlian a way to shoot back the word lame. “but still can walk what”) we went to jurong library after buying medium bag of popcorns and drink from shaws. before entering the library, i thought.. first time i went there i lost my phone. second time i went there i lost my ezlink card. this is the third time... we sneaked it up to the fourth level. we did our maths and ate popcorns while chatting! :D i realised i love talking to them. lighten spirits man! (sorry for depending on friends to cheer up sometimes) soon, the librarian came up to us and scolded us. “three times i caught you. one more time you OUT!” LOLS tina and i have to bring the drink and food out of the library and throw it away. so i told tina to bring her waterbottle so that she can pour the drink inside. the popcorn have to keep in a plastic bag. i brought it up to the fourth floor and OMG i didnt know i was inspected. zzz stalker man. i went back to our seat and continued eating and drinking. we used pencil and drew on the table. OMGOMGOMG and everything is all seen by the librarian through cctv. he is inspecting on us at ALL TIMES LAH! wth... then when tina is about to leave, the librarian appeared again to stop her from leaving. then he ask tina to throw away the popcorn that was sneaked back, and asked wenhui and tina to go into a room to reprimand them. he stalker lah!! he saw everything that we did! OMG WTHWTHWTH!! DAMN SCARY LAH. ZZZ we use pencil only lah and we got erase away. but its still vandalisation. the most innocent person is karine. she only ate the popcorn but she didnt draw on the table lah! oh poor her. then the idiotic indian librarian admitted that he very bushuang with us so he keep looking at us through the cctv to catch us do something more serious that smuggling outside food in. AND WE DID!! we committed a CRIME. seriously we were ashamed and embarrassed la but at that time still think its fun. zzz siao one lah. haa then he brought all of us to the library office to explain to the library headquaters. if we manage to convince them, we can be spared and not handed over to the police. we had to write a 悔过书, which wenhui had wrote the day before. lols we had to write name, nric, school, the reason we are caught, the reason we commit the crime, what we can do to turn over a new leaf. i was like writing a situational writing essay to the principal that kind, apologising and blah blah blah. LOLS damn fun la cause we need to do corrective work. we were assigned to two tables which was like OMGOMGOMG so damn dirty. full of zebra marker markings. so we were given cloths and kerosene to clean up the tables. GEESH our hand muscles were sort of aching man. and the kerosene kinda seeped into our skin and our fingers itched. we cleaned the tables while chatting for about 30 to 40 minutes. haa damn FUN!! we asked the security guard to help us inspect our work. then we could leave. he damn friendly la! we tell him that we vandalized thats why we need to do corrective work but he never TSK TSK us and yet just smiled and laughed. he talked to us and was really nice. LOLS same working place, two different positions, same race, different characters (comparison of the librarian and the security guard). we left for home and wenhui bought a sausage and i bought cheese balls. lols and we went HOMEE. yawns now so tired and unhappy. but i am going to let go le. so yeah, hope i’ll be happier soon!! :D

&-its.over
*TO WENHUI CHEYENNE KUANLIAN HUIYING ANQI TINGHUAN KARINE: thanks for being my pillar of support for these two days. its been a torturous journey for me so i would like to thank you guys for being there for me. but well, i will still have to walk down the darkest roads alone..
**dont be sad, be strong. because time will heal my wounds.

FIRST DAY OF TERM3

2008-06-23T21:02:00.005+08:00

SHIT! *my mood sucks because my hair SUCCKKKS*

its the first day of school and i've got bad mood because my fringe is like RUBBISH! omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg....

YESTERDAY, i just couldnt sleep so i went online to find WENHUI and played MSN messenger games! :D damn fun la! after the camp we everyday also play together. HEE super super nice! sort of addicted le. especially solitare showdown! WHOOTS. we share common traits man. LOLS its damn fun lah then we talking about our own secret talk. -.- but i just like talking and playing msn games. SUPERRR FUNNN! (x yeah man!

after school i went to the library with tina karine wenhui yian! :D and met lilin and kuanlian! (and kuanlian's new nickname is CURTAIN because miss wong, our new ss teacher, pronounced her name as chuang lian LOLS!) rather fruitful but could be better if we didnt chat as much. :D its my first time studying with them and we would, hopefully, form a study group! 8) then can study together! :D we switched place to canteen because the library closing at 5pm. we ate chatted and i finished my chemistry worksheet. then one by one they left, yian, karine and tina. left with morpee and me. we tried to do the speech thing but lols i didnt even touch it. zzz we decided to go home so that we dont waste time and can play messenger games at home (but wells i didnt get to play with her cos she is like uncontactable. sad... on the way home wenhui keep jio-ing me to AHEM. yeah so i sort of promised that i will consider about it. and she had already fixed the date. *i must bring more tissues and more comfort* hmms i got to be prepared la.

NOW, i am watching Fated to Love You. its damn touching la i cry like BABY. zzz okay forget it. just think that this episode abit boring cause its the fight between dylan and chunxi. I HATE HOW SINYI KEEP ACTING AS IF SHE DONT LIKE CHUNXI. come'on la! she just LOVES him to the core. zzz and chunxi is not purposely went to her workplace one la. i really pity chunxi man...

okay i've gotta stop. need to finish my homework!! >.<>

&-she.issnt.alive
*then, again, i'll stop loving tomorrow's joys.
**its either a teardrop of joy or one for sorrow.
***please, may the day not arrive.
****its my fault. i shouldnt have allowed myself to fall this deep.
*****pulling out is more difficult that forgetting a person..

OOO LA LA!~

2008-06-15T20:36:00.005+08:00

HMM *what was it that wet my cheeks?*

its not the time for sadness, time to get plucked up!

ITS GOING TO BE SEC3 CAMP TOMORROW! and i am so going to miss singapore (: you know what are the feared famous fours (F4), dont you? 1. Robbery 2. Kidnapping 3. Hijacking 4. Burglary. hahaha but i bet the F4s are not going to happen to us. even so, we have insurance! LOLS :D thinking too much. just be careful. 离家背景的人最脆弱.

so i had finished packing my bag except for my two camera chargers, a phone charger and an adapter. at first i used two bags, but after calling about six people, i decided to change it into a LARGER bag (and its huge). i dont want to be the extra who brings two. LOLS but i’m bring a shoe bag. *that sounds contradictory because i dont intend to use it to keep my shoes. i am bring it as a pouch. HAHAHA forget it. dont need to explain much.* YAY!! super happy! I AM IN THE SAME GROUP AS WENHUI CHEYENNE KUANLIAN!! wahhh damn high now :DDDD then can chat with kuanlian about QILANG! whee ^^

now what. oh yeah i forgot about friday. we went to vivocity with Weiqi Eunice Weijia Xiuhuan Jiayu Daniel Jerald Chinchye to watch movie! (: we initially wanted to watch kungfu panda. but we missed the show. too late for it. i didnt want to watch chronicles of narnia so we went to watch THE HAPPENING which is definitely worth it. because its a good thriller. (and i hate to say this but someone is pissing me off because the person said that it wasnt scary when the person was like shivering?) whatever. dont lie because actions give yourself away. GEESH irritated with that person. the happening is damn nice i am going to watch it again! my mum agreed to rent it when its available. HEEEEEEE (x so glad. WAHAHA okay i’ve got to stop smiling.

hmms i am watching charlie and the chocolate factory right now. its really interesting. how lucky charlie can be, picking up a ten dollar bill covered by snow, and getting one of the five golden tickets in the whole world! (: and willy wonkka is really weird. maybe its because he didnt come out of the factory for way too long, thats why his skin colour is.. GREY. geesh the factory reminds me of Child’s Play. you know that horror movie? its a phobia of mine. let me see child’s play and i’ll strangle you. i am just darn afraid of it. its FREAKY. just like willy wonkka. hahaha and it shows that greedy people come to no good end :D the girl with the chewing gum has amazing confidence but well, 过度的自信是无形中的骄傲. too bad i cant continue with the show. i've got to join my family with the celebration of Father's Day! (x HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!

oh by the way, i mark my word that i’ll write a journal during the journey so that i can post here! (:

*when i was standing alone in the rain, i realised it was a mixture of rainwater and tears that blurred my vision..

LOVE or HATRED

2008-06-14T15:12:00.005+08:00

when i stepped into the place that was once full of anticipation, blissfulness, i felt the warmth wasnt there anymore. we were once so close, once so loving. but why did everything change in a sudden?

i thought for long, i touched the things i touched before, i searched for the warmth i had before, i lost the passion i held before, i forgot the times we were together..

it was the feeling of love i was hoping to get back, but it will never be rekindled.

if you looked back, i would say i wanted to get back to the way we were in the past.

then, we were so happy, we were holding hands, we were laughing, we were blissed.
now, we are so far apart, we are not loving, we are not missing, we are over.

i step on the shore we lay on together, and i remembered that i drew. words and words, hearts too. however, it was gone now. the waves had washed away all the memories we had together. its all OVER. gone forever.

&-HER.
*when will it happen again?
**time blurred the line between love and hatred. did i love you, or hate you for not giving enough?
***i still love you.

WTH

2008-06-12T15:24:00.006+08:00

BLAH *i hope whatever you do won't affect me.*

lol i didnt know they've already set up a blog for 306 and i stupidly went to open one. nevermind though i dont feel good about that. maybe more than feeling upset. HUH

okay now. i've sort of abandoned blogging because i am so damn glued to the television. unless the television is on fire or else i wont leave the telly. its like i am watching teevee from 10am to 2am midnight. look, i've only finished the maths homework. the rest are ALL UNTOUCHED or UNFINISHED. sad man. i have to chiong it by this days. HAHAHA that means no more teevee. SADS. but i feel glad that at least i dont get to miss some of the best shows during the holidays. my best rewards are all from the arts channel. documentaries and films that were really interesting and knowledgeable. geesh i am crapping. okay so my mum was really crazy, banning me from using com, banning me from touching my phone after the visit to the doctor, and i bet that was the worse visit. just felt afraid, and i feel like going home. nah nevermind. forget it, because thinking of the medicine i have to eat makes me feel uneasy. just uncomfortable..

oh i forgot i am watching movie with 204 gang tomorrow! :D and it would be my movie review. LOLS sad la. zzz its alright, i bet some of them going tomorrow are also using it for movie review. HAAA so now what? okay i shall stop blogging here. feel quite unhappy now.

&-she.is.unhappy
*my heart lied.
**not only unhappy, but angry.
***incorrigible bunch of people.

WHY, did you stop talking?

2008-06-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

YELL *its another time for ranting*

am i thinking too much,
or is that even you are misunderstanding me?
issit that i have not cleared your doubts,
or your uncertaincies were never voiced out?
i thought you were one that could clearly understand me,
and believe in whatever i say.
but it seems like i have over estimated
what our friendship could handle.
is it too brittle for you to trust me?
perhaps, since you can take the other way round
and shoot me in my head.
have i changed, or the times changed?
have your opinions changed, or my thinking changed?
was that ignorance, done purposely?
true or not, talk to me.
if you shut that window down,
you are shutting our friendship down.
issit that i've placed too much trust in you?
or you are placing too little trust in me?
whatever it takes, continue it that way.

sometimes i really do get perplexed by the matters of relationships be it with family or with friends. why does it affect me so much? because i care about that particular relationship. no matter how much this friendship weighs, it is still very important to me. if you are going to keep up with that coldness, the link between me and you just disappears. how do i get to clear this mist blocking me?

&-JEAN
*i realise i am not myself anymore. what made me changed?

BIOLOGY WORKSHOP! :D

2008-06-01T18:28:00.009+08:00

WHOA WHOA WHOA! *unbelievable, i actually abandoned my blog for a week or so.*

well i'm here to post about the day where 306, together with 304, 309, 301 went to sungei buloh (: its was considered fun if you exclude the encounter with the ~~IRKY SPIDER.~~ i hate spiders than anything else on the world!! >.<

i was late like DUHH. i was never punctual for these non-official-school-day stuffs though i dont feel good being late. cant help it. :D i met jiayu in the toilet, then went up to see only half of our class people in computer lab3. zzz my com was like DEAD so no choice, cant play com. and i saw on my tagboard on the other blog "EWWWW" from a person called NAME. so scared, then dont write, coward. i hate to say that but if you dont dare to admit, dont do it. 要敢做敢当. then i sianed diao, so i write back "YUUCK". haha not guailaning la, just that i like to reply with a synonym. lets say you write "lame" then i will write back "zzz/random/diao". i dont see a need to explain so let me just go on. the introduction was okay, with the funny video. hahaha walker liz and i forgot. one of them always thinks of food, very funny. LOLS i was quite excited to take a look at the mudskippers at close distance and take photos of them. :D i was quite fascinated by the bioindicators hahaha so lame. i know you think its boring. HAHA (: then we are about to set off!! YAY

several 309 people took the same bus as us and mrs tan (paparazzi) kept taking photos LOLS teohyi and weishan were super mischievous! they unzapped the headrest and flung it back. then we rested our heads on it they flung it on our heads! BAD BAD GIRLS. poor jiayu and me. after a big fight, we were tired so we listened to music and SLEPT. what a nice nap! HAHA both of us were determined to sleep on our way back (: when we alighted, we waved to jiejun. HAHA then we walked into the forest trail. haha and we were discussing about insect repellents luh. DOTS. haha i saw a few big insects and a monitor lizard all thanks to funchung and mrs tan who started a small talk about it. heart shaped leaves, special roots, and cobwebs so big but i couldnt see the spider (makes me feel that its much creepier) we reached a long bridge and started our water quality test. our pail's string was like miserably SHORT. maybe my height? thats short. :( hahaha quite sad because i did not manage to CAPTURE any water insects >.<>DAMN WORRIED. so i shouted over the NOISE and no one took my phone. GODNESS, must be someone who stole it or it dropped into the river already. THATS IT. BYE TO MY PHONE. jiayu called it, and someone rejected the call. that was when i was more angry that someone UNRIGHTEOUS STOLE MY PHONE. *how dare you steal my phone* haha then i was thought to be doomed, its surely someone who stole it and didnt dare to answer the phone call. she tried the second time, and teohyi answered. tell me, SHOULD I BE HAPPY THAT ITS TAKEN, NOT STOLEN, OR BE ANGRY THAT SHE TOOK IT WITHOUT TELLING ME. hahaha i was half thankful to her that she helped me take (or else i would forget about it) and half angry at her for rejecting the first call. PHEW. thanks and no thanks to teoh yi! (: ): hahaha on our way to the bus, we stopped at places where mudlobsters, crabs and mudskippers were found. :D and i am soooo fascinated by the HUGE prop roots. how magnificent. that was when i saw the OMG SPIDER! whaddahell. >.<

then we went back to play- METROPOLIS! yoohoo! :D our coms were down so jiayu and i went to share with yixin and muiteng, who were equally confused about how to play the game. HAHAH but after switching it to single player, i totally understood the whole thing. one conclusion - a sewage plant (upgraded one) and at least 17trees had to be present if you want to maintain low land and air pollution respectively. HEE i think the best city I SAW was yinkar's one. quite nice. hahaha okay so now i shall stop here. nothing much le. i shall not post about the past two weeks le. cos most of the things i so wanted to post were forgotten. BECAUSE JEANICE IS TOO LAZY! haha accept that people. wait for my post, its going to be days later..

PHOTOS

this photo featuring jiayu! CANDID SHOT NIA! hahaha just joking. the lighting wasnt good enough. darts to my inferior phone cam quality.

look at the magnificient trees towering the trail!! xD nature rocks, dont you agree?

jiayu, teohyi kuanlian jening and yinkar. (;

WONDERFUL.

this is where we are! :D

look at those water plants! :D

flambuoyant! LOLS

I LOVE THE SKY. how beautiful the heaven carved them to fit into this landscape of blue..

see? weishan is SHYY. aww...

there it is (: monitor lizard! haha

OUR BUCKET!! :D the other one is i-dont-know-whose.

hahaha we pulling the bucket up. HAHAHA :D

jiayu holding the tube that holds the results of the nitrates / phosphate i cant remember. HAHA

look at those leaves! heart shaped. romantic right? (:

mudcrabs! HAHAH

crabs in an ambush!

prop roots so HUGE

ARIEL ROOTS! haha

MUDSKIPPERS!! hahaha

&-i.am.JEAN
*oh please forgive my bluntness, girl.

THAT NIGHT IT ENDED

2008-05-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHH *my body aches and so is my heart*

it wasnt a easy day at all. i woke up at 6.45am having to rush to chua chu kang. there, i was shocked at the mrt station because all there were students from other classes. i stupidly believed that only 306 would be present. >.<>

i met up with joey and cheyenne only to hear that wenhui was still on her way. joey went to buy a bun which is like wow smells nice man. it was then i realised i had NO MONEY. not even a cent. GEESH no lunch for me. we followed the people from other classes to lam soon community centre. hahaha and the guys were like still waiting for andre lor. after about thirty minutes, they appeared. zzz so dua pai still want other classes to wait for them to start. after that we were allocated block 405 and jen ing huiying and i were on the same group, joey wenhui cheyenne another group and the guys split among themselves. we three were like damn high la, keep running about, jumping about. it was something we definitely regretted like hell. we sweated so much more than the others, because the reason was quite obvious. they walked, we jogged. HAHAH so lame. nevermind la, we contributed to the pile of newspapers.

we moved on the someother blocks like 423 416 417 419 420 and there was one, i was so so so fed up with. a house with a MAD DOG. whatever the gender, it was BARKING AT US. GRRR WOOF i can too. but i was petrified. i cant explain the reason why but it was REALLY AGGRESSIVE. hahah but i've met funny people like guys at around 20 baring their upper body and shocked to see me walking to their doors. then they grabbed something to cover themselves. HAHAH :DD chao funny de. you could see their embarrassment. HEE then we went to a block where andre were with us, being our manslave. HAHA helping us carry the newspaper. we went to a block and the block had flats with door numbers 306. HAHA so we were like SOOO HIGH. we wanted so badly to go to 08-306 and were scared that the guys would snatch it from us. we then took photos of the door plate. LOLS SPASTIC MAN. we wished that the owner would open the door and help us because it meant something special. :D but... there wasnt anyone inside. quite sad la, because we were really anticipating when we came from 12th floor down to the 8th. LOLS. then we sort of snatched business from the karungguni man. quite sorry for him because he had to make a living, yet we are getting newspapers from the neighbourhood for cip hours. doesnt seem quite good, conscience is pricked. but at that time we were like so anxious because we just wanted NEWSPAPERS, CARDBOARDS AND OLD CLOTHES! :D hahah this was our general slogan "good morning / afternoon, sorry to disturb you. do you have any newspapers or cardboards, old clothes to donate?" "您好，请问您有没有旧报纸，旧衣物能捐出来的呢？" some crappy people would ask the reason why but of course we would say its to help the needy. HAHHA what a reason. there was once an old man asked us to follow him up his house to collect the newspapers when he met us at ground floor and asked us "你们在收报纸啊?". i was very reluctant because we were not supposed to enter anyone's houses. but three of us went in. because in anycase, we would outdo that old man. i was still unwilling at first, but it was then jen ing gave me the 'can-one' look. it was one BIG BIG stack of newspapers, another big big stack of big Imagazine, another big big stack of Umagazine. lols so we called for help from james. they came and helped carried them down. THANKS! :D i would wonder how to carry them down ourselves, maybe several trips down. lols then we met were under a block and the tabletennis table were full of fur. looks like cat fur, but maybe its from a soft toy. we were like so disgusted luh. nevermind about that though.

it was soon, 12.30pm. we went for lunch!! :D james huiying wenhui cheyenne and i. hahaha huiying, cheyenne and i ate pepper lunch and all thanks to cheyenne, i've got money to eat! :D then we ate and ate when james had his second serving. when we finished ours, james started on his third. >.<>.<>
&-she.issnt.alive
* you insignificant pea!
** the unsaid were meant to be unspoken, the dead left to be undisturbed.
*** when sun sets, that chapter ends. when sun rises, a new chapter of my life unfolds.

BLAH BLAH

2008-05-20T20:08:00.003+08:00

RANT!! *letting out all displeasure i have in my STRESSED UP DAY*

and there is a problem with my health (and i know that)

i get dizzy easily when i am exposed to sunlight suddenly, or when i stand up, or when a significant amount of sunlight is blocked out from my view. thudding migrains, very very uncomfortable. low blood circulation in my feet areas, and i have problems walking distances. red bloodshot eyes and swollen eyes because i suffered from insomia. ZZZ i didnt sleep for the whole of last night because i was so into reading my book "Fighting Back". finally when i finished it, it was about 2.49am. i was so shocked and i hushed myself to sleep. till around 3.30am or so i got fedup, then i went to play miniclips. i came across really EWW games like war and all these, which i avoid nowadays *and i am not telling the reason*. so at arount 4.45am, i went to prepare for my school day. SIAN.. so bored man. then i went to school starting with another book "the phone goes dead". and i finished it during assembly on second floor.

(IT WAS REALLY FUNNY STANDING UP THERE. you should have took a binoculars and seen me giggling away. HAHAHA i cant stop because to my disbelief, 306 guys were GREAT!! CHEER FOR YOURSELVES, BOYS! you boys did really well, because i heard you so loudly and so in tune. and not one i heard went out of tune at those high notes of the nation anthem. HAHA i am impressed. i am looking forward to tomorrow! (x and i sang okay!? we sang, just that we were giggling more than we were singing. HEES I LOVE 306! :D)

okay so the main point here is that i've finished another book and ran out of books to read already. please can someone accompany me there again soon? i am so addicted to book reading now since i am in a holiday mood and have got no mood to touch homework. ZZZ AND I OWE BLIM WORK. shit AM1 AM2 EM1 EM2. luckily i remembered now. so i am going to do it soon. shall drag a few of you to book browsing this friday! HYEHHYEHHYEH >.<

today during english, we had this spelling test which was one big shock. i didnt expect her to prompt us with one, so unprepared. nevermind, i learnt it with jiayu. she didnt read it at home yet i browsed through it the day before, yet she got full marks and i've got two mistakes. this shows how terrible i am. HAHAH (:

&-she.issnt.alive
*suddenly its hatred that arise
**you can't hurt me enough ; i can't forgive for now.
***thats.it.

L.O.V.E

2008-05-19T15:34:00.001+08:00

Set your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don’t make sense. You’ll be surprised though.. NO CHEATING, got it?

How are you feeling today?
Say that you love me (hahaha very weird. cant make logic out of this)

Will you get far in life?
寻宝- Angela (haha i will search and find some treasures and become rich!! :D)

How do your friends see you?
10gravity – lim soon bum (hahaha very down to earth i guess?)

Will you get married?
my happy ending - Avril Lavigne (i wont i guess.. in the song they split.)

What is your best friend’s theme song?
暧昧 – Rainie Yang (then i suppose they all love to LOVE in life)

What is the story of your life?
来不及 – Hebe (erm so I will be late forever? no la maybe I’ll miss a lot of my opportunities)

What was/is high school like?
思念是一种病 - Tanya & 张震岳 (hahaha high school is memorable, so longingly sick)

How can you get ahead in life?
精舞门 – Alan Luo (hahaha good! hahaha)

What is the best thing about your friends?
危机 (演奏曲) - 斗牛要不要 OST (the best thing about them is about their thrill?)

What is today going to be like?
觸電 – S.H.E (electrifying.. something about love.. so thats not going to be anything related to me O.o )

What is in store for this weekend?
最近还好吗 – S.H.E (huh?)

What song describes you?
当你离开的时候 – Tanya (huh i am holding on to someone who left? or one who reminisces to much?)

What to describe your grandparents?
08 goodbye II – Lee Hae Na (haha true. dead liao mah)

How is your life going?
4. 그댄 아나요 - Noblesse (노블레스) (how am i going to decipher this? i am not that good.)

What song will be playing at your funeral?
7.My Girl - 박용석 My Girl - 朴永守 (haha its about ME the GIRL)

How does the world see you?
Beautiful Girls – Sean Kingston (oh flattered =.=)

Will you have a happy life?
Your Guardian Angel – The red jumpsuit apparatus (i guess! with my guardian angel..)

What do your friends really think of you?
The merry merry minded creatures (if i didnt spell that wrongly. hahaha i dont wish to be a creature but i dont mind being merry minded (: )

Do people secretly lust after you?
完美比例 – Rainie Yang (hahah how am i supposed to make a logic out of this? you think yourself)

How can i make myself happy?
候鳥 – S.H.E (wells i have no idea about this too. hmms let me be a候鳥 then)

What should you do with your life?
doraemon (OH LOLS I SHOULD BE LIKE DORAEMON, and come up with loads of ingenious things!)

Will you ever have children?
사랑아 내게 오기만 해 (Part 1) – Ashily (hahaha say what. i dont understand)

this is a lame quiz but for the sake of finding something to do, i have used up three hours trying to change the blogskin and blog here. appreciate!! :D HAHAHA okay so i will watch some korean movies that i stopped halfway. (x BYE ALL OF YOU.

JEAN
*love photography like me, because it is addictive.

sometimes i wonder if you have ever been existent

2008-05-18T19:46:00.003+08:00

stop saying and acting anymore. you put your heart in your eyes, and one glance i can see through you. stop giving up, i have not given the grant. keep thinking, dont stop looking. you cant hurt me for long. your lie would be exposed and you would be regretting your actions because your heart aches to see mine break. you know how contented i would be if you’d apologise. it would fill up that hole you dug if it is not of any indifference to you. with love and affection, overflow it, will you? the eyebrow expressions you play with, the mindful words i articulate with. our state is weak and vulnerable - its no use trying to row a boat against a riverflow ALONE. its all one sided, never mutual. if you know what i mean you wouldnt walk away.

perplexity- issit you or issit me?
i have been aiming too high, gropping around.
i have been thinking too much, floating about.
the ending of it had no chances of failure to offer,
its going to be addictive, but try to resist.
be it 'no chance at all', be it 'a bubble of hope',
i am not going to gamble the last chip to cope.
my feelings are sold, your feelings are cold,
to that we will minimise the friction that grow.

Dont. Stop It. Please.
dont confess till its right.
dont walk off till its time.
dont stop till its done.
dont hesitate till its finished.
dont wait till its over.
dont cry when its gone.
dont kiss till its love.
dont love till its mutual.
dont give till you receive.
dont receive till you learn.
dont give up till its ended.
dont smile till its mine.
dont end till you start.

*the last ball is not in yet, the game is not over.
**maybe one day, it will. happen.
***its sooner or later.
****i am waiting for the snow to fall.. you are waiting for the sunrise call..
*****as i share a chip from my personal diary, i open my heart for you to live in.
******end the wait and start the love.

THIS AND THAT that turned my day upside down.

2008-05-14T21:29:00.005+08:00

HUH *the sky of MINE hatched ominous clouds, thick blankets of them, letting down the finest yet heaviest cold rain, pattering down on my tattered umbrella*

i received results of the worst and gladly, tears found their way to me only when i was alone. Constant hurled abuses at me were not helping me to lighten up my mood. my heart hang heavily all the time, and you should see my brows furrowing and locked. after school i rushed to 304 and met gang (: my mood lightened alitte. thanks people. but that was not all! (: we went to eat and i didnt eat anything luh. then i returned class key, and walked back to the canteen, disgusted by the amount of rainflies there were. luckily, NO GUs! HAHAHAH glad like hell. then went back emo for awhile. really felt like crying but no face to cry. HAHA sian la. what on earth am i doing!? after that the rest came down and we ate. weijia and i were to go home but all of a sudden, i feared the word home. it was, to me, HELL. so i was left with no choice but to stay in school for hours longer for company and i knew i needed it. i ate alittle and after that we played MASS BINGO! damn shuang la! hahaha jiejun sinyi jiayu yixie weijie hadley and me!! WAHAHA SO HAPPY. I SHALL LIST THE RANKING OUT.

game/winner:
1/jiejun >.<
2/me!
3/me!
4/sinyi (:
(from this game onwards, we played and the winner can eat one mentos which is chipped in by all of us)
5/jiejun >.<
6/jiayu (:
7/hadley (;
8/jiejun >.< (not again)
9/me!

all along the game we were like dont want jiejun to win lor. cos he like so kiasu, want to be first so that he can bingo first. zzz so crap. then after that we got quite bored, so we switched to playing zhongjimima. super funny because we still didnt want jj to win. i started because i won the last bingo game. the person who guessed correctly could get a mentos so...

name/number/person who guessed correctly
me!/34/hadley
hadley/12/jiejun >.<
jiejun/37/hadley
hadley/78/yixie
yixie/96/jiayu
jiayu/21/me!
me!/77/sinyi (x
sinyi/29/weijie
weijie/89/yixie

i guessed correctly jiayu's number when the range was about 19 to 24. because i knew she LOVED her birthdate. HAHAHA sinyi and weijie were the last two who have not eaten at least a mentos at all, so we helped them by giving clues. yixie was initially one of them, but he guessed it by luck. hahah pros! :D after that.. we switched to playing 天才发明的倒装具...偏偏我要倒着念... hahaha really funny cos its like daniel pass to jiejun and jiejun had to say 我很笨, and he passed to me and i have to say 我很丑, i pass to sinyi and she had to say 爱yong shin, sinyi pass to weijie and he had to say 爱wei jia. WAHAHA SO FUNNY. still got alot of types. then in the end we gave up on that... and we switched to 3-up then 9-up.

3-up(numbered in order of the person who OUT from the game first)
JIAYU
HADLEY
YIXIE
JEAN
SINYI
JIEJUN
*WEIJIE*winner

9-up(numbered in order of the person who OUT from the game first)
YIXIE
JEAN
HADLEY
JIAYU
JIEJUN
WEIJIE
*SINYI*winner

hahaha then we switched back to zhongjimima. HEE and daniel joined us! (: hahaha the more the merrier. we bought another row of sweets.. so now, the 排行榜

name/number/person who guessed correctly
yixie/51/hadley
hadley/12/me!
me!/64/daniel
daniel/79/yixie
yixie/46/daniel
daniel/27/jiejun
jiejun/63/me!
me!/89/weijie
weijie/35/hadley
hadley/58/jiejun
jiejun/37/sinyi
sinyi/38/jiayu

hahaha it was really fun la sometimes left with two numbers then you chose the wrong one and 便宜了 the next person down the line. hahaha super funny lah! (: then then... we played 3-up again.

3-up(numbered in order of the person who OUT from the game first)
JIEJUN
HADLEY
SINYI
WEIJIE
JEAN
YIXIE
JIAYU
*DANIEL*winner

but he didnt eat any of our sweets because he did not chip in to buy the sweets. haha and he had his own mentos mint, which i happily took advantage of one. LOLS then!! CONCENTRATION! we numbered ourselves and this is the arrangement.

number/name:
1/SINYI
2/JIAYU
3/YIXIE
4/WEIJIE
5/DANIEL
6/HADLEY
7/JIEJUN
8/ME!

you know when you want a person to lose, you would call up that number more, thus you should know who is the one we frequent the most - JIEJUN. hahahaha its really funny to catch people off guard! (: and i am one of the lousiest because i was busy recording down and also banging the table.

name/number of fouls:
SINYI/1
JIAYU/1
YIXIE/3
WEIJIE/3
DANIEL/2
HADLEY/2
JIEJUN/5
JEAN/4

HAHAHA so it seems like sinyi and jiayu were the more alert ones. HEE we took yixie's ezlink and photo and went around trying to hide in in the planes on the pillars in the canteen. i was in charge of hiding his ezlink and i hid it in the planes. he walked around it, stood infront of it, looked at it and still did not notice his ezlink. BRR really blind. then weijie pro, hid his photo in the itmc board. After that we snatched yixie’s bag and left it at the foyer’s stretchout to the main gate. when yixie went to take his bag, we ran up and hid ourselves, leaving him behind, anxious to see his reaction to our sudden disappearance. haha he probably thought we were captured by aliens because our belongings were still there. HAHAHA

after awhile, we chanced upon the idea of bring our belongings up with yixie and hide from weiqi and yeeling, who were both on mr cheng’s car back to school. hahaha we were waiting in front the parade square on the second floor when daniel first called yeeling, telling them that we were eating and waiting for them. then, we waited there till a car drove in and dropped two students off. that was it, the lie began. yeeling called us and we told them that we were at central waiting for them. they guessed we were lying as they saw us at the second floor with constant pointing towards us. of course, we dumb people panicked and hidaway, arousing more curiousity. we hid at the third floor, afraid that the duo would come up to the lift lobby on second floor to check on us. that was then another call came and we tried our best to expel their doubt and convince them that we were REALLY at central. of course yeeling was half fuming when scolding us through the line, saying that we were childish and all. miss wang actually talked to us and OMG why the duo asked her to talk to us? and scarily, she said that she saw us on third floor. then i thought, since they knew that weiqi and yeeling would be so angry, then why come up with this starting-to-get-too-over prank? we stayed at the third floor and went down to the canteen, planning to bus to central when we confirmed that weiqi and yeeling were walking to central instead. VERY LUCKILY, we managed to RUN for the bus 96. HAHAH and we were so worried that weiqi and yeeling would see us on the bus. but wells, we saw her at the junction to the mrt station and we dived down immediately. and weiqi saw us! HAHAHA expected la. such an big action. its like suddenly the packed bus became empty. LOLS so we still carried on with our act at the mrt station. we sat at the seats in front of the bus stop, and we acted that we’ve seated there for a very long time. weiqi and yeeling acted that they didnt see us and so did we. but we followed them after knowing that they were not angry, but am-chioing. weiqi was super obvious because of her pursed lips. HAHAH then we still acted, not giving up. but i gave it up. LOLS so we admitted to the lie when we actually intended NEVER to admit to it and to keep it as a secret and bring it into our graves. it could be forever a secret if our lie werent exposed in the bus. thats all too bad luh. nevermind about that, we could lie again. HAHAHA just joking. and then we ended our night out with that BIG BIG LIE.

surprisingly, my mum didnt scream at me for my physics, but she was equally disappointed. i am utterly sorry, but what else can i say? nobody likes to hear an apology - its a perpetual letdown.

&-JEAN
*she is decomposing

HEYS.HEYS. dont give up

2008-05-13T20:35:00.006+08:00

HELP!! *frankly speaking, i am really really really scared.*

AND I AM NOT KIDDING.

why should i be afraid when i've done my best during the exams?

*i should because i've not done my best before the exams*

like this. a mirror image talking back to me - a struggle between me and my soul, it is truth i am telling. please tell me i should slap myself awake. stop being so slouchy girl, your fate is about to be ruined in your own hands, destroyed, forever. and i am still sitting here doing nothing. why do i always have to regret when the results come out? why do i always say i've learnt my lesson why i've not learnt anything? lessons learnt are not just about understanding the moral of the story, but correcting the uncorrected and incorrect. JEANICE IS A FAILURE. and you agree dont you? if you agree, tell me what should i do to change this behaviour of mine that i myself cant control. i am unarmed against this, and help me if you are sure you can change me. thanks, and to that, i leave myself till i am able to find back my-self.

okay stop these. just going to wish everyone goodluck for tomorrow for it is LIFE AND DEATH. its the LIFE-CONTROLLING NUMERICAL LETTERS that decides your future. hahaha and dont think its not that serious. how is it like to be compared with a man, who is interviewing the same job as you, holding a report book clean from underlines? you definitely lose in the academically side right? unless, UNLESS. you have talents that many bookworms dont have, then good for you. but dont push your luck too far by relying on talents. talents are NOTHING if you dont have a cert (i am trying to get one, and you are too). (: jiayou! go go go! even if the results you get back tomorrow is as bad as mine, dont be demoralised. *oh man i realise something. i am asking everyone not to get demoralised when i myself will =.=* forget it. just cheer up! (: look on the BRIGHT SIDE. how bright can it be though. LOLS byebye! see you in school tomorrow!

&-i.am.JEAN
P.S.*to someone* dont forget those blank lines and the undisturbed pen..

QUIZ

2008-05-11T17:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! XOXO (:

Hello, my name is:
aw jeaNICE (hopes i can be as nice as my name x.x)

When I'm nervous:
my stomach churns

The last song I listened to was:
依恋 - JOI

Have a hard time understanding:
why skies are blue.

Morning:
love lovely skies

Last night I was talking to:
EDMUND -.- [good grief]

Monday night I'll be:
sleeping. [say no to hibernation]

Heart:
Breaking. [dry and hard]

Was born:
15 september 1993 [pokpokkeh]

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
i love sunshine dancing on my skin. i want to sleep in my room forever too. that makes both likable.

Do you like walking in the rain?
nope. unless i am wearing contact lenses.

Do you like thunderstorms?
yes. after a BIGBIG rain, the air is fresh. and i love rain pelting on my windowpanes.

Are you a vegetarian?
OH NO. i love MEEAT. (x

Anything you absolutely could eat forever?
SUGAR! ._.

What food makes you want to gag?
pizza’s cheese [it has this disgusting vomit smell]

What is your favorite dessert?
hmms. ice cream! (:

You want to get married?
YESH. a wedding on a cruise. just joking x.x

You smoke cigs?
i smoke; not cigs.

Who's the last person that came to your house?
mum?

Is there someone you want to fight?
nope? hahaha

Do you like someone right now?
?Dont know

Song playing?
倒爱 - JOI

What are you doing tomorrow?
running 2.4km and swimming (x

Do you know what tofu is?
reminds me of jay’s song. haha

Have you ever eaten it?
nope. tofu sucks

Do you want to go back to primary school?
HELL NO. i hate my primary school now with this witchy new principal. *BAWLS* I WANT MRS TAN!

Have you ever watched the Britney Spears movie?
?? -.-

What are you doing tonight?
celebrating mother’s day with MUMM!! (x

Are you tired?
DUH.

Who will you be with today/tonight?
MY DEAREST MUM AND DAD AND SISTER!

tomorrow?
dont know :P

What color socks do you have on?
WAHAHA we dont wear socks at home do we?

What color is the shirt you are wearing?
A sweater! i am feverish now haha

Do you think Barbie is a negative role model for young girls?
NO. barbie rocks -.- *i am kidding*

Does your family own any boats?
haha steamboat. [skiang’s answer cute right?]
erm nope we dont own boats. we own floats.

Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?
interesting.. hmm. i guess the most interesting scar i have is on my stomach. HAHA guessed it? BELLY BUTTON! x)

Where were you when 9/11 happened?
supposedly at home. but i was in malaysia when tsunami happened. zzz

How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
1hour. you know you know...

The last text you received on your mobile was from?
erm my uncle.

Last movie you watched?
the leap years which was like MONTHS AWAY.

Do you wish at 11:11?
yeah [oops] hahah

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
specs! =.=

Next vacation you're going on?
erm sec3 intergrated camp counted? hahaha

Do you have any piercings?
ear piercings?? a hole on each.

Last person you hugged?
my mummy! HAHA just this morning.

The last time and place you went out to?
last night at my aunt’s place. celebration for mother’s day.

What made you angry today?
my sick body. zzz think straight people. think straight.

Do you sing in the shower?
HAHA YEP. you cant resist singing in secluded places.

Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
hahah personally? birthday song lor.

Do you love anyone?
haha yeah. family 204 & 306!! (: WHOOTS

Have you ever bungee jumped?
YEAP. i remember answering this question before didnt i?

How many pets do you have?
one turtle [guigui] HAHA

Who's your celeb crush(s)?
WUZUN S.H.E KING0NE 5566 and so on...

Do you find yourself loved?
>.<>

Has anyone you were close to you passed away recently?
NO. and better not.

Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
erm i dont remember any if you exclude my school table. HAHAH

What's the closest orange object to you?
MUAHAHA my english file and my sister’s baggage ‘JOINUS.SG’

What is your natural hair colour?
HYEHHYEH!? erm blackish la. thanks to sunlight for changing my hair colour. HAHA

What is your current mood?
HEADACHE – puzzled and bored.

What color underwear are you wearing?
HAHA what lame question

If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
impatience impatience and impatience.

If you must be an animal for a day?
._. terrapin. its my favourite. erm maybe a charming horse. HAHA

Ever had a near death experience?
yeah.

Something you do a lot?
S-L-E-E-P. (: i sleep off half a day everyday.

When was the last time you cried?
just now. because i was like so sick then tears just fall subconsciously.

Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
haha yeah, and only if they know how to appreciate.

If you could have one super power what would it be?
To kill. really. and the first person i want to kill is JEANICE AW. do you know her?

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes.

What do you usually order from starbucks?
starbucks. STAR-BUCK. high quality – money = expensive. i dont go near it. its money sucking

Favorite colour?
SKY BLUE & LIMEGREEN [306]

Do you speak any other languages?
other than english and chinese, i speak alien language. currently learning gu language.

What's your favorite smell?
detergent smell. hahaha it smells real nice. WHOOTS. i found a soul- siewkiang. she loves that smell too.

Describe your life in one word:
INDESCRIBABLE. [do you see the irony?]

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
HAHA nope. saving this experience for the right one.

What are you thinking about right now?
HEADACHE; please go away

What should you be doing right now?
SLACKING. dont tell me i should be mugging right now after the midyears ended.

Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
my mum. she sucks yesterday. but she rocks today. YOU KNOW FAMILY HAVE NO OVERNIGHT GRUDGES [direct translation]

How often do you pray?
very often. when i am nervous.

Do you like working in a farm?
haha i am alright if its a horse farm.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
yep. hahaha i only act evidently different around the person i hate, because i like everyone!

end of MYE'08

2008-05-09T11:23:00.003+08:00

horrible midyears make me so tired and sick. i am elated that its over. after the exams we reunited with our dearest 204 gang and they were talking about the pure geog test paper. we went to the canteen to eat after a long draggy walk from the classroom to the canteen. i ate rice, that was horrible and yucky. HAHA bad mood bad food? lols then xiuhuan weijia weijie started talking about edwards and i was laughing and laughing. wahahaha. very funny jiu dui le. then after another big wave of persuasion and rushing, we finally got up to go to the bowling alley. and on our way, i crapped whole lot about geography from surrounding trees having shallow roots, humus, bamboo thickets, broad waxy leaves with driptips. something funny from weijie when i pointed out to a tree's roots and said shallow roots. he said "ALPHA AND BETA ROOTS" issit it funny!? MUAHAHAHAHAH!! laugh people! its funny. hmmms..

after examinations.. issit the time to celebrate yet? there is something clinging on to my heart, pulling it down really heavily. i cant get high, cant laugh heartily and hell, whats wrong with me? the affairs of the heart- what does it really mean? i wonder, without a conclusion. its over, me and with anything. ended.

after the geography test that i was taken aback and speechless about it, i wanted to bowl. but all of a sudden i didnt want to. it seems foreign to me. just like it has always been. its not a thing i like, but only something i do to interact and get along with them. without it our stand is over. i doubt you understand what i mean but its just this and that that complicates matters. and i am confused myself. what do i know about myself?

feeling tired after the exams? sad because of my results? mentally worn out? i dont know but i am trying to keep up with the pace of all of them. they are standing beside me, just so close but so far. why!? they seem happy and relaxed but i am not. i had enough. its time to lock myself up or welcome the warmest rays of the sunlight. i am going to run or play basketball- whichever suits my mood. hahah today is the start of my five day work week. HAHA omg i am still thinking of social studies. is five day play week. treasure these five days before the scolding and crying begins. LOLS

JEAN
* i am afraid of the arrival of wednesday *

QUIZ! (:

2008-05-04T19:06:00.002+08:00

seriously i should give myself a break and do something.

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
before i turn old. i want to look radiant! hahaha maybe after i obtain success. if i am sure he is the one, i wont wait.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yes! to my family members. but if for love, nope. (: save it for the right partner. the right one is worth the wait.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
myself, and my family. currently there is no friend i trust telling problems except two. not someone i am close with though.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope. not too much will be good. too much confidence is proudness.

5. If sacrificing something of yours would bring happiness to another, would you do it?
i would try to part with it, if it truely will bring happiness.

6. What do you like to do when you have nothing to do?
sing sing and sing. and take photos. dont miss me out for sunrises and sunsets! (: the rays are the most beautiful art piece in the world. not forgetting clouds.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my health and my life.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
100%. no cheats, no doubts, pure honesty and trust.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yeah.

10. If a genie would have appear right in front of you currently and willing to grant you three wishes, what would it be?
#1: i want to be successful so that i can take care of my family.
#2: i want to have friends that are truthful and willing to share problems with me.
#3: peace in the world, with love and trust.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
humourous. there is no refusing a person with absolute humor.
willing to share his day with me when i am down, but i will do the same(:
not keeping stuffs from me, at least not something that i should know and i am kept in the dark.
not acting cool all the time. can be abit silly sometimes (x

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
erm i guess- people with no self control- people like me. i hate myself, though i love myself. just contradicting.

13. What is your ambition?
i dont know. alot. but i will settle down soon. doctor? i want to save lives. photographer? i want to dedicate my life to photography. actress? i want to act. singer? i want to sing infront of people who can appreciate my voice.

14. Have you ever cut yourself out of depression before?
erm nope. i saw my friend act emo, trying to cut herself, so i copied her. and i got myself cut zzz.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
INTEREST. i think it is more important than health. i can still do things i love if i am about to die.

16. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend / girlfriend?
Not a need, just a want la. hahaha but i think better not, because i watch too much teevee so i've got unrealistic wants from my boyfriend. OH i am downgrading myself.

17. At this point in time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
stay in my comfort zone and sleep. my comfort zone is my comfy bed. GEE!

18. Tell me five things that we don't know about you.
#1: I don't like dreams.
#2: i dislike singing. but i love it.
#3: i dont want to live anymore. HAHAH just joking. i cherish life okay?
#4: i havent touch bio till now when bio exam is tomorrow. okay countdown: 12 hours only.
#5:

19. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
i would want to change my impatience. its getting on my nerves.

20. If you have quarreled with your friend, what would you do?
if he or she is worth, i would want to patch up with her, though sometimes my pride is blocking my view.

WHAT IF.

2008-04-29T20:20:00.004+08:00

at that point of time i worry.
a million times more worried.
a life that i was supposed to save?
i was anxious and in such a dilemma that i could not hold on anymore.
i broke out to ask wenhui and cheyenne
if i should ask that stranger.
PAIN. his expression was revealing pure agony.
he was cupping his chest. he was weird.
a simple question "are you okay?" was hard to come out.
and i question myself in guilt and hatred.
being a person aspiring to be a doctor,
that should not be the being.
saving first, hestitation second.
but i waited too long. too long.
what if he collapse the next moment?
what if he dies with eyes open, staring coldly at me,
blaming me for not saving his life? WHAT IF...

*the utmost guilt cant be covered by anything. its pain i am suffering too.*

BIRTHDAY BABIES YOU AND ME!

2008-04-26T18:16:00.000+08:00

YOOHOO! *shouting in gladness that today is the most relaxing day in this week all thanks to my happy hormones working well*
today is the birthday of two! MY DEAREST WEIJIA and kaijie! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

thanks to WEIJIA WEIQI YEELING JIAYU YIXIE WEIJIE HIOKANN NOEL TINGHUAN JOEY CHEYENNE WENHUI KARINE ANQI for all the fun today!

my happy day started with a surprising message invitation to meet karine and them for 306 breakfast at jec macdonalds. (: thanks for remembering me anyway, karine! hahaha its supposed to be 7.30. which means i need to wake up by 5.30 when i can sleep till 7.10. great difference right? but i told her i’ll be meeting them at 8. so i would have to wake up by 6. thats much better, because i was lacking the sleep. my parents was making a whole lot noise yesterday at 12midnight, throwing shoes on the floor (and i pity the neighbours living below). GEESH and i fell asleep only at 12.50am. YAWNS i thought i wouldnt be able to crawl to school even so without my sleep. HAIX.. i woke up at 6.15, much later than expected. but there i was, sitting at the windowsill, drinking my milk, peering through the window, welcoming the first rays of light shining down from the sky. i knew today’s going to be real good!
GOOD START
= GOOD SLEEP
= GOOD ESSAY
= GOOD MOOD
= GOOD DAY!
well at least that was what i thought. everything was like that except for the good essay part. okay to permit me from jumping parts, i shall continue with the breakfast part. i reached jec, at around 7.52am. and i was frantically hesitating whether or not call karine to see if they reached. but wells, before i hit that green button, i saw familiar faces, and i smiled. tinghuan noel and anqi was there sitting at the long table. haha we chatted for quite awhile, then we noticed someone from across the road. “jiaen?” “wenhui?” these were our thoughts because the person wearing class tee let down her hair. who the person was? neither one, it was JOEY! (: she didnt tie her hair and that was my first time seeing her letting down her hair! WHEE so nice. then, we went to buy our breakfast! most of us ate mcgriddles! SO DAMN NICE! you’ve got to pay much attention to the middle piece of meat what provides the aromatic smell. i was salivating so i sort of gobbled it up. HEEHEE. tinghuan ate hotcakes with sausage, joey ate big breakfast. anqi and i ate mcgriddles. hahaha (: then it was wenhui and karine who came next, then lastly cheyenne. we were laughing and chatting all the way, and i guess the most interesting part was the showtelling part by wenhui. “i shouldn’t be alive”.. i guess i must watch that show or else i will regret. hahahaha she started telling the story at about 8.32 and ended it when we took cab to school. LOLS nice story man. i shall go watch it tonight online if i can find it. hahaha our cab fare was six dollars. me (in front), cheyenne (behind me) wenhui (middle) and tinghuan (behind the driver). the cab that karine joey anqi and noel took was behind us at the start, but i guess our cabdriver was listening to wenhui’s heartgrabbing story that he was distracted. so they reached in front of us. lols and their cabfare was also six dollars. why? because we are all from three oh SIX!! (: aint it fateful!? thinking back, i am quite related to six. i seem to see sixes everywhere.

hahaha we took lift up to the fourth floor and i saw yeeling and weiqi! HAHAHAH :D and then when i walked past 305 i saw mrs tanxiaoyi teaching them. LOLS. after that our classroom was.. OBVIOUSLY LOCKED. so we all sat down and played mass truth or truth. really lots of people and i knew i was too lucky that day to tio. HAHAHA teoh yi and liling i think got tio. SO SAD MAN. hahaha we played for only while then benny came. much to our disappointment luh. okay i admit i was panicking because i didnt bring my reference material. so i had to borrow from cheyenne. i think i will fail my letter writing terribly. i wrote the personal letter one. then i didnt even meet the basic criteria lor. then i gave up and just wrote my ending. LOLS damn short la. then my compo worse. i went to guailan inside because i couldnt think of anything to write. hahaha nevermind la. i gave up the moment i looked at the questions. LOLS i wasnt in the mood to sit down calmly and write an essay. i am living today FOR PURELY FUN! no more! (x the compo i chose the narrative essay. no choice because i’ve got no stand (neutral) towards the argumentative essay, no views on the article. so now choice la. i wrote until the first three lines, then i got stuck halfway. so no choice, i decided to crap inside. HAHA (: after that, we got to read the chinese essays from 302. quite nice la, especially guoshuai’s one. very chim. and his handwriting is somewhat like calligraphy. then after school i passed my ‘soup’ to benny ng. and last time when jiayu and i was chatting about the ‘soup’ whether we have prepared the ingredients already, started boiling, almost finishing, simmering or served. HAHAHA so lame and know what? weijia really thought that we have to write an essay to benny ng on the process of making a bowl of soup. CUTE LA SHE!! ^^ i wanted benny ng to take a look and then tell me some comments. but too bad, i forgot and i left school. SHIT MAN. how do i get my comments!? zzz forget it man. nothing big.

we left class after finally deciding on going to jec. and there i was thinking “again??” hahaha just went there for breakfast and for lunch too? we sort of crawled to the bus stop, sitting at the busstop watching three 96 pass by helplessly. why is 96 so frequently seen when not needed and not seen when needed? finally our 183 came and we bus-ed to the bus terminal. from our classroom 306 to on the bus, hiokann was disiao-ing weijie, teasing him way too overboard. and know what? he thinks he is not in the wrong. on the bus weijie sat far from us, then changed his place to further. then to the furtherest. what happened exactly?? i wasnt too sure because i was with weijia, way infront of them in school walking to main gate. (and i still remember we had to walk to the second floor at the staircase and to the g.o. de staircase. why not just take the lift all the way down!? zzz crazy man. when weijia and i stopped and waited for them, i realised that the air was damn refreshing, and that rounded up my happy mood with toppings. HEE!) during the journey from main gate to busstop i walked with zoe, so still unaware of what happened behind. but needless to say, hiok ann was teasing him until he began to become fedup. okay thats normal because according to the others, hiok did went overboard. and oh! something about bullying. i guess we 204gang ppl have to take care of yixie and STOP THAT DAMN BULLY (youzhuan) from bullying him. GEESH what the hell was he thinking to bully people from our gang!? JUST JOKING LA. but he was really damn rude to yixie. come’on what makes you ‘bigger’ than yixie that you can bully him? i really cant just swallow down that fury. please la. yixie is so much bigger in size okay. zzz forget it man. and i think hiok have to learn to shiiii when someone is angry. because he didnt stop, which resulted in weijie’s isolation from us. and on the bus we were hesitating who to send to weijie as a peacemaker. firstly hiok went and nothing good came about and weijie got much more angry. we have several conclusions about yixie. 1. is he a man to hesitate SO MUCH (which is like 10 minutes HAHAHA) when asked to comfort his good friend? 2. he is not even better than a vehicle. (when he went to comfort him, weijie would rather look out at the vehicles outside than to look at him.) 3. he has no charm. (he couldnt get weijie’s attention to listen.) LOLS and that was really funny to see us all very desperate to get yixie there to comfort him. of course, yixie didnt succeed. it was then, the rumor partner / birthday girl went to comfort him. wells, i guess the outcome is obvious. weijia came back and said he was am-chio-ing when we worriedly thought he was crying. zzz hahaha okay la he wasnt emo-ing or angry but fedup with hiok.

then next was our dinner, long johns. YUMMY! hahah i only had four bucks with me, thus i borrowed twentycents from jiayu to eat combo1. lols it was really nice man. crispy and juicy. but funny la, i guess i’ve got a hole in my mouth. i just couldnt stop the flow of ‘snowflakes’ (crispy bits) from falling off the plate and from my mouth. zzz and all over me was crispy bits. LOLS! and i was one of the fastest to finish because i surrendered to my stomach’s protests for boluses of food. after that, we went to take neoprints together! YEAH!! =) we all forked out one dollar, and weijia helped me pay my share because i’m broke. jiayu and yixie forked out an extra dollar! thanks man! hahaha then next was the neoprint process! WHEE. we first zillianed with our handphone-neoprint machine. then we started with the REAL neoprint. i was damn weird, sticking out of nowhere everytime. if i manage to operate the scanner, i will upload it here. (: sorry people for not passing to you all for the decoration because there was someone taking photos already, so i was scared that there would not be enough time. PAISEH! please dont be angry! then we got a hard time dividing the neoprints among ourselves because there are seven ppl, two of them who forked out more money. twelve bigger sized neoprint, 18 smaller sized neoprints. HARD TO DIVIDE EH? hahaha but we’ve managed to divide them still. 2 small pieces for each. then left with four small pieces. two each to those who forked out more. one big piece each. left with 5 big pieces. one each to those who forked out more. left with 3 big pieces. one for weijia the birthday girl, one for me the neoprint cutter, and one for weijie the ‘husband’ of the birthday girl. JUST JOKING. (: hahaha okay so we went home after that.

hahaha something FUNNY happened at the mrt station. because yeeling and i was walking infront, then the rest (jiayu wejia weiqi) were way back. yeeling wanted to rush for her train, so i accompanied her up. i waved goodbye to her but there was a person wearing red shirt blocking my view. so i tilted to the right to wave, and the person blocked my view again. so i tilted to the left to wave and the person blocked my view again. when the train left, the person walked up to me. i looked up and i’ve got a biggest shock of my life. it was kaijie. LOLS! (: okay i was waiting patiently for weiqi and weijia but they never seem to appear and the train had arrived! so in panic, i tried to call weiqi, which was infamous for her insensitivity to vibration. and kaijie was there gl-ing me la. HAHA then i called weijia, in hope that she would answer my call. how unlucky that she was so unalert. thats when kaijie said that he saw a 204rian walking in at the end of the train. so i strolled there to check but wells, no one was there. i was about to kill kaijie for lying to me, then he pointed to the cabin at the other side “dor dor! ni de peng you!” i didnt want to believe him, but i just saw them inside. and what terrible was that the door closed on me! OH MY GEESH guess how worked up i was that time. trying to make mouth shapes to tell weijia and weiqi what i meant through the glass panel. then the door opened again. both of us went in. hahah they shut me out la! HAHAH no la is the uncle close too fast le. then i realised something very fateful. kaijie told me its his birthday and i dont believe him. then he took out his ezlink and omg! HAHAHA weijia and kaijie.. uhuh... lols and ‘clever’ me remembered the fact that they both live in bukit gombak! hahaha just that too bad, kaijie was going to bukit batok instead. LOLS funny la. they’ve got fate. then i went home home home! (: and was messaging my dear jiajia. lols she very cute la. haha so enthu cos its her birthday. hahaha i still feel guilty though, for not preparing her gift well. lols. okay now. cut the crap and continue the birthday song..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIJIA AND KAIJIE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! (x

i am thinking of posting my soup essay on the blog, because i think it is the weirdest compo i’ve ever written. why? from head to toe i didnt explain the reason why ‘my’ dad will die. haix sure his comments will be very critical de lor. but i still like the way i use the different xiu ci shou fa. its the first time i am using it so confidently. HAHAHA i will post it after the midyears. remind me again okay?

now now.. the photos!

tina's and my breakfast! WHEE!

noel's and anqi's! HAHAH

HAHAHA!! (: tina doing taiji!

HAHAH HOTCAKES SO HOT!!

my half eaten MCGRIDDLES! (:

in prevention to diabetes. joey poured all the maple syrup on tina's hotcake. HOW SWEET =.=

LONG JOHNS! hahaha too bad dont have hiok cos he very bad today. no la. its because no more space le.

weijia is looking at my cam through her screen? LOLS (:

look at the photographic girl. very 上镜. lols (: the background like those modelling studio one. HAHAH

JIAJIA AND HER POSE! everyone next time when talking about weijia's pla-card action, we MUST pose this out okay!?

look at HER!! (:

THEM! :D

US! :D

if you havent notice, i didnt post the dates this time. because all these were taken today! (: HAHAH
love, JEAN

TOF DAY

2008-04-21T08:55:00.000+08:00

if you havent realised, its another TOF day today.
20.04.08!! (x

its been a really stressful week and i am glad its over. i've wasted the whole of yesterday on the english project and nothing else. and i dont call it a fruitful trip because we have alot more undone- and that is what worries me. i bet there is someone hurling abuses at me today, very revengeful ones even. i dont think i caught a cold, but i've been there sneezing non-stop this morning till my stomach ached. i ate two flu tablets and it doesnt seem to help at all. and my work untouched really stresses me. chinese homework aplenty- gonghan, two suibi, a composition. and the english powerpoint presentation kills because its unfinished till now. i have a very weak socialstudies foundation, causing me to go haywire when i have four essays to do and i have NO IDEA how to start. physics is really hard to me and i guess i have to go for some doubt-clearing session already. i really dread going to school but too bad. examinations are just around the corner and i cant afford to slack. but i've got no energy to mug anymore. hello, WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!

okay i've met the time limit. bye to my dearest computer for the rest of the week.
JEAN

DAYS AGO...

2008-04-18T08:46:00.000+08:00

OH YES! *fufilling my another wish and desire to blog this week.*

oh my since a week long i have not updated any thing here. okay photos? in the other blog bahs. (x hahah okay now what went on during the week and the last....

i was constantly burdened by the accumulating pile of homework, straining my neck and shoulder muscles. its too heavy that i cant support anymore. any homework done? may i borrow it from you to copy? my life is around copying these days and redoing it at home. and my cycle for the week is to sleep at around 9 something? geesh damn early. but my other friends were earlier. shocking times like seven and eight. wow wow wow. *asking them* do you have enough energy for the next day?

09.04.08
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!*
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!*
*HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO KARINE...*
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!*
muacksss and stay healthy wealthy pretty and happy!

10.04.08
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FUNCHUNG,*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!*
only one thing to say... ANQI & FUNCHUNG forever!
(i know it is damn belated but my blessings must be received!)
i had my chinese test and i got 54 over 70. hmms very low right? and jiayu got 60.4 GEESH TOP IN CLASS KAY!? and i am third. the distance is like 天渊之别.. lols i put in so much effort in chinese and i only got 54?! okay nevermind. must be contented. (: we had a bio spa on tests? so stressed leh, i was freaking out for more than half of the time. ): then assembly was a NICE ONE! ANGELINA WAS ON STAGE FIRST ROW THIRD (from the left)!! HAHAHA evia and i was like screaming for her man. WOW she is up for grabs. recess was interferred during recess, and i was dying for lunch at that moment. and blim koped my lunch away. OH MRS LIM WHY MUST YOU MAKE ME DISLIKE YOU FOR THAT DAY!? geesh my mucuous lining on the walls of my stomach is already digested off by hydrocholic acid. do you wish that i would get gastric ulcers? we had an IT lesson for that day and i was sitting in the yellow group. and i was there sadly thinking that i am surely in the lousiest group. but the people in my group doesnt seem like it. so i guessed we were moderate. in the end is below average. zzz okay whatever. i need help in maths is a fact that i dont deny. cool laptops were carried out and used in class. very special though. after school we had our english project discussion and binge-like lunch (for me cos i was starving) in the canteen. if my memory is good enough, i ate an icecream, a packet of milo, and some noodles bah. i've ssssstml. and it is TRUE~ OH NO. then i went home with weijia taking 963. and geesh. during chem and maths lessons i was caught by jesse and blim for putting my phone on the table (and the next day there it is on my table again). its a habit for me. happy habit. whats the problem? i dont use it to sms in class anyway. only maybe at times, check english or chinese words with my dictionary. zzz okay nevermind. still a rule broken.

11.04.08
- i'm sincerely sorry that i have forgotten ALL things on friday. tiring i guess? hahaha

14.04.08
- p.e was badminton again i guess. see how bad my memory is. haix... i only remember my geog test which was like 彗星撞地球, a total disaster for me. three questions, and i managed to answer only one. ZZZ die liao lor. not that i answer only one. is that only that answer is complete. the other two was only half written. oh man. high hopes become no hope *shakes head and sighing continuously* its alright. i've failed geog this common test i dont mind failing it again for mid years. LIKE REAL. i cant afford to ~~FAIL~~!

*if there is a heart indictator, i guess i would buy it right away for i simply cant read between the lines and notice the signs. issit too obvious for me to see or too hidden that i couldnt pry open?

**our eyes met again.
once, twice, thrice...
i cant remember.
too many coincidences,
or an intentional time check on one another?
to that is a suspecting attitude,
or one that shows affection,
that no matter which,
melts my heart and boils it
till my heart dry up?

15.04.08

a very very busy day... tsk tsk tsk. chinese homeworks i have not done. HAIX. and emaths graphs. phy worksheet. (and i slept throughout pauline's lesson >.< ) english about teacher consulation, enrichment is a DAMN NICE MOVIE called The Cat Returns. THE ENDING IS SUPER SUPER NICE (i've watched it on youtube cos i plan to sleep in audi the next enrichment) hahaha then after school we've got english meo survey. and the stupid mouse. i clicked on it for about six times and i had to redo the survey again and again. SHIT MAN. so angry and tired with the mouse. whats the use of buying new ugly big and useless mouses for the school? zzz the blog entry i wrote alot of rubbish. i even added ken lee inside. HAHAHA (x i shall add the video on my blog one day.

16.04.08

- chem test! ahhh i got one question wrong at the back. its so damn easy but i read the question wrongly. i hate myself for having bad eyesight man. zzz haix got to be really careful next time. then at home i rethink about the questions, i think i've got two more questions wrong lor. then bio quite okay la. got confidence. hopefully no careless mistakes. but i got one or two mcq wrong le. hahaha nevermind la i 看开le. haha after school i went home by train. (: hahaha and we were teasing yeeling all the way. and hey yeeling, why am i abnormal most of the times?! hahahaha (x

*to the intiative move taken by him, oh gorsh! (x i am feeling so happy now as my feet sink into the soft moist clouds, climbing over to the moon. If it happens again, perhaps a rainbow will appear and bring me over to the horizons! (: is this another misleading sign, or an obvious one? please do not lead on high up in the skies if it is false, in case i fall and break my heart.

17.04.08

- chemistry very fun cos its about gas volume blah. i like chem for today cos miss neoh teaches better than MRS shamima. hahaha lols social studies was OMG. miss tan gave us four comparison essays for homework! GEESH she must be crazy man. homework reader indicated HOMEWORK OVERLOAD! today's assembly rocks man. kawaii children doing fashion show for international friendship day. then MANY housekeeping matters from blime. vandalism one very funny. the teacher sound threatening. LOLS then emaths was okay la. quite digestable. just that our paces is really very very fast. i cant absorb much la. hahaha okay okay. my mum is shouting at me. good night. (x

*to your short answers, i gave up.

**BANG! and its all over.

you left

all gone

everything died

no more

nothing else

emo zzz

2008-04-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

ARGHHH! *really tired of life and seriously wanting to give it up*

how long can i live anyway?

its been three days of school and i need to let out the stress that i had due to the tightly packed schedules of tests at the later part of the week. initially i thought i could get through this week and relax in the next, but heaven isnt by my side. geesh. maths and chemistry tests are pushed to next week, cramping with geog, bio and chem retest! OMG. so i have five tests next week? any blades to spare?

07.04.08
- during social studies, miss tan chionged through her slides of chapter 3. we finished it in about 45 mins leh. and for more than 15mins, she was there talking about stories of her own, like jcs and whatsoever. hahaha and i can really see that she treats misskoh as her best friend. praises and compliments. i am sorry that cant remember much about that day except for the maths lesson that totally made me freak out. we were going through the binomial questions, then i did it in the term R+1 method. yet blim wants the expansion method, which is the method i am weaker in. OH MY thinking of it now, i sweat. she could have called forty other students, but why me!? i was called up to expand the binomial expression, and so embarrassed because i didnt know how to do. aiyoh luckily i remember in time. LOLS akward la! zzz and i took about three minutes to expand a simple expression lor! LOUSY RIGHT? i was trembling and my knees turned jelly. OOO now i grin at my fear. HAHAHAH funny la. oh there was also something which i remember clearly (and i dont think i will ever forget because i was hurt so deeply that i never want to do it again). i am not telling who hurt me or what, but i just have to say that, i guess i will never find a truthful and caring friend in 306 other than 204rians. very disappointing to see their tails, and their words just slit my heart open, letting my blood flow profusely and sneer at me. i want to find a friend to pour my troubles, but i simply cant find any. even the people from 204 because it seems like we are distancing. they are not there when i need them. just gone. okay stop this crap and continue with the day. i went to 304 and then, accompanied zoe to clementi central to buy food. we talked talked and talked, HAHA so nice (x but sorry zoe! you have to rush back because of me. and sorry to c4 for letting you guys wait for me! 对不起! oh my god so cheena. but dont know why, because of benny ng i start to like chinese abit more. i spend time on chinese too. hahah we went back and unfortunately, THE BACK GATE WAS CLOSED! still have to run all the way back to the main gate. ate ice cream before i went. HAHA thanks for bringing my bag down, weiqi and yeeling!

08.04.08
- early in the morning, the dark skies matched my feelings since the day before. the sadness never seem to diminish at least a little. inspirations hatched, and i became a five minute poet. HAHAH so i created the most stupid poem ever, very chim. i doubt you will understand. it is at the other blog, second grey portion. we missed one train at woodlands, then missed another at jurong east. so in the end we missed two. what happened to the train system? its not our fault. its the train that came late. erm school is quite okay, then after school, C4 pangsehed me lor. i didnt know they went already so quite lonely. zzz but i've got my dear bestie and sylvia to talk to me. haha and angee jinghui and yilin were on the same train as me. (x went home ad i guessed i slept for about 1 hr then did abit of homework like srp and maths. haix tuesday was the worst day ever. ever heard of people who cried till they fall asleep? and the next day my eye lids were like OH MY GEESH. life, that brutal and subtle, that humble and crumbles the next moment. this reasoning makes me really sad, thats why i cried. okay maybe something else. but whatever it is, i hate life. AH OKAY STOP MY EMONESS. and that night i realised that the people i love most are always those who hurt me the deepest. so i thought 人世间情谓何物? and i asked myself this question for the whole of the next day which is HOW WILL YOU REMEMBER ME IF ONE DAY, I WERE TO LEAVE? and after thought and consideration, i realised that i am the worst friend you can ever expect. i have never been good before, resulting in this state i am in, following other people's lives. but what so. friends are just a piece of mirror that shows you the real YOU. so they are somehow or rather the same. but i still think i can live without friends. because, to me, love is not something anymore.

09.04.08
- OMG I FAILED MY CHEMIE TEST as expected la. HAHAHA i got 8!? two more marks to a double digit lor. zzz nevermind la. i will try to pass the retest, if not go for detention lor. we worse than 304 leh. they got three passes and we've got only two. thus fail also can be top three in class. LOLS so good. huiying and yongzhuang passed leh! SO PRO RIGHT? the chem quiz. aiyah sian la i got 6/8 and jiayu got full marks! ZZZ nevermind, cos she revised already but i havent. then blim wanted to postpone our test to next tuesday, then i told her we got test. then she asked what test, then when i replied her 'chem retest', she asked "how many people?" we said "whole class only got two people pass" then she was so shocked and said "WAH YOU MEAN YOUR CHEMISTRY IS SO SOLID ARH!? issit your own chemistry among you guys or the real chemistry?" she means chemistry among ppl or chemistry the subject. LOLS then we say is our chemistry. that, of course was one of the fun part. also, when she asked yewyeong a question on how to expand a binomial expression, he didnt know how to anwser. then she was like so agitated so we giggled and giggled. in the end yujian answered her question. lols after a whole big round she finally got her desired answer from him. but the happy part will never last. blim was FUMING and RAGING because instead of hearing it from yinkar or jiaen, she heard from other teachers *well thats the main reason she was angry* that yewyeong and yongzhuang ate at the canteen during her lesson when she was on course. and they were caught, thus the teacher went to tell blim. and poor her, she was so angry. you should have seen her SCREAMING EVEN LOUDER THAN IN THE PARADE SQUARE. i see her red exasperated facial expressions, her veins surfacing from her neck sides, and her eyes slightly teary, and i really pity her. angry is not enough to describe her feelings. way far beyond fuming, exploded many times. she shouted for about 30 minutes you know?! its like having repeated volcano explosions in the classroom and any moment later, there would be one that sends you jumping off the ground. HAHA after school, weijia weijie jiejun yixie bingyi and i went down for lunch, with two of us the girls, sitting at one side and four guys squeezing at the other side. LOLS very funny. thus weijia and i can S P A C E O U T our arms and show them how much space we have. HEEHEE. after that, we went home! (x again, weijia's bus is earlier than mine. HAHA but about five to ten minutes my dear 963 came. HAHAHA quite packed. before alighting i shouted hi to mrs jac. tan who just came down from the bridge. and opps... to wave to me, she let go of her books and her worksheets fell. haha we've got fate man :D hahaha i intended to revise chinese on the bus, but when i managed to find a seat, it was only about half a journey left. so i just read a few passages and then, fell asleep. YAWNS. then i went to buy chinese handbook. and i bought the express one! ): though it is the same and cheaper HAHAH. then.. home sweet home.

okay these days are boring though. because of tests, my life became very packed and scheduled. nevermind i will get through all these and, HAHA claim back freedom after the mid years, where i will show up in choir again. like i've said, before common tests i will disappear, then after that will reappear. then, i will disappear again before midyear, then reappear again. and i am hating choir to the core now. *okay not the choristers*. the end of my DAMN SHORT post. haha bye
JEANICE

PHOTOS!

2008-04-07T05:01:00.000+08:00

WHEE! *photo time!*

see that uncle with that dog? 06.03.08

yeeling went super far away, left with me eunice and weiqi. haha the dog so cute! 06.03.08

i went to lot1 and bought eunice's cake and present. HEE 06.03.08

TADA! the cake! LOLS 07.03.08

hiokann's masterpiece drawn behind the 204's birthday card for eunice. 07.03.08

OPPS!? featuring weijia and yixie 12.03.08

微笑小天使! HAHAHAHA just joking 12.03.08

the final masterpiece! HAHAH 12.03.08

sinyi's and my kfc dinner at jurong point after the leap years. (: 12.03.08

noel's cute keychains.. and erm.. spongebob looks horny. HEE 24.03.08

the game with 308! fierce competition O.o 24.03.08

yijie and zhiyun (i think its her) hitting each other LOLS 24.03.08

de cheng our goal keeper. WELL DONE! hahah 24.03.08

cheyenne and zhiyun fighting for the ball.. 24.03.08

joey and dawn. candid pose man (x 24.03.08

the maddening match with 305. but well done 306xies! 24.03.08

i was very angry with someone so i used permenant marker and drew this on my table. 306 CLASS TEE! (x 25.03.08

she feels blessed to be able to eat this ice cream that i bought for her cos i lost in a bet!? 28.03.08

weiqi and sinyi! (x HAHAHA loves <33

cheyenne! MUAHAHA and yixie too! (x 31.03.08

cheyenne's and my over shot results for the first time 31.03.08

pouring solutionP into the burette (: 31.03.08

my third and cheyenne's second tests. HAHA 31.03.08

my favourite photo. our comparisions of overshot and light pink HEEHEE 31.03.08

kuanlian huiying cheyenne and my light pink results added together! HAHAH 31.03.08

the overshot results of the second bench with the light pink results of the first bench. HAHAH nice comparison 31.03.08

eunice and yixie. and how he smiles shows his happiness. HAHAHA 02.04.08

opps i accidentally cut off thomas. HAHA astro boy benny ng. not bad. i like blim's one. HAHA 03.04.08

orange red precipitate! HAHAHA too bad i didnt manage to capture the change in colour 03.04.08

jiayu's and my alcohol emulsion test! (x 03.04.08

my test results! :D 03.04.08

jiayu's infront mine behind. HAHA 03.04.08

this is what sinyi drew in her handbook. nice right? HAHAH 204!

our sentosa trip remember 204gang? HAHAHA

thats all for today. bye!
JEAN-

DARE OR DARE

2008-04-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHAHA *I LOVE THREEOHSIX!*

and i realise the things / people i loved in the past are not the ones i love anymore.. its a very depressing discovery that they have changed and things are not the way it is already.

oh yeah on monday's post at the other blog, i missed out the LAME joke darren tay said. and i really wonder why the guys laugh at this COMMON joke. its like most of them know it lor... okay this is it. i bet you have heard about it. Is Mas Selamat a female or male? Ans: man and woman. because he is a wanted man (one third man – two third woman) LOLS. whats so funny about this joke. especially after doing the srp on mas selamat, i realise its not funny at all.

01.04.08
- this special day, tuesday. APRIL FOOLS DAY. and i successfully managed to trick a few. and thanks for the pranks made on me. HAHA during chinese lesson, benny ng adapted a new kind of teaching style that makes me feel much more comfortable. hahaha then he asked yong zhuang to form a sentence with 虎视眈眈. and he actually said 一个色狼虎视眈眈的看着路过的女孩. KNOW WHAT? benny ng changed the character into 一个色狼虎视眈眈的看着路过的yong zhuang! HAHAHA SO FUNNY LA! LOLED yongzhuang is being preyed on. ZZZ nevermind. stop laughing at it *though when i think back, i will giggle* we played pranks on our teachers *DUH* hahaha and they werent angry at all. HAHA so fun luh. first was mr ling’s lesson. he told us to take out our mass density and weight notes. but we acted as if we didnt bring. tinghuan wenhui joey were the main ‘plotters’ of the whole thing. during the lesson, we said “what notes? you havent give us what!?” and he was like so puzzled. he said “then what were we doing the last few lessons? we started on the chapter already what.” HAHA he is doubting if he was dreaming of teaching us. when yewyeong spoilt the thing, tinghuan or joey said “huh!? last time you not enough so only gave some so only a few got. so we dont have yet.” okay it was not convincing but enough to trick the blur mr ling. HAHA then until we said happy april fools day, twenty minutes was already wasted. LOL okay though it is a time consuming trick that needs convincing voices, but we succeeded la. (x three six rocks!! hahaha during the whole lesson, wenhui joey and tinghuan was like m-pok-ing with their lips, then we clerked with our tongues and whistled but mr ling was not bothered to scold us! SO SHUANG LA. he was like letting us create noise on our own. then there was a question that we got it wrong and we didnt understand. so tinghuan joey and i was like kept saying why like a choir. HAHA “why.. why why... why.. why why why... why why.. why.. why why” and it goes on and on. HEEHEE ^^ then mr ling wished us good luck in preying on the next victim- miss koh. HAHAHA and she was partially tricked only. miss koh’s one wasnt as funny because she actually once thought if we were tricking her but she didnt say it out. :D the enrichment was like... ERM COOL? but tiring and the actions are like OMG SO YUCK. some of them are quite okay, but not some that requires some ugly squatting or whatsoever. but three oh sixes (teohyi tinghuan and i) were like zi-highing. BUT VERY FUN! we like shouting and screaming la. HAHAHA and i fell down lor. HAHA cos teohyi want to step on my shoe. then somehow or rather, our legs tangled up. so i fell. LOLS so paiseh. but this is the sort of best enrichment since the start of school. if only one day enrichment turns into rapport building and that would be so nice :D i went home with weiqi yeeling sinyi and eunice sylvia and jiayu. then on the mrt, we met jinghui angee! and yoketeng. (x fate. LOLS LAME. then angee was like laming on the train and jinghui was playing game. very cool lor that version of snake game. okay i am country bumkin i admit. LOLS (not PUMPKIN kay!?) then on my bus after parting with angee and jinghui who were going to amk hub, i overslept leh! ALL THANKS TO A STRANGER UNCLE, you woke me up at the bus stop before my last stop. i’ve got two stops i can alight. thanks uncle! hahahaha quite paiseh leh.. lols i went home and erm i think i studied bah. so tired these days man. zzz okay going on to wednesday

02.04.08
HAPPY ANNIVERSAY TO 204! <33
- i just elaborate on the funny things that happened. during bio, we had about ten minutes discussion on faeces. LOL first question that she asks us was what is the colour of faeces. then parry said white. haha then mrs tan like very shocked lo, until parry explained that the dumb white faeces he was talking about was bird droppings. hey whats the big deal about this dumb joke that i am writing it here? ZZZ then she asked james, and he said a bit brown a bit red. OMG RED? piles? constipation? HAHAHA!! xD and worse, menstruation. that is not i say one arh!? is mrs tan or other people bah. LOLS so horny la. before we were talking about this, james was dozing off repeatedly leh. then after we were talking about faeces and menstruation, he perked up immediately. HAHA so funny. then mrs tan said that eating too much ham will increase chances of getting breast cancer by 60%. LOLS then she said “guys you dont think you wont get breast cancer har.. you all have breasts too, just that it is a different form” WAH. she can say it out so freely man. okay she is a bio teacher afterall. LOL cant stand it. then mrs tan talked about green faeces. she said that only when you meet an unexpected shock (i mean a really really really really really shocking one. not a small thing) and the next day or so you have green faeces. then she told us about her scared experience. she said one day when she went to school, she stepped on something soft and bouncy. but she didnt care and she continued to walk. after walking for a certain distance from that spot, she did something she really regretted. “i seldom screams,” she explained, “except for the rat-killing experience, i dont scream. and this is the second time i screamed” we listened intently. (x and she said that she didnt know why she looked back and she really regretted it. she turned back and she stopped in her tracks, and screamed because she saw a dead rat. (OKAY at this point i must admit that i thought: whats the big deal of stepping on a dead rat. but i have to say maybe mrs tan was very scared of rats due to the rat-killing experience? hahaha) then she walked all the way to school silent, and she clutched on the her handbag (not those school one). she said “i was a good student, my nails were really short. only a little, a little little longer only”. she clutched on to the bag strap and walked all the way, about 10 mins to school. she held on really tightly. and when she reached school and finally released her grip, you know what happened? okay i shant tell you.. to keep you in suspense if i succeed. HEE read on if you want to know. her fingernails were all bent backwards. our fingernails are all convex, agree? and yet, her SHORT fingernails were all flipped outwards and became concave! OMGOMGOMG. scary la. i wonder how much strength she must have applied on her fingertips. try bending your fingernails outwards. i bet it hurts like hell. *OUCH*. and she had to bend it back one by one. GEESH that was torturing too. when she bent it back, there was even a white mark at the nails. LOL pro. she is way TOO PRO. “dont ask me if i had green faeces later on because i couldnt remember” (x cute right? she still entertains us with her own life stories. HAHA (and till now then i realise that some other classmates of mine have the same feeling towards our teachers – blim and mrs tan is the best of all teachers, but hard to distinguish which is still the best. and i am comforted with this similarity of thinking shared among most.)

this whole day not much happenings cos bestie is not here. COME LEH! MUST RECOVER OKAY!? O.o my maths test goner already. HAHAHAHA i sure fail one. my mind totally blank leh! then i was so shocked, staring at the question which was lying on the paper which was in turn, staring back at me. and i stoned for at least five minutes! OHMYGORSH. nevermind, i will really work harder for the retest. *why am i going for retests all the time??* i took bus with weijia at 3.30pm. haha first time leh. at first my bus 963 came first. but it didnt stop and went off because it was rather packed. to that, i was startled. by right, 6 is the peak hour... weird la. nevermind. so i waited for another bus. then weijia’s bus came and i bade goodbye to her. after 3.50, the second bus came and a group of students who came later than me ran to the bus door and full bus went away after they alighted. OMG I REALLY REGRET TAKING BUS LO. its such a waste of my time la! GEESH. then i decided not to waste anymore time and read bio. then at 4.15, the bus came. PHEW, i managed to squeeze up the bus. then i sat and continued my bio read up. i managed to finish till the liver part (because mrs tan haven teach yet) when i reached marsiling. then the bus was very empty and i could see the people sitting in front of me. i saw a girl from nanhua sleeping like a log. her head was like drooping so low luh. HAHAHA then know what!? i managed to recognize her. IT WAS ZIQING. oh my... was she so tired that she had to sleep that way? poor her.. when i reached home, weijia was sleeping luh! GEESH so good la i envy her like siao. but that trip had helped me settle my bio study for that day. the rest was bio. i took a five minutes nap and revised till 12.00pm while smsing. haha my phone was suddenly better that day. weird. (and now its spoilt again) okay now. today..

03.04.08
DARE OR DARE DAY! (x
- the day started with jiaen’s muddleness- she got 206’s class keys instead. then poor 206 have got ours? LOLS the whole class were like looking at the class board when they went in. WHY!? we had our class graffiti on it! WOOHOO! see? so fast got class graffiti le. i will post the pictures one day here. (x hahaha i think it is really nice, that misstan and benny ng actually didnt want to destroy our works by writing notes at the empty spaces. HAHAHA so lame. however, it was eventually destroyed by the class check during assembly. SIAN. how i wish it would forever be up there. HEE... lets use permenant marker and re-draw! LOLS just joking. during chem lesson, i joined in the dare or dare session. fun la! its with wenhui joey cheyenne karine jiaen anqi noel and tinghuan. HAHA so so so fun. and we were damn noisy because the dares are SUPER FUNNY! and i must award decheng for his bravery to sit down there without much complains. thanks man. and i was only able to do my dare on him. if i were to do my first dare (to hook his shoulder flip and say 告诉你个秘密,其实我是警察. BANG! wooh *blows off flame*) on other guys, i might back out. LOLS decheng pro la. got spammed by us seven times luh!! HAHAHAHA i bet if we were to play this game on him again tm, his running speed would be many times faster than a bullet. HAHAHA :D my second dare was during the lunch break where only karine wenhui tinghuan and cheyenne played. karine wenhui and i got the forfeit. karine went to 303 and said hi to yangyee, and i have to shout i love you to yi an and hug her, then wenhui’s one i forgot. LOLS but also quite funny. during maths lesson, i had a total of three dares (so plus the lunch break one, i have four)! OMG. first one on yijie. LOL SO LAME. just have to pat on him, then ask him if he wants a haircut. sorry arh. then the second one i must apologise to the whole class because their ears must have ached alot. i have to go up to the class and say “good afternoon three six, i am going to sing you a song. TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR.” then i laughed all the way back. OH GEESH. the third dare was worse. why!? because it was a total insult to singing. HAHAHA aiyoh dont scold me arh. i have to imitate miss ong’s singing of the 忘不了.. song. HAIX she sang it in cultural pop remember? then it was like so hollow la. ZZZ so paiseh la. why must i sing it like that?? HAHAHA NEVERMIND LA. over le ma. heeheehee i love dare or dare! okay now i list out how decheng was spammed.

-tinghuan messed up his hair and said your hair so nice
-noel went up and snatched his phone, then say your phone very nice leh. (this was the best dare on decheng because he was TOTALLY SHOCKED. hahaha his expression i will never forget)
-i went up and did the shoot him thingy
-tinghuan went up to him and took out his specs, and then left it on her head, and said my sunglasses.
-cheyenne gave him a star, and said give you. by right she have to say 我把天上的星星摘给你.

some of them i forgot le. sorry arh. when i remember i will edit this post and add on. HAHAHA . then after school i was very tired so i went to 304 to sleep. slept for dont know how long, until about 4pm then jiu go home le. i alighted at choachukang to eat dinner with eunice and weiqi at long johns. but i didnt eat cos not enough money LOLS. i want to bowl!! OMG. sian i used up ten dollars of my allowance just on monday because of bowling. LOLS. okay okay i shall stop here. very tired. have to do a last read up on physics. so bye!

JEANICE

EXTENDED POSTING

2008-04-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

APOLOGIES. i posted before i finished my post. really really sorry. so i will continue it now. (x

WAHLAO *very stressed up and pissed off because of the way things went wrong for me*

though good things happen too.. (x

school was really tiring today- lengthy lessons, brain-working questions, exhausting p.e period.... and i tried so hard trying to hang on throughout the day that half of my energy was drained. i had only 50% energy of my normal days' enthusiasm.. sian la. the reason is that i was doing chinese last night till 12.30am. i looked at the clock on the wall and i mumbled, "there is still time, its only 10.30pm" OMGOMG i saw the wrong time. then i continued till around five minutes later, then saw the time again, then i realised the mistake. then i chionged to my bed, and i simply couldnt fall asleep. then at 12.50am, i received long distance call from my mum, then i realised that they would be back by today. UNBELIEVABLE. very short leh. haha nevermind, i dont care. more people to accompany me for the night, its much more comforting. then due to the lack of sleep, i woke up late the next morning. 5.40am. SCARED ME LIKE HELL. i brushed my teeth, then chionged tying my hair (and its is untidy like shit). after that i skipped eating breakfast and i didnt get to re-iron my clothes. so sian.. have to wear my socks and shoes in one minute, then run to the bus-stop by a minute. omg how rushed. haix then i was dozing off in the bus, so embarrassed. the minute i reached school, my spirits was lifted after meeting 204gang at the canteen. and standing for less than five minutes or so, then to the parade square. and after the morning assembly, it was the start of my nightmare. 2.4KM RUN! its is my nightmare because since sec2 i have not trained in my stamina at all. i never run for the 1.6, 2.4 and 3.5 km runs. GEESH really very lousy in my stamina now. i thought i am going to run out a time of 16 to 18 minutes, just like during my slackish sec2 times. tsk tsk tsk... but! HAHAHA i did not let myself down! YAY man. though it is a lousy 14 minutes results, but the first (hiok) got 13! HAHA you see? 204 own leh.. HAHAH lols. at the start of the run, i was with sylvia and jening. then, i tried to catch up with yinkar, and all thanks to her i got the determination to not run the 'short-cut' route (which was not really a short cut at all) i was running with yinkar, andre, trevor, (continued on sunday) yongzhuang and decheng. (x very funny lor. i saw saying jiayou to them all the time, then when i was infront of them, i fisted my hand and waved it like 'victory' sign like that. haha then when they overtake me i will tell them to jiayou. haha but in the end i overtook them. very bad hor.. ): i was quite happy at myself though its 14 mins. because firstly, its been about two years i've not been running at all. secondly, i've got only about three to four hours of sleep. YAWNS and lastly, i didnt eat my breakfast. (x so fourteen minutes is such an outstanding result for me. HEEHEE but i hate sweating, and i regretted drinking the water from the cooler after the run. i had serious migrains throughout the whole day. (and on saturday morning i still had the headaches) then we wasted miss koh 20 mins or so. poor her.. she must be fuming.. LOLS english was really hard to digest. three periods right after 2.4 run. i was suffering from 'indigestion' and 'constipation' HAHA just joking. (: after that was a single period of geog where we did the coniferous forest. i shiver just thinking of how much we have to memorise for class & midyear. the chapter on forest grasslands and tundra blah blah one learnt in sec1? that was so tedious la! so i can just forget getting A for geog this midyear. but i wont anyway. HAHAH then next was.. recess. really weird eating without bestie! COME BACK JIAYU!! i cant wait man.. zzz okay okay stop my 'miss-calls' for jiayu. hey twoohfourians, we never had chinese lessons after recess, right? then i thought all chinese lessons would always be before recess. haha exception for this term. our class got chinese lessons after recess. really weird leh. the feeling not quite right. he told us alot about our class's uncooperation with him. aiyah its just that we are still too shy. i've got guys that i've not talked to at all. erm.. funchung got. decheng dont have.. yong zhuang also dont have. closest one should be yixie hiok and james bah. (x i anticipate becoming super good friends with them just like us and twoohfour guys if you consider that close. HAHA then after that would be amaths. we finished binomial theorem. i am getting stressed already. i have not finished revision exercise 9, so now i have accumulated one more miscellaneous exercise 6. ZZZ die liao la. logs and surds test sure fail. i always fail to see through how to solve the question and to other people, it seems so easy. ARGHH! i tried to practice for at least two hours a day but i will still fail! WHY!? not enough effort? okay i will try harder :( after that was lunch, then i started to copy the social studies essay from yixin. i didnt read up on the chapter, so i dont know how to do. but i did some reading up just now (which is sunday).. okay just hope i wont fail social studies this year. HAHA.. the last period was physics.. right? erm we were continuing on the chapter on mass density and weight. i get confused at the gravity and acceleration due to gravity thing. is there any difference? just that gravity is in N (newtons) and acceleration due to gravity is (N/kg) (continued on monday) hahaha okay i wont elaborate further on the lessons.. after school, i had my chem retest. okay its quite easy. if i fail it.... i will be dead then. HAHAHA after that i stayed back with 204gang, and at 3something, i received a call from my family that they have already reached singapore O.o? HAHAH i was so shocked lor.. i was stunned at quite sad that my free days are over though i miss them alot. (x AND I COULDNT WAIT TO SEE THE PRESENTS MY SISTER BOUGHT FOR ME FROM CHINA AND HONGKONG. they didnt go to taiwan. lols i am so not interested in their affairs... then when i reached home, it was all a mess. the neat nice home i kept thoughout the week was turned into a pig sty. luggages on the floor, leaving minimal space for me to tip-toe through. TSK TSK TSK. and the first surprise i've got *which was also my favourite* was the BIG BIG DOG-SIZED 七仔! OMG i was like OMG-ing.. HAHA its CJ7 de alien la. haha so cute lor. its sitting beside me now. hahaha (x okay then i've got belts, hairbands, clothes, bags, stationary, keychains and a watch that tinghuan and weishan has. (x and as though my sister can read my mind, she bought the striking green colour! WOO-HOO! 306's colour! HAHA SO GLAD MAN!! :D erm my adidas sweater *ranked third of my favourite presents* then still others... haha and oh! NIKE shoes. but it is not real for that. quite sad leh.. i would rather buy the real one in singapore. HAHAHA as if i am that rich. after that i continued with maths revision, then oh my, so sleepy. lack of sleep that previous night leh.. so surely super tired de. haha okay i shall talk about saturday & sunday..

SAT & SUN:
eh, just studying? when have i become much of a nerd lately? haha being nerdy is not that bad afterall. as long as your results is good, i dont mind looking nerdier as i am now. HAHAH i did my maths revision, chem retest revision (because i am bound to fail the second test of term two), physics revision and chinese revision. i am stressed because my bio is not getting any better, yet i've not spent any hours on it. DEAD MEAT MAN. same goes to my social studies.. failures are on a clinging state onto me nowadays. WHY WHY WHY!? sian la.. even mischeivious guys can put in more effort than me, so why cant i? even people who live further than me can achieve better grades, so why cant i? people who use the computer more than me can score better than me, so why cant i? I CAN! (x

so in order to spend more time on studying, i have to sacrifice posts. this post is an example. due to the strict rule of spending only about an hour on computer a day, i've got to continue the post on another day. SIAN... nevermind. stop my crapping. its a monday now, so i've got to go and post on the other blog about the interesting today. HAHAHA (x go tag okay? hee
*JEAN

TRANSPARENCY; TRANSLUCENCY

2008-03-27T07:28:00.000+08:00

STRESSED!!! *cupped hands under my cheek bones and hair dishevelled*

the only day that did not pour - yet its skies are turning grey...

flipping through crumpled chemistry notes; browsing through the dog-eared chemistry textbook; reading into chemistry ten year series while singing songs played through the computer, blogging right now. 一心五用,没什么了不起.. HAHAHA and i might end up failing that chem test of mine. i am VERY VERY PLEASED to able to reach home at 4pm, and settle home affairs by 4.15 and blogging here at 4.30pm. hard up on cash right now. we've this cip project at the children's orphanage. i have to admit that i really dislike children (unless its my own child). my cousins get on my nerves when they rant, tug at your shirt and hit you continuously at your arm when you are burying your head, busy doing something else. WHY THE ORPHANAGE!? WHY NOT THE OLD FOLKS HOME!? i love the elderly. they are much more cuter. and much more obedient. HAHAH we've got to organise a party that includes blowing ballons for the children and interaction with them by teaching them how to blow the ballons. (and we have to pay for the course & buy the ballons and pump ourselves. the price is okay, just that the pump is expensive). then we would have a game period. maybe playing matches like captains ball, poison ball (thats what i play at the children's age) or basketball and soccer. fun! and i get reminded of today's basketball match - sec3 basketballers vs. sec4 basketballers. VERY VERY INTERESTING! SEC3 MUST WIN HOR! esp my class de! hahaha we support you guys! okay back to the topic. then we will have a lunch break where we will drag for an hour or so? HAHA so as to earn more cip points HEE. then maybe some performances like dance, musical instrumental performances and singing? LOLS then we might have free interaction time where we can play whatever we want with a few kids. i bet that time i would be either avoiding those kids or choosing a few quiet ones and play with them. i got absolutely no idea what to do with those kids at their age where they will create havoc ZZZ. but we have the other cip project at the spca! HURRAY! washing animals, picking up poo, cleaning cages and feeding them i guess? haha i bet it would be fun seeing friends and myself running away from dogs and cats. i am afraid of them though they are SOOO CUTE. oh my, when can my phobia be thrown away in a lordly manner? i really hope one day i can play with dogs without fearing their seemingly ferocious teeth. shall see...

today's best period was the bio lesson again! HAHAHA and the maths too! (x our favourite teachers always provide the best lessons. during bio, mrs tan was going through the chapter on human digestion. she is very funny la. she said we cant use biological terms when speaking in normal life. for example, "i have just ingested (eaten) my lunch." and "i just had egestion (removal of waste products) in the toliet". hahaha sounds really funny though. i shall try using the ingested one in real life. see if anybody laughs. thinking back, it is maybe not really that funny afterall. HAHA okay then we've got our maths period, and blim said "i was struggling with maths at university, and my class only had 50 people studying amaths. i was frantically copying down whatever notes there were and there's those brainy guys that sat in class, folding their arms and listening to the lecturer, not writing anything. and they were always the distinction scorers. TO BELIEVE I WAS IN THAT CLASS! *expression of disbelief* i was never a good maths student. NEVER *she said with emphasis*. even in my sec3, i failed my amaths throughOUT the year *exaggerating actions*! and my amaths teacher gave up on me and pleaded *action of begging* me to drop amaths. but i wanted to prove her wrong. YET NOW I AM A TEACHER OF AMATHS!! and the amaths teacher who told me to give up on amaths do not know that i am teaching AMATHS RIGHT NOW AND NURTURING DISTINCTION SCORERS! *laughters, and we clapped and cheered for her* so james, spending 15 minutes everyday is NOT ENOUGH! i spent 5 hours on maths EVERY SINGLE DAY when i was in sec3. *constantly suaning james on the fact that we have to spend at least an hour on maths everyday* if you fail your amaths, you deserved it." HAHAHA since she is so persistent of us having to spend at least an hour of maths everyday, i guess i have not a single reason to disobey and reject her kind intentions. i try if i have enough time.

so now, i am ending this post to save time! and i took only 30mins on this post. a good improvement. then one day i will wash my hands off this blog for a few weeks then update. HAH just joking. (: okay, see you!
JEAN
*i have the answer in my heart since long. and i am not surprised at your answer. i had the preparation to get disappointed, so i was not at all disappointed. HAHA (x it was still nice dreaming that i can go on that trip. better than nothing! :D

THUNDER & LIGHTNING / SUNBEAMS ON THE SUMMER STREAM

2008-03-25T13:30:00.000+08:00

RAAAWWR! *fisting my hands till my veins surface from my reddened skin*

erm but i am not really angry.... three cheers for 306, please?

THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FOR 3/6,
HIP-HIP
*HURRAY...*
HIP-HIP
*HURRAY...*
HIP-HIP
*HURRAY!!!!*
Good morning/afternoon/evening readers. i am proud to announce that nanhua high's class 306 has clinched the second place in the sec3 level mass games volley handball match! *CLAPS CHEERS SCREAMS* and very happy to say that we are definitely the best in terms of skills or whatsoever. just that we werent lucky enough to score. but nevermind. that doesnt bring down our morale! (x HAPPY! WOO-HOO! hahahahah i see smiles on everyone's faces!

even though 305's people had did something bad... is dennis yong zhuan tinghuan still alright? i have this anger brewing deep down inside, like swirls at the bottom of the sea, gradually forming waves and then hurricanes. how scary my anger would turn the world into. just joking. because they hurt our 306xies, therefore its a uneven feeling down there already, thus if any 305ppl (those who fouled in the match) do anything wrong to 306xies again, THEY WILL TASTE THE STRENGTH OF MY FIST.. hahaha lols doesnt sound persuasive leh. sian.. nevermind.

The findings of my most desperate ways to vent my utmost anger got haphazardly high. i would ponder late on, "whats the use of getting angry thereafter winning the match in comparison of skills." Perhaps the destroy of dennis's spectacles was the most maddening as it showed the rowdy behaviour that the players of 305 had during the whole match. continuous attacks from the players, namely darren (i dare to say because he dare to foul), had got me furious, slightly unreasonably furious though. But i think it is still too much accepting defeat when it gets transparently clear to you that 306 players are so much better in terms of skills, not the goals. and the honour gets to 305 through unjusticable methods - how maddening! >.<

about xinjie. SHE LEFT US INCOMPLETE AND HEARTS HANGING! oh no.. its about to crack. a class is never complete with the numerical number - 41. we are 42 306xies! why!! she have to leave and make us so sad... )': i will miss her. and i did, unconsciously staring at the lonely table, previously occupied by the quiet lonely girl. not really lonely though, but i guess she took quite some time to adapt. generous offers from several cliques to accept her let her open up a little? seems like it. i really hope she would come back for visiting and come and contact us. meet up for a lunch, and i guess that would really draw us closer. you would miss her, wouldnt you?

thats all for today, i've got to read up on mathematics. blim's maths test equals to STRESS. you cant possibly sit back and relax and do no revision when there is a maths test and the setter is blim. so, yeah. i will spend an hour revising! :D seeya soon. hopefully my effort to read up on maths will pay off. or at least a little..

BYE! JEAN

THE BAN IS .. OVER?

2008-03-21T17:12:00.001+08:00

FINALLY! *standing on the top of the world, glad that i am finally owning!*

WOOH! after so many days of being banned, i am allowed online to mark my footsteps on the ground. NYEHEHEHEH my hands are already itching to post.

OOO. ITS RAINING. why's the weather so ill bred these days? totally made me ill. i'd caught a cold on wednesday, and a hundred thanks to my kfc dinner, i got really ill. maybe partly because of the two packets of crackers eaten during the movie, i got really bad cough and, anybody have got blood stopping pills? fever's no big issue. just that i can sweat kgs and flood my whole house. its pretty hot for sure, but undoubtedly cold outside in the night. extreme weather conditions had got me down tangled with all these serious sickness. GEESH. i am banned from computer to make it worse, all because of my horrendous results. OH BLAME MYSELF. who asks me to be playing when others are studying. what now? oh.. i dont think there is a need to say about what happened on thursday friday saturday and sunday when the cycle is the same. or maybe somehow the same. friday: sleep eat watch teevee sleep eat watch teevee. saturday: sleep eat sleep eat sleep. sunday: sleep eat do homework sleep eat do homework. thats how it goes. and oh my, i can sleep off 16 hours a day! but i dont feel a thing. same goes for food. an apple for a day, keeps the doctor away? so thats why i only eat an apple for the whole day and yucks, it tastes bloody awful because nothing is sweet sour or hot. everything i smell, eat, drink is BITTER. maybe too much hardship. LOLS its inevitable that things tastes bland when sick or ill. nevermind about that then.. this holiday week made me realise that teevee really shows nothing good on it. no good programmes. all rubbish! cheena china shows in the afternoon, boring news, junk programmes. oh man, why dont mediacorp just wind up and do something else instead. phones. my phone had been a real good entertainment for me on all those sickly days. other than putting up with the spoilt function of receiving messages on the spot of course. the rest was okay. playing games, calling, sending messages. without it i might have died on my bed, chewing on my blanket sides. ooo, internet too. just that after being banned, i realised i can live without it! really, its nothing much. just that i worry about my blog becoming degenerated. or maybe becoming stale with oldposts unchanged and tagboard still and stagnant. but wells, i went to my blog already. quite positively tagged! (x thanks for tagging man. it helps alot in reviving it. so now.. i am listening to songs that may be a bit too old. years down the road, when i listen to it again, maybe the world may rock because of them! old songs may become hot again.. geesh i am so bored now. loads of homework literally haunting me in my dreams, and screaming down my neck, hounding me everyday. should i get a 'homework blender' to get them all cut up and juiced, or just get a paper cutter and strip them, or grind them. oh so tired. homework homework and homework just drives me crazy. and there is this old and not so old woman insisting that i can on the com only after finishing substantial amount of my homework. yeah so i am here after finishing the chinese and chem stuffs. havent touch my phyiscs biology and maths yet. oh man, english. i wondered how i chionged my journal and formal letter in school on thursday.. just like a machine typing out letters and crappy journals. will miss koh laugh when she reads my formal letter? full of self praises. distinctions in maths and english? attended advanced maths courses? community awards for being able to communicate well? praises from previous employers? HAHA i bet all these i wrote will never ever happen in my life. okay, just keep them going in my dreams. who knows some good things will happen in reality? WAH i am thinking too much. my fever got my brain juices all mixed up man. next, my family going overseas. hey anyone wana come sleep over at my house? surely dont have one. woodlands leh. and it is not as if it is during the holidays. oh man.... i am going to be home alone and meeting burglars? what kind of setups should i put at the door to trip them over before they start drooling at the empty safebox? my parents worry too much. HEY, i am just going to be fine alone for a week. its fun man, having the hall for myself. music, computer and the whole house is mine. just hope that i wont let my unit be burnt down when i forget to close the stove. HAHA i see the week as going to be great fun though.

okay enough of crapping. its been such a long time since i've on-ed this com. i shall go play some games online or watch 恶作剧2吻! HAHAHA byebye. see ya next time..
&-JEAN

WHEE! (x

2008-03-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

LALALA *feeling really refreshed after spending long hours away from my home*

and i really hope we can do that more often! (x

OH YESH! :D I LOVE TODAY 12.03.08! dont you too?! hahahs
i went to school at 10.05 today. HOW LATE!? then i chionged to school, and i thought i cant go with sylvia today. but she was late too, so in the end we are on the same train! (: hahaha maths lesson was only until 12! WOOOH! we have finished chapter 7! wah blim rocks man. she has this pace that is like... OMG? hahaha and i have to do another miscellaneous exercise now! haix so sian. after school, they organised a farewell lunch for xinjie. haix after she leave, it is not like a class anymore. missing person, unreplaceable. SO SAD! ): 41 306xies=not a complete class. WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO LEAVE! so dramatic =.='" but i couldnt go for the party at sumo house. too rushed. we saw jiejun outside of the class! and he is in the same situation as us- dont know how to while time away. HAHA the meeting time was 4pm lor. so much free time. yixie weijia jiayu jiejun and i ate in school and weijia was like leaving chinchye at the far end of the canteen. LOLS after i finished my food, i helped weijia and yixie (or should i say we three are helping xiuhuan) to build the house. very fun luh. i want to do! :D hahaha we succeeded in making the 遗照 of weijia's ahem ahem cos she was carrying it all the way. then weact sad and crying behind her. HAHAHA really looked like funeral lor, just that some of us are wearing black instead of white. LOLED choi la. we still want weijia's ahem ahem to be alive. HAHA you know where we went? BOWL ZZZ! OMG LA i was left with 45minutes to 2.30 yet i went to bowl. weijia and i played one and a half games each. HAHAH and halfway through our game, chinchye came! (x hahaha just to accompany weijia. hahah joking nia. i rushed through my game and at 2.20, i left west bowl with jiayu. i took 198 to jurong regional library. and i waited for xian for 10 mins. COLD MAN. i went inside and BRR it was north pole. very lame i know. haix then till he came, then i went in. all the way up to find lurlene mcdaniel's book- angel of mercy & angel of hope. read before le. HAHA but i want to choose either one to do a book review. or maybe both. after that we walked down and up and down and up and down just to find seats at the library to do homework. and oh man we wasted about ten minutes. and my legs hurt so much! after that we stopped at the first floor the sofa to do work. then suddenly xian received a call from me. and he thought i prank called him. he said i am 无聊. then i say i didnt. i ransacked my bag and i couldnt find my phone! OMGOMGOMG. then xian answered the call and someone through the phone said "are you the owner of this phone?" "yes" i replied. "could you come to the floor one customers service?" HAHAHA scared me like hell luh! and i went there and the person asked me "can you tell me the model of the phone?" i dont know!! I FORGOT LA! "erm N.... N.. ah i forgot! ah i know! the wallpaper is is... IT SAYS RUDOLPHS!" i stammered like hell and the person took a look then said "yeah it is yours. hahaha you are really lucky because most of the time many people cannot retreive their phone back." PHEW and xian was like laughing at me for like... one to two hours?! zzz yeah i know i am dumb. i scared the wits out of me. GEESH i feel so sorry for my phone! but seriously, till now, i cant remember where i left my phone. i still remember last time i thought i lost my phone when it is actually in my bag. scared eunice weiqi and yeeling to death. HAHAH too exaggerated. funny la. i must really think of a way to keep track of where i put my phone. HAHAHA i am still recovering from the shock now. HAHA then i did half a maths question and we left. stupid him la. keep flaunting that he is taller than me. LIKE WHO ISSNT. almost all my friends are SO MUCH taller than me. like i'd care. HAHAH :D and i am a dumbwit la. i actually went to the escalator that was going down when i want to go up. SAME MISTAKE that i commited with weiqi at lot1. HAHA after that i went to jurong point. and we met jiaqian joanne and xuemiao on the same train. only one cabin apart! then both of us like so... embarrassed? actually i alright one lor. is he embarrassed alone. zzz so we went to the back of the train, the he go kajiao them. he called them to ask where they were. SO LAME RIGHT? and i was chatting through phone with zoe. I WANT GO WATCH STEP UP! but no money! zzz sian la. then both of us went back again. SO CRAP LA walk here walk there. my legs aching liao lor. haha then we reached boonlay. sinyi went to hide up at somewhere. SO LAME LUH. only saw bingyi there. haha went to jurong point after that to choose present for his aunt, baby cousin and grandma. aiyoh his taste really different from mine though. so really hard to make decisions. we chose a pillow for his cousin dyllan. so cute la, hahaha. paiseh i never help much in choosing the present. cos.. taste different mah. HAHAHA so many cute things in precious thoughts. of course, beautiful price tags too ;D then we went to what knitting shop. lols and there is one pillow thing by precious moments de. hahaha i think that one quite nice lor. haha then we went down and i saw weiqi and sinyi's new hairstyle! HAHAHA cute la. sinyi not much diff cos her hair always very straight and smooth flowing. just that weiqi's hair looks abit rough. a pity though, cos her hair is of good type. hahaha but layer very good. haix makes me wana cut my hair too. zzz better not. i want long hair. haha (x can act as GHOST! geesh *goosebumps all over, reminds me of the eye* you all good! pangseh me and xian went down to ntuc first. then we bought tibits, and the time was like... 4.30? zzz then we went up and almost all the ppl was there already. i head counted and i got 11 ppl. then jiejun was waiting at the mrt station! OMG LA. hahah then 12 ppl. suddenly eunice popped out and it became 13 ppl. lols and my ezlink card got exposed! like it wasnt seen before. -.- haha we bought drinks and went in. 13 tickets. so cool luh. one big stack. hahaha then we went in. i have to say something. XIANZHENG IS A VERY NOISY PERSON MAN. HAHAH dont angry arh. but luckily i in good mood, if not... haha i cant stand ppl who destroy my movie mood, so be glad that i am happy today. i knew the girl who acted in the leap years as the child of li-an. woodgrovers, remember we had the audition thingy to select ppl for the movie during pri 6 if i am not wrong? hahah at first elaine and i got in, then i opted out. so ex la! zzz how much? i also forgot but the course really ex like siao la. zzz so too bad. i can only watch that girl acting yet not me. sad luh. quite disappointed. if i joined the course that time, i might not have to fret about how to get in the entertainment circle in the future. or maybe just near the entertainment circle is better than nothing.. forget it. concentrate about the movie. oh yeah i finally knew what jieling was crapping about all along. "hi, i am jeremy" "li-ann" ZZZ and she can repeat it for several mornings la! HAHA :D i almost teared at one lame point. thinking back, why did i? haha almost means never. got tears in my eyes, but i didnt let it flow out. not worth it mah. not really nice la. but i love the actress. wong li lin? haha i dont know how to spell her name. if you want to watch that show, lower your expectations to really enjoy that movie. (x no use watching a movie if you expect perfectionism from it. HAHAHA so dont watch if you are a critic. OH i am indirectly saying that this movie issnt nice. OH YEAH. very true. hahaha just that the leading actress makes me wana watch. haha and this xian was like saying again and again that he needs a haircut. know what eunice said? she said that jeremy looks like tarzan! OMG then all of us was like laughing like mad. OH MY. haha there was a part where li-ann was waiting in the rain in her wedding dress, and a little girl behind actually said "他穿到这样sexy, 很冷leh!" HAHA yanru xian and i was like laughing. then sinyi asked me why we laughed then she laughed too after i told her. hahaha lame la. hahaha after the movie we stucked there for more than fifteen minutes outside macs to decide what to eat. in the end, sinyi bingyi and i ate kfc, xian and vincent ate long john, the rest ate mos burger. i was like so bloated because of the drink in the movie la, then dinner was like... TOO MUCH. my food level was like at my throat le lor. to make things worse, hokit came. he stood behind of sinyi, and told me to keep quiet, then pulled sinyi's chair. HAHAH funny la. he went back after sinyi spat something on the floor accidentally. she very paiseh lor, HAHAH. after that he came back. and i only finished my burger until half. he took the mash potato's sauce to mix with coke, then i added chili, sinyi added cheese. he stirred in front of me. i was quite excited at first, but after he poured on to the plate to hold the cheese fries, i felt.. disgusted. i told sinyi to pick up the fallen fries from the table and throw it into the plate. AND I CAUSED MYSELF TO FEEL LIKE VOMITING.... ZZZ. haix i regretted asking her to throw the cheese fries in. i tried to eat another mouthful of my shrooms burger, but in vain. YUCK! the sight of the mixed juices still stay vividly in my mind! OMG. when can i forget the unappetizing sight? i cant even force down the fruits i have for supper now! GEESH. after eating, we were hesitating whether to go to chevrons or home. aiyah sinyi want go home, so weiqi dont want go le. then i dont want go le. hokit very sian like no one go, so he went home too. so no one went. zzz hokit very evil. i never say about yeeling and him, yet he keep saying me. weiqi sinyi also. didnt say about their husbands lor. zzz forget it man. hahah then we only said bye to hokit and vincent. vincent so rude! we say bye to him he didnt reply or what. dao us. nevermind. sitting on the mrt alone was.. scary. because in my cabin, i am the only girl there. all banglas. ZZZ scared me like hell. then i shifted cabin. too scared le. hahaha then after reaching woodlands, i took my normal route home. weird, why is the sky surprisingly red?

going to sleep now. bye! because of my mum's nagging, i have to end this post abruptly. sorry! ):
JEAN
*i will never forget this day, hopefully.

another plain dark day

2008-03-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

BLANK *moodless ; expressionless ; lifeless*

wonder where did all my energy that i have stored since long went to.. and all those jokes that i laughed at in the recent past are never funny anymore.

went to school alone, and i was on the same train as sylvia! (x and we met each other at clementi and we walked or should i say brisk-walked. because i got blood gushes up my nose. OH gorsh i hate them. its a good thing it is not a nose bleed or else... nevermind dont say such unlucky things. hahaha then on the way at the coffee shop we met yufang, then further up we met muiteng and we called her. we waved to trevor and he actually waved back! :D very surprising cos he never replies when i say hello or bye to him. yeah he is.. silent? =) then we went in and saw jiayu and yixin in the canteen. went up to our class and i saw xuemiao and lingyuan (x and RUDOLPH 1 (noel) CHANGED HER SPECS! she loves three oh six man! HAHA she changed into blue and green colour specs! MUAHAHAHA green rocks! hahaha yippie man. then blim came in and WOOO! her attire so cool la! HAHA easy-jeans is what i call it. today is such a LONG LONG LESSON. two hours of maths. not really. about one and a half. haha i love coordinate geometry now. it looks so damn interesting. opps sorry for the crude word. HEE but we learnt loads of new rules today and it is like too much to digest. luckily we didnt opt for the three hour lesson. i cant. HAHAH noob me la. nevermind about that.

hahahs after the whole lesson, i went to kfc with jiayu and yixie. and oh i forgot about my diet. i promised no more kfcs. one more tonguelash from my mum. and geesh, i have to be pulled to somewhere again. okay crap here. back to the point. jiayu and yixie was like OMG 打情骂俏 luh. i see until my goosebumps all fall off. OH and weijie is yixie's new love. 新欢. hahahahah JUST JOKING cos yixie was calling weijie through the phone for so long! zzz something wrong somewhere. HAA. we walked to the bus stop with yixie following behind umbrella-less. he act cool mah. HAHAH then we met wenhui karine tinghuan anqi funchung there! (: and we took our bus to central. off we go to eat! haha and jiayu and yixie are there having their love bickers again. i feel so extra man. like a shining bright bulb spoiling their romantic candlelight dinner. what a spoilt atmosphere. i ate shrooms and i cleanly forgot about me wanting to eat bandito. all thanks to sinyi and weiqi. they ate bandito last time so i was so tempted. but i forgot to buy it anyway. LOLED. we ate, chatted about everything on the world. and last but not least, we played truth or dare. and i have a dare that is so... LAME. its all about xian zheng. zz i wonder how rumors come about. crappy minds? lame reasonings? nevermind. its that i have to sit with him during the movie. EH please la. weiqi and xianzheng should be the one sitting together okay. *AHH! i am slashed in the throat* i joking nia. dare? i dare. but things cant be so simple. misunderstandings come from simple things and you know... friendships can turn awkwardly hurting if such things happen. and i dont want my friendship to turn sour. YEAH so stop those rumors la. by the way i am not angry ah. cos it is not true so i dont have to be angry. (x so we crapped on. and yeah we got weird questions that was like.. ERM hard to answer. haha then we left at 4.30pm. and i reached home at around 5.35pm. zzz so late man. and i am so so so tired! went online. and my spirits plunged. then no mood to do any homework. and i dont intend to do anyway. not going to say a single thing more. no mood. no expression. no life.

*teases, rumors are just nothing but bullshit. the truth is unspoken and undivulged. and till daybreak, i will pour them out.
**sorry for my moodiness at the other blog. APOLOGIES.
JEAN